why can't my heart just be there
ready for a new pair of eyes
to stare at me while i make love
to a not so familiar guy

why can't my heart let go
why can't it just PICK UP and go
i'd follow it anywhere
but here i am, giving it a tow!

cuz it won't move.

my heart is a complacent creature
doesn't it know that change is the most
amazing and exciting feature

of life????

but no, my heart has to make life harder
and decide that it wants to feel like i'm not making a smarter
decision than it

heart- i know what's best
he wasn't the one for you
and even if he was, you deserve a rest!

you're just torturing us!
you gained like 500 pounds
i'd rather be pregnant for months on end
than carry your weight around

and i don't understand!
why can't you just be strong?
why should i have to pull you along?
you're supposed to sing MY song

you're supposed to feel how i want to feel
you're supposed to follow my act
but you're being selfish and immature
this is not how we decided to react!

so fine. I'm about to leave you on the road
i'm about to carve you out of my body
and I won't hear you screaming sorry!

because it'll be too late
i'll be numb
i won't feel a thing

i won't feel the hurt
i won't feel the sting

i won't feel a thing

i won't feel the breeze
no more emotion to bring me down on my knees

no more worry, life will be fun
cuz they'll be no more anything
i'll just be numb.

go badger someone else
i'm sure they'll take you in
you're great at manipulation
making us crazy from within

but I'm not taking it anymore
i'm taking a stand
instead i'll just go numb
when someone holds my hand

How could I be so naïve
As to fail to realise
It's you I love
It always has been.

But could my best friend
Ever become my boy friend?
Somehow i think not
It's highly unlikely.

If I told you
That I loved you
Could you ever love me back
Or would our friendship go off track?

Its the many lies that pierced through me like a sword.
Its the laugh every time I asked you if you loved him.
You said no.
Its the heart next to your name in his phone and pictures of you two that etched inside my brain.
Its the "babe"s and the "love"s.
Its the way I asked you if you wanted him.
You said no.
Its the way you were my best friend, the one I would confide in when me and the boy were distancing.
Its the way I cried in your arms due to his absence.
Its the way I asked you if you heard from him.
You said no.
Its the way I found out your lies.
Its the kiss that was a hammer to my glass heart.
Its the look in his eyes, the look in yours.
Its the way I asked you if you kissed him.
You said no.


When someone asked you if you knew why we weren't friends anymore.
You lied.
You said no.