I would turn into anything
If he's mine
I would break myself
And bloom flowers
Everywhere he touches
Even my scars
Would flow out honey
Him..
Even hearing his name
Feels like a war
While he's a smelt of revolution
And he's my favourite regret.

What is all the demise count as
When i stand near you
When the day ends
Sprawling near you
You are all i wish to be mine
A picture with you
Which we can look at together
Warmth of your hand
Around my neck
You are all i wish for
my love

the coffee is brewing,
i hear the clock ticking
the vendors outside, doing their part selling
birds calling out to their mates and their mates, responding.
Everything that’s happening around me, I can sense clearly
But what will happen to you and me?
I wish we had eternal clarity.

The coffee did brew, leaving an essence in the air
But the clock is refusing to tick;
refusing to let this moment pass by
giving me chances that I'm refusing to take
chances to be stuck in the moments our eyes met
the vendor's curious silence
curious to see if I'll make a move
the birds and their mates are quiet now
Waiting for us to say to each other-
“I love you..”

i think ill always remember you
sometimes i forget that we dont talk anymore i wished we were still both happy and satisfied with just talking with each other
when i see you in my dreams we are happy nothing is impossible, ruined and gone yet
i miss hearing about what you did at school, whenever you got your hair cut, or just reading those “how are you” messages
i hope just once that you felt the way as how i feel about you
i still know those small details about you, you like going to that skate park during the summer sometimes with your friends the one near your apartment, your small complaints about the weather in washington, that one friend of yours that you didn’t always like that you would tell me about, or about how your sister was moving out to go to college and how you felt about it
im sorry that i ruined us i dont know why i was always angry with you and how i made you always apologize for the smallest things now i am apologizing for the biggest thing i ever done to hurt you
i would do anything just to be in the moment with you again not knowing what was gonna happen just us having fun playing games
i want to look forward to something again, looking forward to get home and talk to you like how i almost used to do on a daily basis
or writing your initial on all my assignments accidentally spelling out your name on my homework or thinking of you whenever i saw the word future
i recall how i thought that you actually liked spending time with me well at least you did before
i die to be just friends with you again i will every time always love you over and over thank you for being apart of my everything.

Brittle bones,
knackered backs
look where have we been,
steaming
bickering
all within,
faltering legs slipping through the streets,

this man;
would you still greet?

Ashen lungs, falling through
bruised hands;
brimming of stench
been home late,
lately—

this man;
would you still put arms around?

old shirt pieces,
spectacles of destiny
uttering broken-frames;
for a new sweater
weaved into his soul-born.

this man,
would you call a miser still?

Look at those fingers,
go across the keyboard—
Look at the tubelight
light those eyes up
all night.

this man
would you still smile for?

For once,
let me know—
this man,
and his tears;
would you bear upon your lap?

I saw you today
I see you all the time
In all the things
You’re in my head before I go to bed
And In the cars and in the trees and in the mountains and in the sky

But i actually saw you today
And you saw me too
And I know this because we locked eyes
We locked eyes for just a second
And in that second I saw all the things that I want and can’t have
Staring into those dark dreamy eyes

The same eyes I’ve cried over every day since the summer ended
The same eyes that held such love in them just a few months ago
But they were just blank

And just like that the second was over and you turned your head and looked away

You saw me
I know you saw me
You had to have seen me
Please see me

Sometimes I think about you
And my hand feels empty
Cause it’s not holding yours
And my head feels unstable
Cause it’s not resting on your shoulder
And my lips feel dry
Cause they’re not kissing you
And I miss you but I know you don’t feel the same way so I try to forget

I can’t remember when I forgot
The word that I want just seems to be lost
Your name disappeared into the grave
I keep trying and telling myself not to save

The last memories I have of your face
Kept in photographs giving me a trace
Of what we had but now that will be gone
I realize I used to be a pawn

In this sick game you put me through
Now I’m glad I can’t remember you