Xavier

Xavier Jan 2015

Adore Me

The days are growing short, shorter in time.
Caught in the tragedy that is my mind.
As cliche as it sounds, sometimes
I'm so over whelmed I wish I could drown.
Drown out the sound, all my feelings and just be numb.
The more I feel, the more I set myself for disappointment, hurt.
You can say I'm dumb but with this heart I wish to take no part in life.
I'm too vulnerable, weak, and unbalanced.
I'll fall over warm words, and crack like egg shells.

I want to be adored, I want to be taught.

#love #heart #relationship #tragedy

Xavier Jan 2015

So Far, So Good

There's so many words pushing against my lips from inside my mouth.
The kind of words and phrases that are true in meaning but can leave the speaker bleeding in regret.
It's so soon but feels so certain like summer after spring.
Constantly up at night thinking of anything and everything in the context of you.
I'm rushing in a dimension where time almost stands still hoping to catch you before someone does.
I see your two eyes and in them there is you and there is I, hoping it remains that way.

But in the mess of all this, I stay calm. Hold your hand, wish, and let it play it's course.

So far, so good.

I sometimes wish I didn't feel anything at all in order for me to keep internal peace.

#love #friends #heart #relationship #thinking #falling #lovers #like

Xavier Jan 2015

8 Lines to You

It's been a while since I've been here, feeling this way.
"Head over heels" some would say.
You're at the tip of my tongue.
The top of my mind.
I'm crashing hard like a wave on your shore.
Reaching for more and more.
I'm ready to explore, trial and error.
Falling fast, falling blind, I am falling without a care.

It's been a while since I've been here, feeling this way. "Head over heels" some would say.

#love #crush #falling #blind #ocean

Xavier Dec 2014

Ticket For One

I'd rather think of you with my eyes closed.
The images play back in my late night cinema of a mind.
Your colors fade but the feeling remains the same.
A sold out show every night, but just one patron.

Me.

Sometimes all you really have of a person is those vivid memories that are triggered by anything as simple a smell, a sound, a word. Then boom, you're back in that moment remembering things like they're happening right now.

#love #pain #loss #lost #me #emotion #feeling #memory #missing #remembering

Xavier Dec 2014

Friend Zone

I wanted you before I even knew who you were
You made me weak and took me to new highs
I ran for you before I could walk
You were the truth before I could comprehend lies
I listened to you even though I couldn't hear you
You became an addiction, so I chased my dragon
I kept your secrets as you kept mine
We will be more than friends, less than lovers, till the end of time.

#love #hope #friend #falling #lie #secrets

Dec 2014

Anna Falls

Enough

Enough.
One day that's what I'll be.
Enough.
Enough for you,
Enough for my friends,
Enough for someone.

One day
Me being me
Will be
Enough.

Someone will walk through that door,
Look at me,
And love me.
I will be
Enough.
And they will be
Enough
For me.

I won't have to fight
To be recognized.
They will be everything
I have every dreamed,
And I will be everything
They have ever dreamed.

I will be
Enough.

It seems like its just heart break after heart break.

#love #heartbreak #broken #pain

Dec 2014

Kate Irons

""

"I used to be the person
who took pictures of
beautiful sunsets but
now all I see are dark clouds"