She tried to block
everyone out.
She told herself she wouldn't
allow anyone to hurt her any more.
She lied.
She knew, deep down, that the walls
she prided herself on - the ones she
claimed she topped with barbed wire
and electricity, were really just small
white picket fences with far too many hinges.
She knew that there was a
“Welcome” mat sitting at the door
to her heart that had been caked
with the dirt from the previous men
who had walked all over her.
Yet it still lay there, cheery and
hopeful as ever, that one day
someone would walk in and
make themselves at home-
maybe someday someone wouldn't
end up walking right back out.
She was naive- blind sided by her
own dreams that one day things
would be different;
that one day she wouldn't have
to hurt any more. She dreamt that
she would finally meet someone
who wasn't like everyone else.
Someone who would stay.
Her dreams would never come true;
but no one had the heart to warn her
of that-
even if they had she would have
disagreed, even though
subconsciously
she would have known she was
the one who was wrong.
Her heart may have been weak but
her will was weaker.
She never had the strength to
protect herself; or to build better
walls; or to burn the welcome mat;
or to lock the door.
She’ll never know
how not to let people in.
So instead he greets the
with a smile and dives in
heart first, granting everyone
a chance to get inside
and destroy her, every time.
She’ll never learn…