Without my mind's
electrical circuitry,

there's no time
besides eternity.

bar bars bars bar bars bars
smoke smoke smoke cigs smoke
shot shot beer shot beer
bar bar bars bar smoke shot beer
sleep, glorious sleep.

Yesterday was,
today is,
tomorrow has yet
to be.

Time itself;
a unit of measurement
for our own failing bodies.

Counting machines
with hands and faces;
"tick-tock" insist the clocks.

Smiling on me
from atop the wall,
numbers serve as chopping blocks.

I want to get out of my skin
  and invent a new sin
I want to break all my bones
  and burn down my home
I want to stare into the windows
  of my soul
And see a sea full of eyes staring
  back at me
I want to escape the weight of
  all the worlds lies
And find the place were monsters
  and madness dance

Joan Rivers who lived her life
She used humor and laughter being her advice
Joan Rivers was more than a comedian with jokes
It was the words in which she spoke
My laughter has become a tear
This is Joan Rivers final year
A curtain down for the last time
Joan Rivers was an actress who brought the feeling of laughter alive
Perhaps to some people it was a lot of jive
Yet, she was the indication being her own creation
Thank you Joan Rivers for making me smile
Through the years, this was always your style
I remember when you appeared on the Lucy Show
Your comedy spirit added humor and you let it flow
You will still be remembered while you are home in Heaven
You were a woman of wealth, but talent more than anybody else
To laugh only being a moment, but to live in making the creed in continuing on living and encouragement to others in giving.

Rereading my poems makes me sad, how could I ever have been happy enough to write that?