and waited
and waited.

And slowly,
he melted away with
time,
like how
acid
eats away
the living flesh of
his heart.

I wonder,
"Where's everyone when I need them?"

Then I realized,
a mirror will never,
ever,
know of its
beauty.

But.

Only the beauty
of those who stand
in front of it.

The first time he fell,
like a tree, he was felled, with
a strong tug, and, a light push.

The next time he fell,
from great heights, he was felled, by
hands, that lifted him.

The third time he fell,
into flames, he was felled, though
hopeless, but hopeful.

For he shall be a Phoenix,
dying in the flames,
and rising from the ashes
Refreshed, Renewed, Revived.

For Love, is but falling, rising
and falling again.
And again and
again.

and suddenly, I realised
I've sunk
so deep in this
Pool of Uncertainty,
I won't see the surface, ever
again.

                                                                                                      For it's not
                                                                                                      "I like you"
                                                                                                      but
                                                                                                      "I like you,
                                                                                                      too"
                                                                                                      that mattered.

Do you know of
the nights when
I cried myself to sleep?
Alone. Empty. Helpless.
With you still in my mind,
stuck in my heart, that same spot,
(Bull's eye!)
refusing to go.

I hope you know,
but
you won't, for you
didn't care anyway,
but
maybe you did,
maybe you know,

Do you know of
how chests burn and
how hearts freeze?
Hot and cold I am
everyday.
Everyday since you
left.
Cold eyes, cold heart and that
empty space.
****** away my soul and
left me drowning
the very place we used to
say that this would last
forever and
ever.

I hope you know,
but
you won't, for you
didn't care anyway,

Do you know the

No you don't. For you
never cared.
Even though like
suit and tie we paired
you
never cared.

But I still
do, even when
you don't.

And so you shall
remain stuck at
that same spot
a year ago when you
left
without saying a word.
Forever and
ever, you shall
drown
within me.
And never get out,
forever and
ever.

It scares me when people
ask me to just
let you go.

It's not that I can't.

I can.

But if I do,
I don't think I can ever
love anyone
with the whole of
my heart
anymore.

I fear losing you.
I fear losing love more.

Above all,
I fear losing myself
when I lose you
and love.

Altogether.

The structure of
my poems are
almost always
fragmented.

Fragmented.

My heart is fragmented too.

Fragmented.

Broke into little minute fragments of
the living flesh of love,
painful love,
broken love,
shattered love.
Each and every time
I see you.

And I see you everywhere.

And I still remember the
fragments of me
you took away.
First slowly,
piece by piece,
then all at once.

I am now fragmented.
Spilled on the ground,
deserted,
forgotten,
some fragments
left in different parts
of you.

I am fragmented.
My minute fragments with
you.

**And only you.

Walking, walking, walking.

Walking, walking.
Walking.

Walking.

STOP.

Walking.

Walking, walking, walking.

Running.

I promise to be perfect
for that's who you are,
the apple of my eye,
only one in my mind.

I promise to love you
again, like how roses bloom
at the touch of your
bittersweet breath.

But if the thorns of
your roses leave me
bleeding again,
I promise to be more perfect
in my next
next life.

                                              A cherry blossom that
                                              blooms
                                              on your sight and
                                              falls
                                              at your breath.

I promise.

In my next
next life.

while you were sleeping,
I built a wall
around you.
With tears from
my eyes,
with the ache from
my heart,
with the words stuck in
my throat.
For I couldn't protect you
in real life,
so I guess
protecting you in your dreams
was the next best thing I
could do.

Just like how
you can only be in
my dreams.

And can never be
with me in
real life.

Never will I try again
For I'm nothing in your eyes.
You gave me nothing but pain
And a pair of teary eyes.

I've always given out my heart,
Thinking you're the perfect one.
Instead you're a work of art
A dream so far, like the Sun.

So no longer will I try
When Love is not to be mine.
For my broken heart has died
Even though I still look fine.

I hope that you would change my mind
And show that Love is not a lie.

Why do people
Always leave?
Like how stars die
After lighting up the
Night sky.

It's not just healing
heart burns, and mending fractures
from numerous falls.
But, disappearing,
ending all to start anew.
Amid bluer skies.