Almost made it to the state line.
I was headed your way
To give you a piece of my mind
Because I've got a whole hell of a lot to say.

I wanted to tell you
How much it hurt
When I finally knew
That all my hopes were shattered.

I wanted to scream
So very many things
About the pain I've endured
And the losses incurred.

I wanted you to feel
The shame and loss and guilt
I think should be forcing you to kneel
And beg for forgiveness.

But then I passed the sign
That changed Central to Mountain time,
And I realized I can't change your mind,
And the words on my lips died.

So turned my car around
And drove the 6 hours back to town
And home.

And when I'd relayed
What I had attempted today
To a couple of friends
I knew this was the start of the end

Of me giving you
Another thought,
Another chance,
Another moment of my time,
Another place in my life.

Do you know what they said
When I finished my story?
"Thank you for turning around.
Thank you for coming home."

And they're right, you know.
I am finally home.

Aurora,
you were change
you lit my life
brightly and beautifully
for just a little while
you showed me what it was
to not be in darkness
your light illuminated me
and all the pitch black things
I had been living with
fled.
But your light left me blinded
blinking
once you were gone.

Nothing seems to complete me
Someone took my other half
She left a void in my soul
Love? not even a single drop...

Listen to my heart beat
For I cannot hear the sound.

Listen to the rhythm
As water pulls me down.

Listen for my call
For I cannot breathe.

Listen for the cackle
As the fire continues to seethe.

Listen for the silence
For that is our new beginning.

It is too dreamlike
to imagine what
freedom
really is.

For I crave the
love
and the safety
I have
found
within you.

Could it be so
different,
with them,
somehow,
I think yes.

I create my own
reality
even as it starts to
suffocate
all of me.

I desire your
release
but we are too
intertwined
to be
changed.

This life I know,
all I remember,
4 years.

Have I seen what is now?

This ****** up
instance,

Time to begin the
seperation
of all I know,

now.