This is going to be a tricky one.
I am a proud individual
who does not like to admit certain... weaknesses.
But since I am sure you all won't judge me
I think I can do this.
Right, okay.
I have a fear of the dark.
(Pause for laughter.)
I am so ashamed of that one.
I have these little purple lights that are around my bed
so I never have to sleep in the dark.
But, for some reason,
I am not afraid of the dark when i'm in the woods.
I think that's quite strange.
But when i'm in my room
and it's dark,
I am terrified.
I have a fear of being alone.
I absolutely do not like it when I am home alone
for more than a couple of hours.
It's unnerving.
I just sit on my couch worried out of my mind.
My brain goes into over drive
and somewhere in the course of three hours
I have convinced myself that,
my parents died in a car accident,
that my niece and nephews were kidnapped,
that my brother got critically injured from his game
that my sister got killed in a school shooting
and that my other sister is too far away
and I don't know what happened to her.
It's unnecessarily stressful
and I just assume that I will be all alone.
I have a fear of the future.
Or maybe this one is more of the 'unknown'
It doesn't excite me when I don't know anything,
it scares me.
I have a fear of dark, empty streets.
Why? Because anything can happen there,
absolutely anything.
I have a fear of the supernatural.
(Which I firmly believe in).
That's pretty self explanatory,
and the reason as to why I don't watch horror movies.
...
I'm going to stop there.
Well, actually, I have one more that I am overcoming...
I have a fear of heights.
Now physically, I can climb almost anything
and I will be okay.
But figuratively...
Why do I set lofty goals
when I am still afraid of heights?
*To be continued...
This was a long one. Heights was my biggest fear, but now i'm pretty sure it's loneliness, as to the fact that I am lonely where I live.