I heard from you again, in a random gaming stream
Others saw some internet figure, I saw an old dream
A friend made way back when, just shy from being 15
Everybody sees this tiny bean, when some saw it sprout
How I gleamed when I wondered in my heart where you've been

You've gone by many names, since last I've known of you
Never had an opportunity alone to catch up on 14 to 20
Only ever glimpses, mishaps, happy birthdays and by chances
Happenstance, lucky days, barely any words where the past had plenty

I've known you a quarter of a year, yet 7 was in memory
I wonder how destiny feels, being a part of this story
Her birth solidified me as her never to know god uncle
Will she ever get to complete the puzzle?

I hope one day Justice fines redemption
That he grows to be strong and Tenacious
That blue eyes shine on a dark world
That your destiny is never twirled

And Lastly, I hope you stay a bright star
To others wherever you are
Beyond the Golden Acres on your Scalp
That love and kindness always helps

To you, Raine
Through success and pain

they say love is what we need
just to keep us up to speed
yet its something that leaves so fast
how does anyone make it last

look at the past,hoping it was like that
nowadays we just go and crawl onto a mat
saying you don't know how your "forever" is gone
so surprised it didn't last that long
no use in believing that love is fair
it leaves your heart racing like a hare
and when it ends,you have no power
it leaves you bitter,oh so sour
best to just stay away
you don't wanna be hurt in another way

life use to be so kind
now there's no hope left to find
funny how dumb we were back then
only to grow p and have to pretend
happiness us to be a easy thing
now its as expensive as gold and bling
we try so hard to act like we're happy
but all we know is we feel sappy
don't know why i can't find peace
now i'm stuck on a mental lease
the things we did in the past
the hopes we had that it would last
trying so hard to just live "fine"
cause in this world there is no yours and mine
wishing for things to be divine
your hopes right on a thin line

no need to pretend
your close to reaching the end
the world around you turns so dark
your losing your spark
so deaf, not hearing the dogs bark
or the chirping of a lark
the world disappears for a second and you wonder why
is it your your eyes and mind showing you lies
you waking up only to see the day is done
now you can go home and have some "fun"
which is basically doing nothing and sleeping around
although this sounds profound
it's a daily schedule, it wont change
no need to bother and engage
it'll all be over pretty soon
just look with high hopes at the moon
although dreams don't always seem to last
it's a painful blast
just hold on till it's over
till you feel emotionally sober
wishing you still had imaginary friends
now the pain never seems to end
it's all just a bitter dream
you'll wake up and see a gentle stream
although for some it seems incomplete
so it's fair to admit defeat

In the end, its just as you wanted
To get rid of that silly nuisance that you hated
You'll never see them again,it must feel great
They'll be crying themselves to sleep while your on a clean slate

You councience is dark, empathy for the meek
They wants a reunion, it's all they seek
From A-Z furfilling every desire
You won't even text back, destroying obsessive empires

Will you appreciate what you have when it's all gone
While it writes ballads, such cheesy old songs
One becomes a memory, the other a second thought
Too late was it learnt that love can't be bought

Second chances? Once more? You ***** up once it's all done
That is your punishment for turning a person into your sun
Place them on a pedastal, watch as they cheer
Giving everyone the attention, while your left in tears

Letting Go is easy, you've shown me through your heart
Misleading myself, I should have known from the start
One stays wholesome, the other Just a black hole
One loses an acquaintance, the other their entire soul

You walk away, the leech finally off your back
He might miss you, his life still not on track
Still a mess it seems, just look at his eyes
As he swallows his words to give a broken goodbye

finally sleep feels like a dream

like a gentle little blue stream

ive always waited for someone like you

your beutiful face, your eyes so blue



i never knew how lucky i am

my heart to open like a clam

at first it seemed like just good friends

now hoping that the feeling will never end



i guess you can say loves a drug

cause i get my fix from every hug

since ive met you my heart has been unlocked

how my mind has cleared, its finally unblocked



although we met across a screen

my life is more brighter, the grass more green

i have no regrets in what i say,true and all

cause for your love id always take the fall



people can say what they want its fine

but with me and you its always divine

the world may say my heart is in the sky

but your love is the reason it has wings to fly



mesuring our love on the map, with the contour lines

i don't care what they say,my feelings wont be confined

counting the months till we get to meet, we'll meet one day

cause for your love, ill always make a way

The world scurries for the latest trends
What feels good in your hand, what easily bends
But few see the beauty in the stubborn and the learnt
Where pleasure is never bought, Its earned
what we call love, a rare gift for 2

