we were friends i loved you
that heart of marble your own design
the confetti whirling around it
you caught me unwittingly
the withered jumble i became
invisible yet distinct
my fibs and bent truths my
unfettered fragmented mania
we were too alike i reckon
that pushing us apart
my self sculpted grief no
that beyond my control
did you ever really want me
on your doorstep our
your friends were never really fond of me
i dont know if i hate you
i dont know if i love you
i surely need new friends

Everything's gonna break too soon
That includes your heart.
Everything's gonna diminish
That includes your smile.
You may be on cloud nine
But certainly you're going to fall soon.
Mask your feelings
Because there's no one you can show it to.
Life is so uncertain ;
That you may get lost or you'll loose
The clock is ticking
The moments are passing
Never wait  
Never stop
This stoppage may break your heart soon.

when the doctor tested my reflexes
he broke both of my knees
so now i walk at a crawl
and i struggle to start again

Knowing..

will I forever answer when needed?
No knocking beyond that door
Open up to see only one of me
I’ve always needed you more

I know you can see through me
I hope you can read my mind
Because I can’t seem to find words
To tell you that I feel alive
And you’ve slowed your presence
You let me wait for the summer
You showed me a silver lining

I’m afraid of losing you
But you’ve already passed
And now you have a new face
One coloured with kindness and the past
Your benevolent presence
Is starting to fade
now you’re just a moment
and I sit here forgetting you
Thinking about my regrets
Bewildered and dazed

ive been wandering since forever,
and all i see was darkness.
where is it?
the light that You promise,
i’ve been looking everywhere.
yet i found nothing but,
void.
and now it confused me.
for i’ve been drowning,
in my own delusion.
where is it?
where is it?
was it the light from afar?
or is it just another illusion?
i cant tell but wonder,
cause i’ve been lost for too long.
desperately looking,
for something vague.
is it just my inadequacy?
or is it just as vague as that?
again,
i cant tell but wonder.