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S Smoothie Feb 2014
Its hard to find that sparkle in a world intent of flashes

its something I cant put my heart on.

I wish I could.

but I cant. not yet.

I was broken along the way to love

and I think I dont know how to put it all back to what it used to be to be me.

it wasnt stolen. I took it back. but its in pieces.

the only way to get the scars out is to melt it all down

and let it smelter. when it reforms I have a choice over which shape I take,

but I am so afraid of the process,

I cant look at the flashes to catch the spark to light the fire.
S Smoothie May 2014
still the wires pass on the electrodes of warmth

the phone message sound that used to make my heart leap with an energy uncontrolable now someone else's exhillaration.

somewhere ovehead on the one freequency connected we keep our heart moves open for transmission

we deal with the thought of us, we live through our knowing of us, who we are and what we were born to do.

we keep on doing it apart as sure as its the same stars above in our eyes that keep us together in spirit.

and as we pass by on occasion the flood of relief drenches us as we look with one silent eye to eye transmitting a whole world of love

respect falls away passion takes over and before the damage is done in that one still moment lids fall,

pain takes over, this world of cruel understandings, has no place for us, thus we make our own in singular moments

and over the frequencies because a love like ours never dies and must be lived.
S Smoothie Apr 2017
Hanging on scratchy thoughts with wispy edges
Trying to capture the essence of a memory
But its like catching fluffy daisy seeds swirling in the wind
Just when you think you've got one, you dont!
Off they go drifting out of sight, fading,
just like the memory of you
I don't even have the past to hold on to like I used to
Been so long;
and just because I cant grasp every warm memory
Doesn't mean i miss you any less,  
The gaps are only wider
And I miss you even more.
S Smoothie Feb 2018
The midnight moonlight strained through the veils that hung either side of the old house's glass soul garners beset in lead white painted frames; trickling  onto heavily treaded, rich walnut boards. It was an inviting tease, but seemed so far away than it did last midnight. The clock hadn't quite struck the hour, but sensing it was close began anticipating when...

A tiny draft nudged the curtains ever so lightly, elegantly. The darkness of the last days had taken their toll. Everything seemed to protest the efforts funneled into escaping the swallowing coverlet of the bed. But the moon beckoned and its call was a sadness  too  loud to ignore. A moment  of resolve had the tenses at readiness and just as the final vault was about to be taken,  the chimes heralded the hour.

Startled, the vague  sense that a third chime had resonated, releasing its self into the night and melding with the walls into silence. Senses finally consorted themselves into some less vague awareness.  The clock's official count had begun...4...5...6...7 ...8 - a beat as always on the ninth, a quiver 10... 11...12... a delicate fade for 12th's swan song . the hungry serpent slience, quickly swallowed the room once more.

It's hard not to think in the deafening silence. It seems to breed thoughts from mere dust particles, like those captured by the moonstreams  pouring  through and making rivulets between the textures of the worn grains of the heavy wooden boards.

Staring at the glowing, gently suspended swirling particles, lit and extinguished as they dipped in and out of the pale blue-grey filems. They seemed so happy elegantly dancing in the moonlight. Envy struck a renewed a determination to bathe in its entrancing soft light.

Desperate muscles fired and the old bed protested from such a vigerous rousing and flung its squatter into the abyss! Suddenly  falling to the floor helplessly in an unexpected motion. A frozen moment spent an eternity registering its self in the senses. A blink and acknowledgement. A second blink confirming the ridiculous state of affairs! Lying like a broken puppet waiting for some other source of mobility as the mental strings were tugged one by one working its way around asertaining possible movements that would not further confound the tangled mess of limbs.

Slowly a plan emerges. Gathering the strings drawing up limbs propped against the still protesting creaks of the old bed. A final heave and a somewhat vertical slant, gave way to vertigo. Wafting centrivically left to right anchored by arms clutching screaking posts. Pressed Darkness from obedient lids offered a slight repreive.

The  moon waited paitently, peaking under and over a bevy of clouds. Heartbeats counted down the long voyage to the land of respite. The beauty called hauntingly, telling of a wanting so powerful, so necessary,  that eyes and moon ached in symphony.

The  whole house seemed to want to urge on the meeting of moonbeams  and iris. The cool air coalesced around uncertain feet placing invisible wings upon ankles. One foot drawn slightly past the other slid on cool waxed boards.

Enforced  Blindness seemed to be fitting as hands reached out for the window seat. An endless push and desperatte fumbling finally succeed in finding the hard ledge and once heaved up by protesting muscles onto the fitted cushion with the throw wrestled awkwardly and finally drawn up and over, a deep breath took in the fragrant night air.

