You have caged me
The moment your predatory gaze
Met my unknowing eyes.

You fed me with fruity words
That I devoured
Like a hungry bird.

Your kisses seared into my skin,
Branding me yours
Like cattle to its owner.

Then you found crimson lips
More delicate than mine.
So you set me free.

Told me:
"Fly away,
There's better pastures elsewhere."

Though I want nothing more
Than to soar,
I cannot.

Because you come at me
Like a swarm of bees
All snug and perched
Inside my memories.

A new message from him
I left all I was doing and opened the message
There it was
Sorry I can't do this

I felt my heart pause
The strongest of headaches
My eyes were filled with tears
All my brain, my mind and my mouth could say was NO
No this isn't happening
No this isn't real like Tris from divergent would say
But yes it was real
We were done

How
What went wrong
I cried like an infant
I cried cause my heart was shattered
I cried cause I didn't expect this in two years time
We were beautiful
We matched perfectly
He made me feel special
He made me smile sheepishly at my phone always

What went wrong
Who did I offend
Why does it have to end.

He told me he loved me
He missed me
Then kissed me
But he didn't want me

Yes, I may still love you
I miss you
But I'll resist you
Because I don't need you

You might have been steady
Loving
And kind
But your love didn’t surprise me
Or blow my mind

Every now and then
My heart wanders back in time
and all those old feelings
awaken the memories in my mind

And it’s as if it were only yesterday
that we were in love and making promises
we were sure we would always keep
not knowing life would get the best of us
and lead us down paths separately

I can remember at times all too clearly
how you were my love and my friend
And it’s in those moments
that I miss you dearly
and wish we could begin again

Sometimes, it catches me by surprise
the way my heart will ache
as I recall your voice, your kindness
the smile on your face

And I wonder how life might be
if we were still together
Would we have kept our promises?
Would we be happy?
Would we have made it to forever?

I may never know the answers
to these questions
but I know this much is true:
No matter how much time passes
I will always love you..

I sit here on my back steps in the sun,
Tears streaming down my face,
Attempting to heal myself with a cup of tea and a slice of cherry pie.
The pie I made for you,
The one that you will never eat.
I'm left to contemplate everything,
No matter how I look at it,
It is all still a mess.
But I can't play the games anymore,
The drama isn't for me.

I think of all the tears I've cried,
And how I don't want to cry over you anymore.
I also think of all the things that have been left unsaid.
How yesterday I wanted to say it all,
Now today I have to let it go like none of it matters anymore.
Like it doesn't matter that I never told you that I loved you.

But heart break is a part of life,
It will build and strengthen me.
I know I will be okay.
I won't let this define me.

I'll keep that rose that you gave me on the very first night,
And the jumper I bought you,
But never gave to you.
One day I will look at these and will recall the memories of us,
And I'll smile.

I'll smile because you taught me that I'm capable of letting someone into my life.
That there is a lot that I can give and can offer another person.
I'll smile because all the bad will be dulled with time,
And I can recall all that was good about us.

My heart is currently aching,
And I know that these things don't always work out.
I hope that these decisions you have made make you happy.
That's all I want for you.
Now I have to step back and let you get their on your own,
Or with someone else holding your hand.