I love you.

I love you because every morning you whisper softly in my ear that it's time to wake up.
I love you because I look into your eyes and see the light that reminds me that someone is thinking about me.
I love you because when I'm lost you are right there to set me on the right path.
And God knows you can send me on a wild ride, but in the end you always get me where I need to be.

I love you.

I love you because when I'm bored you always have some way to entertain me and make me happy.
I love you because when I'm down you always have a funny video or goofy song to make me smile again.
I love you because when I need to sing or shout at the top of my lungs you are always ready to listen.
And God knows I'm out of key the whole time but you still never complain about my voice.

I love you.

I love you because whenever I'm not with you I feel like a piece of me is missing.
I love you because when you are running out of energy I can always get you charged up.
I love you because no matter how much I ignore you, you never leave my side and always love me back.
And even when I'm looking at others and weighing my options you just quietly stay by my side ready to talk.

I love you.

I love you because whenever I forget something important you are there to remind me.
I love you because anytime I get angry you aren't afraid to step in and take it until I'm happy.
I love you because when I want you quiet you listen and when I want you loud you step right up.
And no matter what I do to you, you never leave or judge me in any way.

So I love you. I can't live without you...

I mean without you, cell phone, I just wouldn't know what to do.

As I watch the horizon
Set fire.

I think if what you'll be;
If you're there,
What you'll do to my life,
What I'll do to yours.

What will he think?
He will be happy.

Happy in the most selfish way.
He will try to trap me in
So he can live his dream
Of being a father,

Try to make me keep you,
Or encourage me to

end you.

As I watch the horizon
set fire.

Knock! Knock! Knock! On my door.
An unexpected visitor? Never before.
In my comfort,  to the door I amble.
But once the doors open, its too much to handle.

The memories flood through, not wanting to leave.
They reach above my neck. I struggle to breath.
I try to find any possible way out,
But there's no one around
to hear me shout.

(A tap on my shoulder)I realise I'm still in line.
"Here's your coffee, miss. Are you alright? "
I'm just fine.

I read a sign on the interstate driving home today
‘expect the unexpected’

The wires in my brain are short circuiting again
And I feel myself slipping on black ice
I think I may have hit my head

Days seem like seconds
They jump back and forth like a game of hopscotch
Making me forget homework was due today
and not next week

Winter has come and gone
But my body still moves in slow motion, frozen
Unable to thaw even in the hottest shower
Even when my skin is bright red and burning

My room is a stagnant body of water
The walls seem to know how to breathe
Drawing closer with each inhale
And I am terribly claustrophobic

How can I expect the unexpected
when I knew this was coming?

"the unexpected arrived where the disadvantage was welcomed, and enthusiasm was the only refuge to me..."

(j.a.r.)

I thought I knew what love was like.
I thought I could ride it like a bike.
Go fast or slow as I saw fit
with a cushy seat on which to sit.
Hop off when I got tired or sore
and ride again if I got bored.

But there is no rhyme or reason
Love is unexpected
and so were you