Sitting quietly for a moment, listening to the faint fllutters of the winds secrets. The moonlight gently pressing into the translucence of thin eye lids urged sweetly to be admired with a sincere promise of exceeding the glowing return. Slowly, unable to resist such gentle persuasion,  a readiness creeped through gathering momentum and eyes slowly flickered open absorbing the beauty. The warmth of relief welled up.  The moon, appreciated so, shined its best!  Having been so lost in quiet symbiotics, the ambience was suddenly pierced, as a solitary chime brought with it, the reminder that one is alone, like the moon in a sea of stars.



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Some things are worth it.  Appreciation is a lost art left to those who are happy or dying.
S Smoothie Mar 2023
Every pattern is a cudgel to pain
Every equation rings out your reign

Its on the whispers and tirades of the wind
Its in the ripple of water and crashing waves of the sea

Each sinew tugged at and tortured
Frayed nerves screeching and screaming at me

Begging for the holy oil,
the balm of relief
The anointing of peace

Yet even that hope lies shattered
in the broken pieces of usefulness  

Dis-ease
distorted harmonics resonating agony
where once was perfect and sound cohesion

Each moment now a taught tension
a pugnacious trap for excrutiation

Every device is a loaded trigger for wretched pangs all I want to to do is merely write
Of beauty and hope to soothe

What sabotage for a poet
Whose pain enscription was a grateful muse

I find nothing of comfort
Because, every idea breathes nothing but signals heralding yet more and more pain

Just like the photo of us dancing in the rain
I feel like it might never happen again

Memory is a Pain upon a pain
Mnemonics are the seat of my suffering again

And your mighty reign of anguish
An insanity that devours me

But I will not succumb
I will remain

I will come through this somewhat sane
And you'll be that forgotten memory
I refuse to let inside my brain

The rent will be sky high
And I WILL BE ME AGAIN!
CPRS will forget my Name!
S Smoothie Nov 2013
All the beauty of creation was held in another,
in you there was held all manner of frustration and dark.
there was a resonance about you though
that invaded my frequency.
I had not the slightest notion of entertaining the idea of us;
Yet, I could not draw myself away.
It seemed your distress beacon
was too loud to ignore.
I read all the signs of danger
and I ignored them.
I raced to the stars to find some meaning
a direction, an insight?
But I found your turmoil too compelling
and I couldn't help but stop and notice
the strength you had been clinging to for so long.
I came to free you.
I wanted to see you fly!
i found such beauty in the fight
that it paled to all others.
And when you're eyes looked deep into mine they found the hidden stars there;
you marvelled at their beauty
and whispered
will you be mine?
I said no, let's just pretend?
so we did.
We played hide and seek amongst the reflections of the stars
laughing and jumping over and under heavenly skies!
we made attempts at love
and stopped just short of taking it.
Till one day you left.
and all the beauty in creation
could not console me.
I searched for you an endless time
under every heavenly body and lost of hope
I turned back suddenly to find you there
all along trailing me,
my protector,
my champion,
my strength
our eyes met, stars collided in our reflections
and love finally happened
right there
at that moment.
S Smoothie Dec 2015
Numb. Lost. Depleted.
Hollow victories pile themselves around me
The casualties strewn across my hopes
I am one of them
Dead eyes watch eager crows picking
I can't see anything but the end.
There's no struggle left in these veins
I wonder of the phoenix
So often pulling my soul back from the ether
No where...
Still I watch from the corners of my eyes
For her blazing beauty
Even knowing my unworthiness
I catch a beat of hope
Only to watch it fade
through milky coalgulations
The Stiffening crawls
I wait,
Steeling myself for the impending darkness
S Smoothie Jun 2014
I don't love you.
S Smoothie Nov 2013
Most poets don't understand
most poets think they got it all in hand
most poets think they have a God given gift
me I'm no fancy poet I write my **** down
Most poets go past without a word, a heart a sound;
Me, I do cause that's what you do when its awesome!
Most poets just wish they thought of it on their own.
most poets just envy you.
poetic envy...
Yeah, I suffer from it too! ;)
S Smoothie Jan 2014
The thing about me
is my life is a haiku
with not enough words

to tell my story,
the right words do not fit in;
I am restricted

life held hopes so big,
though words would not come close;
descriptions fell weak.

perhaps I have learned,
one haiku is not enough;
life is more than one

perhaps haikus are,
my own best analogy;
perhaps they are not?
S Smoothie Jan 2014
My warm coffee hug

warms me from the outside in

creamy bitter love



soothing my lost soul

coaxing it to come back home

fleeting though it is



A connection of

body, soul and of feelings

the warm sip takes hold



I am with you now

for that one moment present.

the next moment gone.



