the anger swells inside of me like a balloon, ready to burst. Band of Horses blares in the background, and tears begin to fill my eyes, threatening to drop if I don't pull myself together. stop it. stop trying to break in stop trying to make me let you in i won't won't won't won't i won't let. you. in. stop i hate you i hate how my heart beats faster when i'm by your side i hate how you make me more of myself i hate hate ha te hate you i hate you but more than that i adore you
cameras flash lights blare mother smiles heart aches stomach rumbles agent is pleased skinny skinny skinny must be skinny must be pretty must be perfect must be good enough not enough never enough **** **** **** why do people even like me **** model **** girl hate me cutting carving creating scars drink drank drunk drip drip hoping I'll just bleed out.