I’d never call myself willing to stand against the elite
But it is a blessing, to stand on my  feet
To know your eyes would drown lesser souls
I wish to always be your support, to make you a goal
Such a rare commodity  isnt seen until its gone to shore

It is not bragging, where few are blinded to your beauty
My heart is mapping, all the locations it discovered in this city
Things I’d have never done, times I never saw the sun
Set on my issues, or rise on feelings, how fun
This road has been, teardrops clear my eyes to admire you generously


The orange, pink and red, remind me, as I lay in bed
I was deranged, sinking, almost dead where your absence was
Before you said hello, before what I said
when we saw destiny, in the galaxy we call eyes, thus today
I can rejoice knowing, as lost as I was I found the right way

Like the ps2, I float in the space, cubes around me
I float aimlessly, till your planet caught me
I opened, and saw the beauty of your hue
And my heart knew It had to be you
To take many of my firsts, turn my best from their worsts

Nothing I’ve done, is reminiscent of your soul
Never in FIFA did a goal matter
Never in dragon ball, did a fight leave me better
Never did a concert leave me speechless
Like the day I fell in love with you

The song I always searched for
The taste I never experienced
The feeling I never searched for
The soulmate I never knew existed

1 life where I never got to know your name
where life went on the same
but everything felt meaningless
Where your presence was lacking

2 where I roam this world, is it flat? Round?
Does it matter if you were never found?
Everyone seems off, nothing makes sense
Everything around me leaves me in suspense

3 Where I was a made man, wealthy and healthy
But I sit alone in my penthouse
My only companion is in the wall a mouse
So better of that without you I fell lesser than

4 where we passed each other, I say hi
where you didn’t care I was Bi
Yet we never made eye contact
You never kept in touch
a friend, yet that’s where it ended

5 I meet you at the cinema, you spilled my popcorn
6 where you were male and I the feme fatale
7 where I cried like hail, where milo was never born

8 where we made it, and we kissed under the sun
But 9, definitively, is where we met
No matter how it went about, we got the true ending
Where you are my Bun, you’re fine, we’re set

To the 9th life, where alternates failed to complete
A future we grab with both hands
To demons we’ll defeat, to quirks the world will never understand
To the 9th try, where we defied fate

Tryna play pirates in the backyard, ah
bluey playing market with a credit card ah
Rusty throws sticks just to hurt you ah
Honey wears glasses just to tease you ah
None of these hounds on a lease too, ah
Turn a school year into a week too, yeah
Main doggo out of your field yea
Side dog outta yo field too, yea

Kennel so loud need some discipline
Twenty biscuits on me, made with cinnamon
Cut that bone meal into meaty pieces
Honey licks her face, man I love my doggo
You talk buckaroos need a saving space
We're playing shadow running to the shade
Switch up the game, driving in a plane
I switch My cuppy, I don't feel the pain

baa ba baa ba baa ba baa ba ba
Look what you've done!
baa ba baa ba baa ba baa ba ba
Look what you've done!
I'm the motherwoofing Stardawg

Everyday a doggo tryna test me, yah
Everyday a parent tryna end me,yah
Pull off the scooter in a school zone ah
Pocket over weight, stones  heavy, yeah
Coming from the shepherd, thats a far cry
I come alive during play time
No competition I don't really listen
and just like bluey, bumping keepy uppy

Kennel so loud need some discipline
Twenty biscuits on me, made with cinnamon
Cut that bone meal into meaty pieces
Honey licks her face, man I love my doggo
You talk buckaroos need a saving space
We're playing shadow running to the shade
Switch up the game, driving in a plane
I switch My cuppy, I don't feel the pain

baa ba baa ba baa ba baa ba ba
Look what you done!
baa ba baa ba baa ba baa ba ba
Look what you done!
I'm the motherwoofing Stardawg