Till we meet again

in that warming silken kiss

adieu Consciousness.
S Smoothie Feb 2014
Folder: I'm Bigger Than Ben Hur!
One more misread line
One more antic to decline
Open up my poetry
To the masses and this
Is what I find:


No news is good news
My pain is amusement
I crack myself open
and pour out My truths
My words,
for me.


Will you turn them from me?
Humanity bares similarity
The themes are all the same
But each has its own Play
written by the same
I will be there in the
End waiting to find out
like the rest of us
When this drama ends.


Don't read yourself into my lines
Read your pain into my rhymes
These are
my words,
For me.


I will show you my pain
And hope from it
something you gain
when you see it
As it is
through my window frame.


Tirelessly I write
to end these
spirited convexations
Whispers of unheard
conversations
The aura around
your presence
May darken my own gold
But what ever I write
I labour alone.


These are
My Words
For me.

My consolation
For skipping through
the Madness of my
Spiritual frustrations.

Can you see me
The way I need you to see?
The way I really am?

With these, that are
my words.
For me.
ive had issues in the past about people thinking I was writing about them or to them. Some who were even offended personally by my poetry.  this was a response to that.  I say you don't like it  BFD it doesn't matter I wrote it for me. cheers SS
S Smoothie Jan 2014
nature speaks my love,
his love speaks of his nature;
love spurns my nurture...
S Smoothie Oct 2020
They blinked

A film of Mystery

Drawn up

glassy shields

Deflecting truth

A dazzlement of lights

Leaving faded whispers

Trails of left stars

Burned up in some atmosphere

Signalling the phoenix dive

A refusal to meet fact

A skipped beat over reality

Dreams split into prophesy

Lips hung in the air

Pregnant with pauses

Lost in denial

They blink

As if they'd never known

Their love before

The truth was hovering

But neither one

Reached out to touch it

And none could figure out why?
S Smoothie Dec 2014
I am lost in our neverness
this world is to tight to live in.
so close, I can reach out to touch you;
so far, I can never get close enough.
a flash of a smile,
a warm look ,
trading a million secrets in our eyes...
I live for such moments that come so rare
yet, every second, every heartbeat
counts down to you.
S Smoothie Apr 2017
Sleep and wakefulness blur
Listeless longings begin to stir
Hearts twist into dire messes
right or wrong?  anyone's guesses
Sickening ache pulls my chest cavity in again
No breath, no relief from this sin and pain
Cant be me
Can't have you,
Can't be free
Can't be you
Kisses and soul hugs on the winds
Casting flesh aside he wins
Only the ****** live free of this shadow
To live this life till the next is hallow
Ill bide my time in this makeshift hell
For a love that only the best story tellers tell
The one that goes on forever
Some can part but no thing can sever
Ours is of the endless stars
Countless opportunites to prove our hearts.
A love never cold
Never old -

Forever young.
S Smoothie Jan 2018
silence was a welcome relief
and the darkness seemed like a cosy blanket
stirrings of after thoughts
guilt ridden excuses had plaglued the mind
it has been disowned for a time
knowing only trouble and fast lips
and quicker hands
hot cheeks and tepid tears
feel better away from the light
scratching doohickey things on the wall for a while in the dark
seemed like the perfectly perfunctory thing to do
so it was done.
S Smoothie Jan 2014
Yeah, yeah,
you broke me...
You think?
you cant break anyone or anything that feels an emotion
because we control our own.
we lend out **** on permanent loan
and freak when it comes back before its due.
what a sad sack of stories
with a ******* word for emotion.
**** it up and understand
you cant break what is never broken
its not like your word.
its an emotion.
if youre feeling like ****
and you wanna go and carve it out of your skin
well skin. that can be broken.
and if you do it yourself that's a cut
and that is not broken skin
its stupid.
and you know it.
but why don't you stop?
because you love it.
more than yourself.
the ritual screams
but rituals can be broken
but you know it.
your heart is big enough for every joy and every sorrow.
just think about that for a while...
but you wont
you know it.
instead you will go on believing youre broken
and youre not
and you know it.
S Smoothie Mar 2014
I cruised the city streets today
every look, every gesture interrogated
for signs of you.
every corner wrote a perscription
for a new hope,
only to dissipate in realisation
by the absence of you.
A lead, a clue,
your old jacket,
a pair of shoes,
none lead to your
missing face
I cruised the cityscape
double checked the shadows
to find nothing of you.
No sign.
And I wanted so badly,
to come back to life.
An except from a 'book' all postings are copy righted under SSmoothie.
S Smoothie Jul 2014
I fought hell for you and you said So what?
I slayed your dragons and you said you could have done it!
I killed my soul and you never even asked me a thing about it.
S Smoothie Jul 2014
here we are in the same morbid cycle
only theres a difference it seems.
now it is you who are scouring my effluences with your nose pegged
dancing around in the mess.

not fun is it?
no. no.
I wouldn't be so cruel to tease you all on top of it.
besides woudn't that make me just like you?

