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Joe Cole Mar 2015
We all look forward to the snowdrops
The harbinger of spring
In many shades of white
Offtimes tinged with green
Beautiful, oh so beautiful
Sweeping swathes of green tinged white
But they shrink into nothingness
Against the aconite
Aconite of deepest gold
Brighter than the sun
Aconite the first to show
Amid deep winters gloom
When the aconite first does show
Bluetits start to flit and sing
You see it's not the snowdrop
Who is the harbinger of spring
Strangely not many people know that the aconite flowers before the snowdrop
E Townsend Sep 2015
The president of the horticulture club
thumbs the violet leaves of a aconite
ignoring the shooting pain crawling on her skin.
The other members glare at her,
waiting for the reaction-
touch the frail plant
and your mouth is sure to set on fire.
The contact she has on the flower
is insanely dangerous.
Potent alkaloids bloom overhead
and she continues to breathe in deeply as if she is trying to swallow
the strong, acrid taste of the atmosphere,
which should have sent her into a frenzy of disorientation
and seizures of her small limbs
but at last, she glances
at the frozen treasurer and spoke calmly, her mouth slouching,
"Are you writing this down?
I want the future of this club
to know to never touch plants
without doing their research."
Then she blinks,
slumps against the bench,
undeterred.
I stand here;
outside my balcony
amidst darkness
in the company
of loneliness

My soul impertaburbly
trapped between forlornness
and peacefulness


Yin and Yang perhaps,

Forlorn because the soul,
wounded and damaged perniciously by loneliness..

And peace;
because the herb...
well the herb heals
to some extent

My vessel the arena

On a forbidden course
Yang battles Yin
the odds are in his favor
THC to Yin is like aconite to wolves;

And so he weakens with every hit

The melee ends
like it was destined to
tranquil and pure bliss prevail

At that moment;
the wind starts to sing her song

Calling, whistling to his lover
the king of the night
she whistles a beautiful song
that sounds of a gentle breeze
zephyr like pushing aside clouds that
guard his majesty;
grandiosely his image is revealed
in the nightlife

Observe they all gather under the nightsky;
selenophiles
far away from each other
all in different worlds
but it's this energy that coheres them here
together

The wind starts to sing
the song of halcyon,
ogling at the moon
in veneration and exhilaration
selenophiles danced away into the night.
Faint as a climate-changing bird that flies
All night across the darkness, and at dawn
Falls on the threshold of her native land,
And can no more, thou camest, O my child,
Led upward by the God of ghosts and dreams,
Who laid thee at Eleusis, dazed and dumb,
With passing thro' at once from state to state,
Until I brought thee hither, that the day,
When here thy hands let fall the gather'd flower,
Might break thro' clouded memories once again
On thy lost self. A sudden nightingale
Saw thee, and flash'd into a frolic of song
And welcome; and a gleam as of the moon,
When first she peers along the tremulous deep,
Fled wavering o'er thy face, and chased away
That shadow of a likeness to the king
Of shadows, thy dark mate. Persephone!
Queen of the dead no more--my child! Thine eyes
Again were human-godlike, and the Sun
Burst from a swimming fleece of winter gray,
And robed thee in his day from head to feet--
"Mother!" and I was folded in thine arms.

Child, those imperial, disimpassion'd eyes
Awed even me at first, thy mother--eyes
That oft had seen the serpent-wanded power
Draw downward into Hades with his drift
Of fickering spectres, lighted from below
By the red race of fiery Phlegethon;
But when before have Gods or men beheld
The Life that had descended re-arise,
And lighted from above him by the Sun?
So mighty was the mother's childless cry,
A cry that ran thro' Hades, Earth, and Heaven!

So in this pleasant vale we stand again,
The field of Enna, now once more ablaze
With flowers that brighten as thy footstep falls,
All flowers--but for one black blur of earth
Left by that closing chasm, thro' which the car
Of dark Aidoneus rising rapt thee hence.
And here, my child, tho' folded in thine arms,
I feel the deathless heart of motherhood
Within me shudder, lest the naked glebe
Should yawn once more into the gulf, and thence
The shrilly whinnyings of the team of Hell,
Ascending, pierce the glad and songful air,
And all at once their arch'd necks, midnight-maned,
Jet upward thro' the mid-day blossom. No!
For, see, thy foot has touch'd it; all the space
Of blank earth-baldness clothes itself afresh,
And breaks into the crocus-purple hour
That saw thee vanish.