Let a dog play tablet
Legend of the winter, on the grind like bandit
Bought Bingo a crib and a brand new wagon
Chilli hit the grocery store looking lavish
Star trip ceiling in that house plan
Sheep get loose when the hear this song
Hundred stones on my sheep get me close to DOG
Don't pray for love we pray for candy bars

Kennel so loud need some discipline
Twenty biscuits on me, made with cinnamon
Cut that bone meal into meaty pieces
Honey licks her face, man I love my doggo
You talk buckaroos need a saving space
We're playing shadow running to the shade
Switch up the game, driving in a plane
I switch My cuppy, I don't feel the pain

baa ba baa ba baa ba baa ba ba
Look what you done!
baa ba baa ba baa ba baa ba ba
Look what you done!
I'm the motherwoofing Stardawg

baa ba baa ba baa ba baa ba ba
Look what you done!
baa ba baa ba baa ba baa ba ba
Look what you done!
I'm the motherwoofing Stardawg

I wouldn't know how you feel as I type
But you were always mine
Atleast in hindsight it felt so
Sublime, yet I was inclined
To love the one who saw my hype

When everyone saw my jokes crude
You saw a comedian
when everyone saw a shallow puddle, rude
You saw the Caribbean

So today, I see you, even if not in reality
I see your beauty from memory and history
The kind acts of your mother, and the mysteries
Your tears of mystery, your thoughts of destiny

I hope one day he sees your Glory, your greenish eyes
And I hope that every demon comes to despise
Your beautiful lineage, your kindest acts
From your blunders, to your in facts
May the world keep you whole and intact

May your shape that changes from child birth to Love
Meld into the beautiful soul you host
May you never come to boast of the many blessings
From the God we celebrate up above
And may you be blessed the most

My words don't do enough to describe your totality
Your obscurities and your beauty
May he see what I see in you, if I never get the chance
To fall for you not in hindsight, but at first glance
You deserve the world, not a puddle, you deserve to dance

I know you don't like the name Mirinda, you prefer the beautiful other
But today I wanted to show the beauty as a whole instead
That you needn't see it as a rather anymore
That you soar, and it brings sweet dreams when you go to bed
That nothing stops you from living and loving to your core

I hope you make a great mother
I hope you make a great wife
I hope you see love in the eye of one another
And that you don't see dirt in spite
Of how the storyteller replays events of asunder

Forgive me if this isn't enough
But please learn to love beyond the scope of existence
And always be persistent
Because you are who you are Mirinda
You are as beautiful as every name Mikayla
You are as loving as your family says you are
You are beyond these words, and beyond these feeble stars
You are you
through and through

We joke around and silence hits
At a loss for words, the end of our wits
With topics so ******, we'd never wanna be heard
With laughter so juvenile, ranging to the absurd

Then in solitude, we realise, that moments are just empty time skips
We're empty, riding on hollow vocal ships
We skip from person to person, hoping for a reaction
We hate every moment of the process and have regrets after the action
Like eating cake to have the last say
Then vomiting, in a depressing, monologue of a play

Going day by day, in a monotone manner
having nothing to say, with your Monochrome banner
Humanity carries on, while you stand idle
Like a broken lighthouse, or a stand-still Windmill

Death seems dull, yet excitement feels rare
Every breath is free, yet it catches you by a hair
Like a mannequin roaming an empty dark stage
Trying to wait for the golden years, to realise you're gatekept by your own age

And silence, louder than any bad tune
A blank space, brighter than any rising star
You sit alone, in a room of white space
Unknowing of the world around you

To make sense, of the blank space

Rarely would I believe in stars connecting souls
Or that we could come together sure enough if we would align goals
That a red thread brings strangers together
And that your course of life cannot chance no matter what, or whether
You think you're alone


That you stare at the same night sky, somewhere out there
That love sees us through, even if we don't know where
Or who the other is
That this is what love is
It's precipice