No. instead, I will just smile on the inside
arms folded with a feign look of concern botoxed on my face
wonder if by the time it wears off you all develop some tinge of compassion?

50 bucks says, none of you get it!


Sewage. Oh so important but, only when you realise **** isn't going anywhere.
S Smoothie Feb 2018
For the times that seemed so dark and hollow

You have been a beacon of light

You've  tripped me up

You've helped  me up

Your heated touch has stung as well as thrilled

Your eyes have held disspointment

And unrivaled love

You've ripped my heart from my soul

And put it back just as easily

I guess what I know is that

The beauty of us

is in the restoration of tragedy

The righting of wrongs

The life of lovers

Tormented souls

Finding meaning and solace

In each others arms

Wrapped by the thighs

In passionate pleas

For Love to last

Forever and all the versions

In all dimensions

Of existence to last for infinity

Is after all our aeons together

The depth of our challenges

Nothing much compared to

Our infinite forever love.
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S Smoothie Jan 2018
Your eyes keep outlining the shape of your desires

Transposed on to my body

Watching you watching me

No secret, im left exposed

Vulnerabilities exploited

with a mere flicker of the eye

Primed eyes locked

Its the moment

Flight or fight

Zeroed in on my waist,

a triangulation of anticipated pleasures

Eyes drawn up,
the signal fire is lit

a flourish of your jacket like a bullfight

Swaggering towards me

arm raised in another flicker

the resounding crack of a slap breaking

broke the air

Fear panic and dread.

frozen.

And yet,  the kiss left

was soft warm and gentle

Weaving the shape of a homely warmth

that as soon you broke away

left a chasm so cold

i was driven to clamour for it

Only for a second though,

You know what a stubborn ***** i am.

Admitting it was never an option.

Even with my breath in your mouth.

Still when asked what i felt

You know my reply.


First draft

Your eyes keep outlining the shape of your desires

Transposed on to my body

Watching you watching me

No secret, im left expised

Vulnerabilities exploites with a mere flicker of the eye

Primed eyes locked

Its the moment

Flight or fight

Zeroed in on my waist a triangulation of anticipated pleasures

Eyes drawn up the signal fire is lit a flourish of your jacket like bullfight

Swaggering towards me arm raised in flicker the resounding crack of a slap breaking broke the air

Fear panic and dread frozen

And yet the kiss left was soft warm and gentle

Weaving the shape of a homely warmth that as soon you broke left a chasm so cold i was driven to clamour or your warmth

Only for a second though,

You know what a stubborn ***** i am.

Admitting it was never an option.

Even with my breath in your mouth.
S Smoothie Oct 2013
shattered by the violence in your darkly silent eyes
swallowed that bitterly taste of disappointment
and then some.
smashed my heart on salt rocks
wrung out of emotion just short of numb
No doubt the way I want to go
I'm not facing the same direction
insurrection was my only hope for destruction
stood up and took the beating
clawed my way through ill logic
hung in for that toe to toe pound
made the bed and lay in it
tore the sheets looking for love
and still your heart could not be found.

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Sometimes your best is wasted...
S Smoothie Dec 2019
That feeling again
Its been too long
I sense that our paths will again cross
I shut it down
But you're still on the radio,
In my Poetry
In my soul
hanging like a kiss in the air
The anticipation curls it's self around me
like a sleeping fox
one eye open

Hope rising like incense

Crushed by the inevitable promise of fate

But like a silk flower
released from a cruel grasp
I unfold blooming,
straightening out the wrinkles of love
begging to be crushed by the passion again

The hopeful fox gently nudges,
I pretend not to take note
and dance with the knowledge of your persistence

You're so **** bad for me

I can't believe you feel so good!

I can't...

Wait..
Soul mates...
Not for this life but the next...
S Smoothie Feb 2018
There's much to be said for those eyes refusing to see the obvious

It seems blindness is a choice or some chemical imbalance certifiable.

No matter how many times they tried making some meagre offering to the Gods of serendipity, they just could not move in the same circles of atmosphere.

He was of copper and she of diamonds but the rarer kind
and whilst his seasoned teal very much beautified him against his copper, his beauty did not match the incandescent spectrums emanating from her core.

