Begging for air terrified it was her very last breath
You leant against the door blocking her from running to escape from your control
Your hand so tightly cupped over her mouth no air could get in...or out
Suffocation took hold as you continued to invade her soul  
Selfishly you took what you wanted without any care
You left her numb and empty
Full of pain and suffering she would never forget
Still to this day she works tirelessly to process the trauma that you forced her to accept
You picked a good one because she is a fighter and so **** ******* strong
You took a part of her but her strength still remains deeply engraved in her soul  
Holding her on the days that she feels she can’t go on
Continuously keeping her fighting spirit strong
You left an indent in her soul but you didn’t take her whole
Like a puzzle there is a missing piece
If you look closely you can still see an absolutely breath taking image

Wrap up the love
you so madly give to others
and open it
for
yourself.

nimble hands knit quickly through satin and sun–bleached linens
poking and pulling on hundreds of fine strings
find comfort and closure in tight fitting mittens
who’s corners and ridges so carefully sewn

children braiding red grass in the garden
an old woman resting her body at dawn
i owe these my life– these small, simple moments
that bring warmth to my skin when nothing else does.

Be there
to hold my hand,
or don’t.
Either way,
I am never letting go
of myself.

i watched you walk by
the fog on this window
nose on the floor
eyes there too yet
somewhere long ago.

i watched your leather
jacket-back heave as if
holding up a box of lead
but your arms were empty
save for a twitch now, then.

i watched you blend in
with the waves of people
like a squeeze of paint
(or drop of ink)
dissolving in a glass of water.

you biting your cheek till it rips,
your fingers pushing back the skin
on your nails - it stay(n)ed with me
as this smell of ground coffee does.
you are cracking, bit by bit.

... and i am left to wonder
how long till you shatter?
who will catch you when you fall?

मेरे आसूँ सुक गए और तेरी यादें गीली भी ना हुई ।।