I tell myself
Think of him
Another red **** on my arm
He doesn’t want you to do this
Another one
He loves you
Again, this time deeper
He will worry for you
I waver
He will see them
Don’t care. I return to the fluid motion
He will ask you why
The blood drips down my arms
He will want you to stop
I want to stop
He will help you if you let him
I don’t need anyone’s help
Yes you do
I know
So get it
I can’t. I will fix this myself.

I won’t make anyone else deal with my ******* problems

You say you want love,
Then why ignore your mum?
She cares for you deeply,
And you know she does.
You say she doesn’t talk enough,
But you ignore her when she does.
You want to feel connection,
And love in all its celebration.
You need some support,
But you dismiss her when beside you she tries to walk.
All she wants is to be your mum,
To care for her children,
Every single one.

For you I am so worried,
Getting myself worked up into a flurry.
I need to know you’re safe,
Or if I need to take you out of that place.
To me you are my world,
For you I’d destroy the world.
To you I am an annoyance,
Always questioning your safety.
I fear that one day you may snap,
And turn around and hate me.
I just hope on that day you choose to live your life safely.

grace on a birch branch
a pair of silky redbreasts
among red buds of spring
no worry about tomorrow
for God feeds them today
and clothes them as kings

I know its been a while
it's getting late
baby just stay a while
please just wait

hear me out girl

its been a year
full of heartache and hardships
I lost life then
but you kept me alive

I stayed away from deaths knife
and I came back to life

everyday
you had a say
and led the way
so baby just stay

them **** love songs ain't doing a thing anymore
I don't know what to do anymore
I cant live anymore
without you girl
i'm gone from the world

you've been hurt
you've been in pain
stuck out in the rain
you've felt the knife
and now you might question life

baby you know i've felt that
i've heard that
I know that

this pain
it will all go away
baby just stay
i'll make it go away
just stay
stay

I couldn't hurt you
don't be scared
i'm not like them
they think they're the ****
but they're just full of it

take a seat
and you can see
that we are meant to be

don't worry
i'll take care of it

don't cry
need a kiss?

i'll be there
just stay
and don't you worry
I'll stay too
i'll stay