Though she sparkled brighter as he passed her orbit happily catching the brilliance of the sun reflected by him;

The angle of trajectory was precarious. As they would each time, almost always slam into other passing bodies causing chaos! They were oblivious to the sentiments of the universe.

It was one of those things that everyone else could see,
but they very much couldn’t.

I’ve looked and I've tried,
but I've still, never seen a copper diamond ring.

I couldn't ever think why?
S Smoothie Apr 2020
It seems they own us already... Well played... Well played... Thanks to all the fuckwits with out integrity or vision... **** all the dimwits placated with social justice bs and not on choices and moral values caring for life and living. We are all well and truly ******. Virus take me, this **** is laying out a painful future I don't want to be a part of. Stay safe. You're never safe.  It's immunity or strength. We're still part of a conspiracy we all didn't want to see coming...

Oh, where are you Orwell when we need you? What a prophet, wondrous genius labelled it fantasy so that those who could see may lead the blind...

War machine no1 mkultra on steroids social and cultural shift media. Blurry lines, smaller tribes are overcome much easier with global propaganda. Watching the sun's role in global warming. It is omnipotent and we are in its fancy, but as we destroy ourselves we lament and continue our diet of convienence truths and lies.

Where are you Orwell when we need you? What a prophet, wondrous genius labelled it fantasy so that those who could see may lead the blind...

Our youth dumber and more pandered and selfish than ever
The road to communism was never straight
Our identities once given now traded into the thin air of whimsy only to be handed them again.

As we destroy ourselves we lament and continue our diet of convienent truths and lies.

The Beast the bible foretold, is ourselves and what the elements we have created as the four horse men...


never a truer wiser book was there written than the humble of the humblessed... yeah I know you see what I did there... or do you? Best blessings SS **
Be who you want but don't destroy who you were and who loved you there in the beginning when you were helpless but no less devine.
S Smoothie Dec 2013
I send my soul out
In search of you
upon on the wind.

I know our moment
Is close.

I sense you in the air
I feel you on my skin
these earthly things
Are of not our love
Immortal.

Let the glorious day come
When we cast off
the weight of these skins
These anchors of bone and flesh
to find each other;

Where for that small
Space in between
We are one light Immortal
unsepreated by cruel birth
And unmoved stars.

a breath, a beat;
a moment.
upon the breeze
whispers in
remembrance
of our worlds in between
love  spaces.
S Smoothie Dec 2013
...



a million stars away



and i can not find you



but i feel your presence here



my thoughts dift in space



floating thier way to you



and in this connection



that is so hard to break



I can only sit and wonder



how long it will take



before you and i



will wake upon the same



holy ground



and merge this long held promise



of forgotten times



and pass this pain of longing



upon our waves of love



crashing upon eachother



a super nova



a light to span the universe



to god's heaven and back



life and the next realm



the wholness of our one



in an ifinite array of colours



birthing new starss of



hope for all the lovers



past and present



to know,



that as they look up,



they will know thier own



heaven is here waiting



our star trails laid



to guide and light



the way



to the making of



a billion more love starss



in the hearts of all



who know



true love.
S Smoothie Aug 2021
If there is no ingredient list, is it true that there is no informed consent?

Can anyone can force anyone in to being part of an experiment?

If someone monitoring  me is ongoing and no one has been told what and how long monitoring happens can a person ask for clear statement of what ongoing monitoring means? And if so will they be monitoring my every move?

If a person is forced and  signs up for the experiment is health insurance or even life insurance affected?

I may need it,
Will they even pay out?

Can people quit from being in a trial at any time?  

Can such a poison as labelled and described in the  emergency plan really be forced on to a person?

What exactly do I gain?  

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***? Are you serious? Who cares? Don't be so dramatic!
Just take the **** thing so people can shut up and stop judging you for not doing what ever it is they think you should be doing. Its a ****** cycle, it's life, get with the program!
_______

What if I just tell grandma I  don't want to taste her new recipe for brownies in front of everyone at the fair because I dont like her salty brownies they make me sick?
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Ok kid, its your funeral.
Some experiments should be left alone. Sugar is not salt. Mortified. Just that 1 time, "first time shame on you 2nd time shame on me"
S Smoothie Jul 2014
oh dear sister how easily you forget

I can not read your mind we are not twins

nor are we travelling on the same frequency.

I can not ask you what you need if you do not answer my calls

and shout at me when I come to find you.

sister dear, I know you want me to make you shine

and polish the silver ware and forget my cooking flair, fine.

but, wasnt it you who had said:

"if your inviting that vegan friend"

that I had to cook something she could eat at the spread?

and now youre all huffed and puffed and natiness instead

when I have organsied to cook it together with this friend

because I was trying to contact you and got no response in the end?

