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 Oct 2015 Ann Nicole
Eugene
My Past
 Oct 2015 Ann Nicole
Eugene
It all started when my mother left me.
I felt empty.

Days passed, weeks slowly fading,
months began hating me emotionally.

Years, decades swept suddenly.
My mind said to stop this agony.

I locked myself alone in my room.
Tears began to fall then flowers stop to bloom.

It was too painful and it keeps coming back.
Dreams turned into nightmares, wishing they could talk.

But they’re not. They’re haunting me each and every night,
They wanted my precious tears to fall, to cry losing my sight.

Despite all those hardships, I managed to fixed myself.
Exploring different things, nurturing my talents, reading a lot of books in my shelves.

I grew up to be a good boy, a good man.
Reducing anxieties, stress, and pain.

Years later, I became happy and lively,
Tears faded, smiles comes out easily.

It took me several years to ponder.
And realized what I’ve missed and wonder.

Though, I haven’t seen my real mother and lost my father,
I still have people left; my stepmom and step siblings who stood up for me to remember.

There are a lot of people who underestimated me
But few were eager to learn the other side of me.

My only wish is to be strong and healthy, both mind and body,
Free from stress, pain, agony, accidents, and just think of things to be happy.
 Oct 2015 Ann Nicole
Eugene
One minute, I took a deep breath.
Two minutes, I move my head left and right.
Three minutes, I began closing my eyes.
Four minutes, I started thinking of all your lies.
Five minutes, tears falling down my face.
Six minutes, I kneel down and pray.
Seven minutes, I open my mouth and utter words to say.
Eight minutes, I stand up and wipe my tears.
Nine minutes, memories flash back through my veins.
Ten minutes, I thank God for the wonderful ten minutes of prayer.
 Sep 2015 Ann Nicole
JWL
If You Must
 Sep 2015 Ann Nicole
JWL
Please never steal, lie or cheat.
But if you must
Steal..
steal away my sorrows.

If you must
Lie..
Lie with me every night.

And if you must
Cheat...
Cheat death.
I heard this watching  Leap Year.
I traced my finger
On the outline of his face.
Every pixel carrying the love
That we have for each other.

Smiles were real with him-
Worth capturing through lenses.
My eyes distracted by his beauty.
I was not looking at the camera-
Why should I?
Perfection was right beside me.

Every line of coloured
Running through the picture,
Encapsulating the fantasies that was wrapped around us.
No sign of reality
Since we were simply
Infatuated with each other.

The light displayed
Across the photograph
Showed sparks that lip up
When we were close together.
The fire that ignited
When I was with him.

Every curve and line
Represented the edges of fantasy
That we were standing on.
But with every kiss
My dreams came true
And every unimaginable wish
Turned to reality,
Giving us a step ahead
To stop us from falling.

Yet all good thing come to and end.
Remembering that this time next year,
We'd both be gone and left as a memory.
And this picture,
Along with others,
Would be the only proof we once were.

Tears threaten to escape
As I gripped the picture tighter.
What scared me the most
Was that we both
Have the ability to move on.
And the only thing stopping us
Was the recollection of love we once shared.

Tears spilled down the side of my face.
I didn't want to move on-
I'll be forced to.
I wasn't allowed to have a choice,
Wasn't allowed to hold on,
Wasn't allowed to want more.

Of this. Us.
We were what we were always going to end up being:
A dream. Magical.
Yet never lasting in the end.
Since we were too perfect.
It was too perfect.
He was too perfect.

Everything I ever wanted
Thrown away almost as I had finally
Grasped it.
Calling it mine.

I never wanted to let go of the best thing
That ever happened to me.
It wasn't fair.

The image of us
Was always going to be
A reminder that perfection exists.
And so does pure love.

I gently placed the picture back,
Along with the other snapshots
I had taken of him.
Happiness written across his face.
He was like my happy place.
In fact, he was much more.
And always will be.

Keeping this photograph meant something.
It meant I was never  ever letting him go
.                       She'll
take
                        off
her
                        clothes
for a                     little bit of coverage
Ride                     windows down
in the rain              like she loves it
                                What she'll do
                             for a hundred likes
                             on a website

  in real life              
      Is something project X like
her best nights
Her friends lie about her importance 
Beauty cant get you on a Forbes list
                                          But her dreams only  
*exist when attention shuts out pain
 Aug 2015 Ann Nicole
Amanda
You say you miss me
but you've kept your distance.
You don't have to tell me
it's because you're with him.
And if I said I didn't miss you,
well, I'd be lying.
My heart has been heavy
and these times are trying.
All I want is to talk to you, if nothing else.
I've done just fine these past few years by myself.
And I promise I,
no, I didn't mean to make you cry,
but, my God,
I wish that I could be the one
to dry your eyes.
I wish that I could grab your hand
and not think twice.
I wish that these thoughts of you
weren't my only vice.
I wish I could snuggle up
behind you and kiss your neck.
But it's then that I'm reminded

of all the things you never said.
In the thicket's shade
a woman by herself
singing the rice-planting song.
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