You shook my hand,
Slept in my bed,
Took my t shirts
And never called back
I wonder what it means to sin
I lived you and knew it then
Take back those texts
And kick me again
Jumpstart my brain
Evaporate my insecurities
Sit on this beat with me
Let’s ride and ride until the end
For I always knew I loved you
From the moment you humbled me...again.

Im drowning in the arctic sea
Im screaming but no one looks at me
The ice takes hold of my bones
I never thought I’d die alone
Im shivering my eyes to the back of my head
Im holding onto life by the hair on a thread
The waves bounce me thru blocks of ice
Oh Christ! Please let me live this once!
As I approach the edge of life
I imagine myself dropping the knife
And immediately reappear awake this time
Staring up at a Black night.

Their is no sort of hell for the trip we took
I bloodied my knuckles and stabbed myself
You cried your eyes to your knees  
You've erupted into a flowing river of hate
I stand by your door and hopelessly wait
For you to realize i STILL love you.
My cold being is in transition
The icy crater I create in fear of monsters
Yet you erupt and I slide back down my hole
Escaping your roar and claws
Reaching for the only thing I have left
I hold myself and calmly say "this is a nightmare".
I do not sleep in peace
I assume your position hovers above me
I assume you can weaken my defenses
Unlock my door with a glance
I fall asleep in fear that the monsters will release themselves,
That angry beast summons itself and destroys us both.

I'm uncomfortable in my own skin
I seek definitions that do not apply
I search for answers lost in echos
My eyes reflect a being I do not know
The mold does not fit the structure
I just hope my foundation last
Every question seems to lessen my worth
Love the differences embrace the battle
This becomes a disheartening journey
Chasing myself in my room
Up the walls thru my window
I look up arms pleading that I find IT
The one answer to it all
That one that sows the different pieces
Making me whole and bearable
I hope to look at myself without disgust
Without fear without caution
I hope to touch my face and love it's meaning

It came thru on a dagger
Spending my last earn faster
Sped up the toxicology to my master
He leans in with a coarse demeanor
Contemplating courses to make it last her
Devils worship in his eyes are blacker
Souls deepen their bloodied grips harder
Speculation drives the people’s brain madder
Insisting on it’s return to the last crater
We push our own to the edge quicker
Lava molding our faces with anger
Desperately gnawing for clarity's charger
Creating glimpses of light for the masses

Enter the rave with your hood
Your eyes peeled open to the lights
The movement shaking your legs
Lips & teeth clattering around you
The roof is gone
And stars wave from behind clouds
The moon behaves drastically
Pulling you closer to the heat
The stage catches your balance
Your toes curled in your boots
You brace yourself naked hanging outside your shirt #
No one cares
Your pants ripped thru claws
You lick the sweat off your bottom lip
Tasting the salty air sound you
The music fades once again
As you look for that resounding flavor
Your teeth clamp down harddd
Your tongue hides in your throat
Confusion now sets on your body
Weight holds down your legs
Frozen skull in an inferno you’ve become

I’ve been doing so well without you
I can’t believe I still cant numb the pain
Your hair leaves remnants on my bed
I hear your screams in my head
And the pain you’ve left me with
Still vibrates thru my chest
I hate how much I love you
Scarier versions of ourselves
The monsters we cultivated
How can so much pain bear so much love?
It’s that passion that led to this insanity
I’m still here yelling in your face
And you still can’t hear me.

You ever peek your head around the top
See yourself from the outside
Is it possible to think too loud?
Your monotonous actions go unchanged
A inner whisper speaks of another life
One where  the keyboard clicks and telephone rings do not exist,
An alternative universe where your dreams Lay before you
You slide your hand over visions and transport them to your being
Here sounds only express beautiful imagery which bring tears to your eyes
Pain is a distant memory
One nearly forgotten
Here you do not walk
You levitate to what truly belongs to you