I didnt blink when you and mother dear went shopping and planned all the fare

I didnt baulk when you asked me to buy the meat nor did I care

I didnt say anything at all when you didnt include me

and nothing again when you didnt call to advise me

now I didnt deserve that stupid display

and especially since you and mother want to put your wears on display

your facebook anitcs are something to annoying to see

#hashtag food selfie  

and well  I guess you dont want to see the shine in me

but the memo came at birth, I know its your own ball

Im only here as a front in front of you and mothers friends

playing happy family to whatever end  

just be glad I'll come at all thanks to my vegan friend

Her name is not 'that vegan chick' its Melissa

so do your own polishing.

News flash: Im not the ugly sister.
Because Family.
S Smoothie Jun 2014
light touches bring me closer only still further than my reach.
S Smoothie Oct 2014
when I wrote I rearranged the stars in heaven for you

I made them shine in your eyes and dance in the skies in honour of you

I pulled the colours of the sunset out of the sky and wrapped you in them like a hug

I fought demons for you and I cast them out into the darkness where they came

i forgave you for all the stupidity  and  unintentional cruelty,

I even let you take my world and twist it into your vision of our future

and still, still, you can not seem to remember what it is you did wrong

you say your sorry but I can never believe you.

the violation of trust has become the expectational norm.

its so hard to get close to you when you keep snipping at my heart strings

please dont untangle me, Ive grown to love this mess

Its my home. its not much, not even comfortable in most ways,

but its all I have and I insist to myself its enough to keep drawing more from myself to give to you,

and still, still I wait for that recognition.

that instance of realisation

the lightning bolt

the one that makes it all so worth it.

the one where stars fall at your feet,

like when the sun crawls out of the sky just to see you wake

where the words wrap themselves like flowers around you

and the only darkness is the one scattered with lights

arranged in random love notes, a love immortal.

and still, still where only bravehearts fear not to try.
S Smoothie Jun 2016
Folds of conciousness fall open
Wordss dance in strings
None of them match the beauty
Or elegance of you
I can't get the dance to match the music
And for the most part,
it lays unwritten
Waiting for the tune for the melody
and the fluidity
To match your frequency.
S Smoothie Dec 2013
Moon beams dancing on the ledges of your sweet face
captured in the reflections of your eyes
held there before beaming out at me and beyond
a lovely light to see your heart by
how generous of the moon to spare her moonbeams
on such a tired and poorly mess,
and yet how you transform me in the this delicate glow
emanating from me the light of my soul
reaching to bring my love as a warm embrace
and a contentment too fulfilling to bare
so that I must rise and champion myself to carry this sweet burden
when ever it is I am in the charge of your love and care.
Dont hide in the shadows,come to me, in the open.
let me catch those moonbeams forever,
as you have captured my soul's heart in a lunar bow;
Oh, what a wonderous night for moon beams!
Lost in your beautiful glow!
S Smoothie Dec 2013
Flashing champagne pearls of desire
in your wanting grin,
A bed of roses fall on to the sheets
from your ordinary mouth,
I find romance laced in your rough discarding of
my fabric shrouds and insecurities.
understanding in delicate gestures of sentiments
in your wide sweeping ***** eyes
hoards of passion described
in your grasping of my soft flesh to hardening
deducing wondrous compliments
tangled with pert nuances in your hardness
Finding warmth and comfort wrapped
In your loving vice locked eye to eye
I find your soul sprouting words of ardorous poetry
in the soft languages of our making  love.
S Smoothie Aug 2014
Nothing seems to please me after your metaphorical deserting of me.
it couldn't hurt to say a small truth.
you don't trust them enough to forgive you like I do.
it seems your love is conditional
And mine becoming more so
I have  never valued your silence
you have never had the courage to face my honesty
youd think Id have walked away by now?
it seems I'm addicted to hurt
and that there's really no other option.
is there?
S Smoothie Jun 2022
In the hollow inside my soul

