Let me drown in the sea of your
inner beauty.
Let me touch the most broken
part of your heart
Come dance with me in the
warm summer rain.
Touch me under the silver moonlight make me long to taste your kiss.
Let me miss you every time you leave.

The day finally came when your
Name didn't make me smile
Anymore.

When night falls that's when the worrying thoughts starts.
I am good enough?.
I am trying so hard to open to up
But none listens to me.

I am trying really hard to be normal.
I am trying to man up as they keep
Telling me to do.
Fighting the darkness in my own head.

Waking up to the tired questions.
Whats wrong with you?.
Your too loud.
Your too quite.
Why don't you come round anymore.

Your not smiling enough.
Your not talking enough.
Your not laughing enough.
You not doing it right.

You need to speak up more.
You need to listen.
Your just being selfish now.
Do this so I feel happy.

I am more broken than they think.
Night falls and fear takes over.
My chest tights.
My hearts starts to beat fast.

I am depressed because the ones who are meant to help me.
Are the ones who are hurting me the
Most.

Wrapped up in waves of emotions.
He shines like the silver midnight
Moon-colder than a marble statue.

His poker-face could device anyone.
Yet every time he looks my way.
My heart beats my body shakes.

Lips softly kissed hearts touched.
Lost in his hungry lustful eyes.
Wishing we could stay in this moment.

I have learned to careless about
What strangers think of me.
You will never make everyone happy
Love me ot hate it.
Put me down and i will get back up
And my life will go.
If i disappoint you thats only because
I won't live up to your expectations.
Never i will become part of this
Fake faceless and hateful society.
When you careless you live happy.

Yes I'm a dreamer who has been
Lost in many dreams.
But sometimes it is best to be lost
In a dream than have nothing.

My heart healed
When I learn to love and
Not hate.

My mind is numb and my heart
Feels more than one emotion.
I am good acting okay when i falling
Apart inside piece by piece.

I am scared of the night because
That's when the thoughts get me.
My mind has become a twisted maze
I want out of.

I wake up in a cold sweat crying
You can't be dead.
The bible says time heals wounds
But my wounds aren't healing.

Did heaven really need another angel?
Couldn't he have taken someone else?.

I have rock bottom hard.
Yes I have made mistakes and learn
Many lessons.
To all my readers thank you for the
Kinds words and support.
Never have I treated you like idoits
You have helped me grow.
Not ever poems of mine has been
Good enough to post.
I am not putting the pen down I
May take a break for awhile.
Thank you for making me the poet
That I am.

An unseen telnet.
A light that's never seen.
Words that are never heard
Smiling throught the pain.
Laughing throught the tears.
Learning never to give up.

He was her sinful and twisted fanstay
His siren call, was always answered by her.
She was the dark fairytale he loved to get lost in over and over.
Together they made magic that few people could understand.

I don't know...
What love is only because I have
Never been shown it by anyone.

I don't know...
How to trust anyone when its
Been broken so many times.

I don't know...
How where my life is going either
Not every question has an answer.

The fire is dying and i no
Longer know the face in mirror.
Drained and exhausted batteries its
Day three and i feel nothing.

Does goodbye mean letting go?
Does letting go mean forever?.
Because either way a heart breaks.

Love your self.
Love who you are.
Love your body.
Beauty has no size.

You are the dream I am
Always chasing.

I wish the pain would stop hurting feeling more and more alone.
All that's left are memories of the way things were between us.
Half written poems we never finished
An old notebook full of our thoughts.
No more late night pillow talks.
Now there will always be apart of me
That is missing.
Now we are worlds apart don't you go
And forget about me.
You'll always be in my heart.

We both wanted that happy ending
That only exists in the movies.
Chasing dreams.
Watching sunsets holding hands.
Sharing sweet kisses.
The highs where high and the lows
Where low.
Missing pieces and shatter dreams.
I wonder where you are now.

It's time to move on.
Let the past die.
Allow old wounds to heal.
Take a step into the unknown.

Starting to build a new life.
Feeling scared.
But it's okay to be scared.
Everyone makes mistakes right?.

Lying awake in the darkness.
A mind full of thoughts.
Another sleepless night of wondering,
Where to take this broken life

Do you die trying while known
That glory is close?.
What if neither your head or
Your heart are right?.
Is there really an in between or
Does it have to be all or nothing?.

To some i am nothing more than
A cold heart demon.
To others i am an angel with a heart
Thats as deep as the ocean.

Maybe
This was
Never meant to
Last so I'll say
Goodbye

I once looked at you like the stars looked at the moon.
Feeling as if there was nothing more beautiful than this moment, made with you.
Just as the last of the summer roses died so did you.
Until we meet again I will never give
My heart to anyone

She was dreaming,
Of that time they sat and watched the
Fire slowly die.
Dancing in the warm summer rain
Feeling as if time had stopped.
How they  would always slip into the darkness of the night.
Escaping from all the watching eyes
Longing to feel his touch.
Laying naked in his arms skin to skin
Wishing they could stay together.
Knowing that the one thing they wanted could never be.
She died everyone he said goodbye.

I have been lied to let down
Stabbed in the back.
Talked about laughed at.
Judged by others.
Yet no one ever says it to my face.

Does the dream die when
The the Dreamer dies?.
Can a broken heart love again?.
Are we really free?.

I have crossed trouble waters and
Wild oceans.
Hit the ground hard felt alone
Cried in the night.
But everytime i see your smile
It saves me.

It's not something I can turn on and off
It's not an act either.

to loud I am told to be quite.

To quite there has to be something wrong I can never win.

Thinking thoughts no one understands.

Feeling more alone than ever.

Anxiety is a part of me that I want to lose but I can't lose it.

The icy cold fingers of sadness
Creep in touching my heart.
Taking me to the point where i feel
Nothing but cold and numb.
I dont want to feel this most of the
Time i am writing to forget.

When night comes i dream of a never
Ending forever with you.

Always Say never...
To the person who says
Don't follow your dreams.

Always say never...
To the one's who try
To change who you are.

Always say never...
To the people who try
To silence you.

Always say never...
To the heart breakers back stabbers
And the story tellers.

They only want to cut you down.