That you count on a map from province to province
Will the hobby bring either prominence?
That even underneath the same night sky
We could think, wonder cry
If souls find love even when their bodies die

That skies open, that rain falls down on the same earth
That since birth, it was predestined souls will meet


That the theory states, that somewhere out there, if it was love, then said souls will come to meet for the first time, or even once more
Regardless of goals, of cares or hate


Cause somewhere out there, a beautiful soul owns your name, your likeness, and it wouldn't be the same
If I never knew, you were somewhere out there

I know that you are suffering, I know you are unwell
but when you feel the need to talk, come to me, do not dispel
Sit next to me, and hold my hand, I promise this won't hurt
I know it's hard to understand, but let your emotions spurt

I see the demon at the seams, as its horrors can connect
worry not for I am here, it is my light you can expect
At least I used to think so, till you ran back to the dark
chasing a pointless emotion, curiosity made you embark
I chased after you, unaware it was you running from my grasp
Was I too clingy? too naïve? too nice for you to bear?
You fell and scraped your heart on the tarmac, I tended to the wound
We laughed as I gazed at those moons you seem to call your eyes
Perhaps I did get so attached, that my obsession was disguised
And then you get up, once more, running away without a care

I try to understand you, I try to compromise
The tears flow as I cry, and your words glitter in lies
your never all that busy, to not even donate an hour?
or perhaps you cut off the rotten part like a fruit our love turned sour

I hate you, with a burning passion, yet love you all the same
I never want to see your face, yet its ignition is to blame
the sound of your voice, almost taunt- like in nature
If your vast heart was the ocean, did that make me the sailor?

I had plans of promise rings and our children's names
You had plans for a quick high leading to permanent shame
I envy that I love you, and let you use me so
for when you strike you seem to know, to always hit below

I'm sorry if I smothered you, I'm sorry that I cared
I'm sorry for trying to be there when you were never aware
And yet I wish for one day, we can finally meet face-to-face
To see if it is anger or love that will take place
Your expiations are fleeting, your intentions unsure
Your feelings are feigning, were they ever really pure?

Who's to know who meant what? I the bear and you the trapped cub
I left with the gaping wound and you the sought-after Dub
I'll miss you truly, perhaps more than is healthy
for what we had, just you and I, made me more rich than the wealthy

When first we met it was a treat
My heart practically at your feet
My first time, i hoped to be the one
To hear you say "im not ready" and lie under the sun

Been rejected, still hope clears away pain
Butterflies digested, yet we sing happily in the rain
Known to everyone as a warm soul
When i approach you ignore me as if I'm coal

Smiling away, your happiness drives me
Life is already a mess, emotions deprived from inside me
Funny yet, when I ignore
You ask why i act colder than before

Knowing my feelings, yet still loving the game
Loving how my every attempt is comedy found in my shame
You can't lose a connection that never existed
But i feel it for everyone who is just as persistent

I wake up, unbothered by the previous night(mares)
Struggling to get out of bed, its another fight (unfair)
I think of you, then remember our separation
My smile wipes of my face with no indication.

Brush my teeth, too afraid to stare at the mirror
Every time I see a glimpse of you in it, I start to quiver
place my hands on the sink to pray
stopping the pain from returning, telling it to go away

Eating breakfast, Pizza and milk
terrible eating habits, enough pent up rage to sow silk
a string spanning longer than our feelings for each other
For when we couldn't admit we couldn't tolerate one another

Leave the premises, cracking a smile
forgetting our genesis, regardless has it been a while
Angered by simplicity, yet welcome to it
Fine with lowered expectations, yet nevermore
placing ones guard higher than ever before

for this is the new normal: Bitter, hurt and none the wiser
even as I type this, I miss her and despise her
would it work? was it worth it?
Is it fate to have one curse it?

it doesn't matter, I catch my bus, unbothered
as under my breath I cuss, smothered(by regret)
my anger grows into numbness(emptiness I beget)
I reach my stop and hop off
earphones subside the voices, but their song is almost as sweet as yours was
I wish I was hit by that very same bus
so the memories can leave me like you did
but alas

this is the new normal, **** it up and carry on