Rattling around a cage

scraping yet more and more flesh

I dont go down those steps anymore

But I can feel you scratching at the door

Dragging every sweet moment into the abyss of bitter

And the salt of my tears crystallised long ago

With nothing but dust to offer

The ocean of tears still drown me

And resurrection feels neither glorious or healing

Such long tendrilled fingers

Frightened to let go

I might have forgotten you

But you won't let me

Until you take every part of me for yourself

But I still walk forwards

And every day I will get further

And you will be but a pin *****

In my new tomorrow

And despair will forget my name
S Smoothie Mar 2018
The blood drips linger
afraid to leave the bastion of grace
that sustained them
fibres stretched and pulled
to the brink of profanity
sweat refused
clinging until raised as vapors to the sky
a piercing shriek of a quartz tip entered
somehow sliently
parting flesh from flesh
meat from bone and bitter liquid poured forth
searing a river of flesh devouring agony
a slight reprieve offered nothing but
the biting cold of sullied mead
poured mercilessly upon the lips of truth
to add irrevent pain upon excruciating reverence
the clouds gathered
the ground swelled up and shook
the cracks of the whip deafened
by the thunderous
proclamation
thus it was done
and hope sat in stunned silence
the endless wait began
as the blood drips lingered afraid to touch the sand
S Smoothie Jan 2014
fire burns in love
the wicker dances with heat
till embers fall cold.
S Smoothie May 2014
the world can grow dark when we are weary

and the candle can seem so dim when we won't struggle to see anymore

and that fear that keeps you in your box tighltly locked

its isnt real. well, not all of it anyway

and when you stop and find yourself in a moment

choose what that moment will be

own it  form it control it. and the next one and the next

wear yourself a groove to safely traverse you way like a ****** in a dam

break those old habbits record over those old tapes

find new doors or build them and push through in every way

leave behind those that think they own your rights

walk away never looking back.

if they want you they will come find you

fill your heart with a mission

look around and find your passion

be bold

be brave

and never regret the steps you take on your way to your grave

only the ones that you didnt take

because no passion ever lived there.
S Smoothie Jan 2016
I'm seaching for traces of you in the ether left of your short presence
The warm glow of basking in your thoughts of me
The quiet pleasure of knowing I've affected you in some way
Unruffled you refuse to give anything away
You didn't think it through
My soul has a window on you
The stony looks hide nothing of our irreverent connection
Lost to the world for seconds that fill the void with lifetimes
Scorched by those burning eyes
your glow already envelops me
Don't get too close,  
Sparks have a habit of spurring flames
We know better than to mix fire with gasoline
A quick touch
Transfers so much
I am left reeling
I push you away though you still linger in my atmosphere
Standing in your vacated place
Till the last vibration of warmth dissipates
And my soul has the course to move again
searching for another chance to hover near you
In time and spaces undefined by the regular course of love.
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S Smoothie Jan 2014
nature comes through verse
comforting warm like the sun
till the cutting line.
S Smoothie Jan 2018
...
Head cupped gently in hands,
rested on her scraped knees.
Gently rocking away
the latest break
in the fabric of her equilibrium
...
Three deep breaths,
a final tear travels the curves of her face
Slipping into the crevices of her lips
A taste of the salt that sustains and drives her
...
Three deep breaths,
a pause and the arch of her neck
drags her head skywards
the blurry clouds and foggy mememories
blend into resolve
...
Three deep breaths,
Arms release shoulders drop,
its time.
...
Three deep breaths,
she slides up the wall
her diamond eyes focused
on a point of light
...
Three deep breaths,
She thrusts herself off
the comforting wall
...
Fists like anchors,
she pulls up the life from the ground
...
One deep breath,
she screams in the name of her reserection
...
Broken in all the right places,
off she walks like a queen
Loving her pain...
S Smoothie Feb 2014
I had a chat to someone today who really went about it the wrong way. I dont think it very sane or fair to give a credit where the act lay bare.
I am someone whose opinion I think highly of,
and rest assured, I am interested in what I think of.
but to call a ***** a ***** and dig a hole with it for yourself
is not a wise thing to do.
though the wise have been thought crazy and the crazy wise
the fool is the fool in any position naive or wise because a what a fool believes
the wise always questions what he sees.
a fair and valid comment is not cause for defamation,
defamation though has cause and stains by association
and I will suffer none of it
because I just couldn't give a ****.
think of it what you think of it.



Making of false, derogatory statement(s) in private or public about a person's business practices, character, financial status, morals, or reputation. Oral defamation is a slander whereas printed or published defamation is a libel. The plaintiff must prove that the defamation was communicated to someone other than him or her. And, if the statement is not obviously defamatory, it must be shown that it carries a defamatory meaning (see innuendo) and that reasonable people would think that it refers to the plaintiff. In case of unintentional defamation, the defendant may mitigate damages or escape liability by offering an apology. Defamation with malicious intent (see malice) invalidates the defense of fair comment and qualified privilege. Defamation that imputes a criminal offense punishable with imprisonment, is usually a sufficient ground for a court action even in the absence of a proof of special damages. Under the UK law, defamation damages are assessed by a jury and not a judge.

  


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Enjoy Enlightenment :)
S Smoothie Jun 2021
The truth is out there...

No, its within.

