The light floods my window suddenly, in the dark of the night
The rumbling sound of thunder follows the lightning
The fear in my chest causes my heart to pound, almost like it will burst free from my ribs like a bird being released from a cage
I invoke your name like it is a spell to cast away thunder and lightning
The ghosts and demons come out on nights like tonight
I am not strong enough to keep them off by myself.

Because like bait,
I am ****** to be consumed
By the ominous demons
Of the dark waters below
Why can the sun
Never graze my skin
And the fight of my heart
Is neglected by the eye
And taken for nothing
Why can't I
Be free as birds
Instead anxieties riddle my head
As I hear them
Pounding like my heartbeat
I no longer bare
The thought of a hope
As I continue to swim
With a predestined fate

Is it better on fearful feet
To run from my ghastly ghouls
Who maliciously haunt my innocuous mind?
Or to turn and try a fight
In which I will most certainly succumb
To my ever living enemies?

Enemies of the mind,
Their variety endless,
Just as their abilities
To shatter and destroy,
Fragile and unlike alike,
To fragments of former reality.

Is it so noble
To fight demons undefeatable
Rather than choose a simple flight
Away from tormentous anxieties?
A decision quickly made by a courageous and fearful few,
And pondered upon for lifetimes by others,
Will haunt me alike to the fears
Who proposed the question initially.

Don't ask me why I look like I haven't slept
Because I will inform you of the neat little concept
That I look this way because I haven't slept
I try to sleep but it's a battle against all the due dates in sight
I tussle with my worries but they win the fight
Every night
I have to face my anxieties knowing that they're not misplaced
Because all of my commitments cannot be erased
So many situations that have to be faced
So I can't sleep
Because I know these monsters are of my own creations
Conjured up by my own unrealistic expectations
Of myself
I'm up all night because of these realizations
I can't sleep because
All of my requirements are surrounding me
And I no longer have anyone grounding me
So it feels like the world is drowning me
And I can't breathe
But I can't leave
I have to stay and face the day
So I'll pour a cup of coffee
And all of my worries for now I'll keep
And hope that tomorrow
I'll finally get some sleep