I am trying to write the pain
Away that keeps me awake.
I just want to sleep.

Prozac promises. 
Stale conversation a nebulas mist
Fills my mind
A marionette dance to please you my
Puppeteer master
Dreaming of an inextingushable love
So that I can break free
From this straight-jacket romance
I long to taste chocolate kisses
That melt away dreams watching 
galaxies imploding wrapped up in his arms
Blowing away memories of you.

The dreamers dream and
The poet writes.
Lost souls looking for some kind of
Purpose in life.
While some of us are just trying to get
Through the day

Come see see me and we can live
After midnight.
Touch me under the silver moon light.
Kissing me under the stars.
Hold me tight pull me close to you.
Make me say your name.
Promise me one thing.
After tonight never let me go.

I don't think of you often
But when I do.
My heart break all over again
And a poem is born.

Because of you,
I push everyone away from me never let anyone get too close to me.
Lying awake every night scare to go to
Sleep I don't want to relive nightmares.
My anxiety  ripped away the happy person I once was.
Forgive you because I want to move on with my life.
I will let karma do her job

Whenever someone takes an
Interest in my work.
I watch as the anger rolls across
Your face.
Then the bullying starts my poems
Are stupid no one likes them.
You can always write better than me
Asking me if i am listening.
i can see the jealously turning you
Very green.
You told me if i don't stop writing
You make my life hell.
You bully me day and night but i will
Never stop writing.

The rain falls covering my tears.
Deep wounds that can't heal.
Another knife sharpen ready to use.
Another scar added.

Picking up pieces of a broken heart.
Paranoid thoughts take over.
Drowning in a sea of mixed emotions.
Not sure who to trust.

Burying the pain in lines of poems.
Saying nothing to anyone.
What they don't know can't hurt them.
But it's hurting you.

If you where picked and loved.
Only to be left and lied to.
Wouldn't you grow thorns to?.

I write in the candle light freeing
My heart of this heavy feeling.
No more do i love thee like i once did
Now its time to let go.

I talk with angels swing on a star
And cry to the blue moon.
Because he understands my heartache
In a way no one else ever did.

Would it be better to pen the down
And never write again?.
Some people have said no others
Have said do what you think
Is best.
I am not sure I know what to do.

I make mistakes.
I laugh when I shouldn't.
Say stupid things then take it
All back.
No all my choices will be right.
I will fall many times.
I don't have all the answers.
I am not perfect.
But beauty can be found in the
Imperfect things.
That's what makes me real.

Sometimes everything in my life
Feels like one big maze.
Full of twist turns and mostly dead ends.

My sadness and sorrow can't be explained I'd be happy to exchange it for physical pain. A crushed heart thrown away nothing left to drain.

The flames don't burn as strong as they once did Struggling to see the light in the darkness.
Promising everything while giving nothing at all.

Beware of his lying eyes and his dementor's kiss It's a fate far worse than death it self.

He took my heart.
Not knowing what he had done.
Leaving me in the dark.

I don't have all the answers.
I will make mistakes.
I will get things wrong.
But i have a heart that's big
As the ocean.
I am only human.

Drop the act.
End the show.
Forget the voice of reason.
Be the real you.

I red something that said
If you can forgive you will heal.
If you let go you grow.
Now they words are stuck in my head.

A broken mind can still be a
Beautiful mind.

Trying
To forget the love that stole my heart and the voice that made my spine tingle.

the way he made me feel the memories we made his soft touch that made my knees shakes.

It took a moment to love him to need him and to miss him. It will take a life time to forget.

My work is my own and it maybe
Always be good.
Hello poetry was a happy to go.
Now I am not so sure I want
To post anymore.

What is being normal?.
Because it is a question that no one
Has answered.

The most dangerous thing to do
Is stand still and never try.

I am constantly inspired.
By the poems posted.
By the way they speak.
By the way the words are written.
By the way no feeling is the same.
By the way inspiration is all around us.

My dreams that full of colour
In a place of happiness.
Feeling no sadness.
Then my eyes open and it's back
To the same black and white
World I know so well.

Listening to calm water pasting by taken old memoires with it.  Watching roses dancing in the summer breeze. Letting tears fall where they can not be seen.

Getting you out of my head and my life once and for all. Reviving a dying heart putting it back together piece by piece. I don't miss the fun we had.

Everything has change so fast nothing can ever be as it once was. Your love is like a poisoned apple one bite and your dead.

I saw the face of my bully sitting
In the street cup in hand,
Arms full of needles marks begging
For spare change.
Karma gets everyone in the end.

it's hard to smile when it feels like all hope has gone.

it's hard to keep getting up when you have been down many times.

It's hard to know who you can and can't trust.

It's hard to see the light in the darkness.

It's hard to dream when there is no hope

I would have kissed you harder
And held you tighter.
If I Knew this was the last goodbye.

Somedays I am happy laughing
And full of jokes.
The life and soul of party.
Other days I want the darkness
Just to take me from the
Misery

Can't talk to much.
Can't laugh to loud.
Can't have fun.
Can't do anything.
Tell me what I can do?.

The tears.
The pain.
I love you.
I hate you.
You don't win.
I don't win.
No one wins.
Why do we keep doing this?.

When night falls that's when the worrying thoughts starts.
I am good enough?.
I am trying so hard to open to up
But none listens to me.

I am trying really hard to be normal.
I am trying to man up as they keep
Telling me to do.
Fighting the darkness in my own head.

Waking up to the tired questions.
Whats wrong with you?.
Your too loud.
Your too quite.
Why don't you come round anymore.

Your not smiling enough.
Your not talking enough.
Your not laughing enough.
You not doing it right.

You need to speak up more.
You need to listen.
Your just being selfish now.
Do this so I feel happy.

I am more broken than they think.
Night falls and fear takes over.
My chest tights.
My hearts starts to beat fast.

I am depressed because the ones who are meant to help me.
Are the ones who are hurting me the
Most.

The day finally came when your
Name didn't make me smile
Anymore.

Compliants about everything.
Time wasited eyes roll.
Isn't it just better to just do what,
Needs to be done without,
All the complaining.