Within 3 doors,

Truth is always obedient to its laws

A higher matter,

That's why it sets you free.

its a prisoner swap

but, there's a fee

That's why He died for you and me

And spoke of love and high places

So that we could all see

What was right in our faces

The lies and deceptions are out there

The edges of your cage

The matchsticks to your rage

Freeding your demons everyday

Within in you lies the freedom that you crave

If only you begin to see the truth inside

The big save

You are already free, save the spells cast

Of deception with which you agree

You won't cast them aside

Until you finally decide



Come find you,

come see

and maybe together

We can roam free.
Well done! You saw it the others missed it, can you guess why?
Which are you?
Deception is a tricky thing or is it?
S Smoothie Jul 2017
The body of who you are
cuts through the dimensional landscapes
easily shifting shapes,
pulling a glorious array of colours out of the ether.
Shedding skins and trying on thoughts for size and ideas for comfort.
There's no real perfect fit.
And that's the wonderful irony in the journey of self discovery.
You,  are a timeless beauty measured by the brilliant sparkle in your eyes!
A mind as a treasure trove to endless possibilities!
You float with the stars amongst angels,
as easily as you ground yourself in cool muddy river banks and worms.
Fireflies of whims draw you this way and that,
some sit still for a while and close enough to me so that i can drink you in
and sometimes when the wind whispers right,
follow you for an instant over the dimensional planes
untill I get scared and let go of your hand falling back to earth,
only to admire you like the ever shifting dancing aurora
buillding up the courage to chase you into the light again.
S Smoothie Dec 2016
Folder:  The Art of Breaking
Feathers  of thought floating down to the gravity of reality
Finite ends drawn out so delicately, slowly and wholly.
Something so light, weighted so heavily
Beauty wrapped in barbs of wire and ire
Pained senses and armed defenses
You were so innocent then
Before the burning fire of desire
When life came at a pace,
Bursting with color in all directions!
when every which way led to adventure;
a life dancing among the clouds.
touching the sky,
tipping the stars,
huddled safely in the moon's sling
Before the crack of truth rang out the liar you still admire .

wrap your thorns warm,
and tightly packed
The time has long passed for love to fade away
fall, drift, settle into oblivion...



First draft:
feathers  of thought floating down to the gravity of reality
finite ends drawn out so delicately, slowly and wholly.
something so light weighted so heavily with pained senses, armed defenses
beauty wrapped in barbs of wire and ire
You were so innocent then Before the burning fire of desire
when life came at a pace bursting with color in all directions
When every way led to adventure
a life dancing among the clouds
touching the sky, tipping the stars
huddled safely in the moon's sling
Before the crack of truth rang out the liar you still admire
wrap your thorns warm and tightly packed
The time has long passed  for love to fall away
fall, drift, settle into oblivion
Incomplete...
S Smoothie Jan 2014
pluck out my heart and leave it on the road

I forgot what it was to feel again.

I scribble directions to healing

only i cant read my own writing

tip me upsidedown and tear me inside out

Ive left it all on the pages for your insight.

**** me softly

**** me violently

Ive died a thousand deaths

none more painful

than the first verse

and the hole torn from the fabric of my universe

still I try to feel something

anything except numb.
S Smoothie Oct 2018
People just don’t  get it do they?

PolitiX -

There are no good:
-politics
-politicians
-politicos
-policy
-polices

There is only DISTRACT and TAKE!

If it is bad, fake It good
if its fake, fake it real

if it’s obvious make it someone else’s fault
manipulate details and statistics too
lead the questions,
get the right answers for you
Mass Programmng Media
secret Not Saying Anything service
hide behind our own goods

Freedom these days is all about -

Policing

And the illusion you are in

Control

Politics by its very nature can only exist by divide
the greater the divide
the easier to fraction
easier to fraction
eaier to incite aggression and violence
the resulting fear makes us seek peace
we legislate our freedom away putting hope in lies
the greater the distraction,
the easier the take

Peace is an illusion,
a God-like ideal
A frightened little bird hiding in the bough of a tree
barely out for a second
starving to death
confused
and lonely
because the fear of fear is so great

Political Peace is submission and oppression while convincing you
that its in your best interests not to resist or persist.

You are then provided with a guilded cage
distracted by how different the cage is next to you
or the fence that divides you but you are safe?

All policed by consent
the unmerry road to oppression
begins and ends with distraction and take
all selling illusions of peace and happiness
while selling you out

And YOU are too distracted to notice
YOU are killing your family and neighbors
One fear
One prejudice
One judgement
at a time...
Who polices the politix machine?
Who polices you?
Why gave them your unalienable right under *God
to legislate your freedom faith and happiness out of your life,
for you without your consent? Is that why they want to **** God?

Peace has nothing to do with governments
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