I wish I could alleviate your fears,
that my words were the medicine to your problems.
I wish money was no big deal, because then
you'd be free of having to worry about the bills.
I wish I found a hope for Death, for leaving
and never once more dreaming,
that I could give you-replace the distress buried
like a maggot eating all illusions and hope for
better days- the embers of a promised fire.
I wish I was a better daughter
and though I try my hardest
It is never just enough to eliminate your tears
to the injustice life has shoved upon you.
If anyone deserves all things well,
it is you my caring Mother and for that I resent
this deprecating world.

Beginning to lose faith
total loss of breath
Humankind begins to disgust
total loss of trust
Society tearing apart
total loss of heart
Cursed monsters control
total loss of soul

You don't like it when you're wrong
Do you?
You hate it when I love something
Don't you?
You miss when you could hold me down
Don't you?
You're a failure at being a human
Did you know that?
You are evil
I know that.

Why did I do that?
Why am I being so cruel
to you and myself?
I shouldn't have let that happen.
I said we were done
and I meant it.
So why aren't we done?
I'm such a foolish little girl
and you're my heart beat.
I love you.
I hate you.
I love you.
For everything.
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