Child, when thou wert gone,
I envied human wives, and nested birds,
Yea, the cubb'd lioness; went in search of thee
Thro' many a palace, many a cot, and gave
Thy breast to ailing infants in the night,
And set the mother waking in amaze
To find her sick one whole; and forth again
Among the wail of midnight winds, and cried,
"Where is my loved one? Wherefore do ye wail?"
And out from all the night an answer shrill'd,
"We know not, and we know not why we wail."
I climb'd on all the cliffs of all the seas,
And ask'd the waves that moan about the world
"Where? do ye make your moaning for my child?"
And round from all the world the voices came
"We know not, and we know not why we moan."
"Where?" and I stared from every eagle-peak,
I thridded the black heart of all the woods,
I peer'd thro' tomb and cave, and in the storms
Of Autumn swept across the city, and heard
The murmur of their temples chanting me,
Me, me, the desolate Mother! "Where"?--and turn'd,
And fled by many a waste, forlorn of man,
And grieved for man thro' all my grief for thee,--
The jungle rooted in his shatter'd hearth,
The serpent coil'd about his broken shaft,
The scorpion crawling over naked skulls;--
I saw the tiger in the ruin'd fane
Spring from his fallen God, but trace of thee
I saw not; and far on, and, following out
A league of labyrinthine darkness, came
On three gray heads beneath a gleaming rift.
"Where"? and I heard one voice from all the three
"We know not, for we spin the lives of men,
And not of Gods, and know not why we spin!
There is a Fate beyond us." Nothing knew.

Last as the likeness of a dying man,
Without his knowledge, from him flits to warn
A far-off friendship that he comes no more,
So he, the God of dreams, who heard my cry,
Drew from thyself the likeness of thyself
Without thy knowledge, and thy shadow past
Before me, crying "The Bright one in the highest
Is brother of the Dark one in the lowest,
And Bright and Dark have sworn that I, the child
Of thee, the great Earth-Mother, thee, the Power
That lifts her buried life from loom to bloom,
Should be for ever and for evermore
The Bride of Darkness."

So the Shadow wail'd.
Then I, Earth-Goddess, cursed the Gods of Heaven.
I would not mingle with their feasts; to me
Their nectar smack'd of hemlock on the lips,
Their rich ambrosia tasted aconite.
The man, that only lives and loves an hour,
Seem'd nobler than their hard Eternities.
My quick tears ****'d the flower, my ravings hush'd
The bird, and lost in utter grief I fail'd
To send my life thro' olive-yard and vine
And golden grain, my gift to helpless man.
Rain-rotten died the wheat, the barley-spears
Were hollow-husk'd, the leaf fell, and the sun,
Pale at my grief, drew down before his time
Sickening, and Aetna kept her winter snow.
Then He, the brother of this Darkness, He
Who still is highest, glancing from his height
On earth a fruitless fallow, when he miss'd
The wonted steam of sacrifice, the praise
And prayer of men, decreed that thou should'st dwell
For nine white moons of each whole year with me,
Three dark ones in the shadow with thy King.

Once more the reaper in the gleam of dawn
Will see me by the landmark far away,
Blessing his field, or seated in the dusk
Of even, by the lonely threshing-floor,
Rejoicing in the harvest and the grange.
Yet I, Earth-Goddess, am but ill-content
With them, who still are highest. Those gray heads,
What meant they by their "Fate beyond the Fates"
But younger kindlier Gods to bear us down,
As we bore down the Gods before us? Gods,
To quench, not hurl the thunderbolt, to stay,
Not spread the plague, the famine; Gods indeed,
To send the noon into the night and break
The sunless halls of Hades into Heaven?
Till thy dark lord accept and love the Sun,
And all the Shadow die into the Light,
When thou shalt dwell the whole bright year with me,
And souls of men, who grew beyond their race,
And made themselves as Gods against the fear
Of Death and Hell; and thou that hast from men,
As Queen of Death, that worship which is Fear,
Henceforth, as having risen from out the dead,
Shalt ever send thy life along with mine
From buried grain thro' springing blade, and bless
Their garner'd Autumn also, reap with me,
Earth-mother, in the harvest hymns of Earth
The worship which is Love, and see no more
The Stone, the Wheel, the dimly-glimmering lawns
Of that Elysium, all the hateful fires
Of torment, and the shadowy warrior glide
Along the silent field of Asphodel.
Eleete j Muir Jan 2012
Ignorances innate wove curtain of veils
Cut usunder heretofore obscuring
Bodhicittas valedictory wintry gloom torn
Of enlightenments will factioning the
Silenced mammonish city kingdom truced
As the wings of Azrael clinch
Earthly thistles; monolithic raiments
Deposed Hull, Hell and Halifax parcae
The willowing of light unfettering Fenrirs
Durance, howling aconite psalms suspiring
Suffrage relict paving with mewed stars
Redemptions tithed talents bequeathed
Of Heavens sinister prayer burning
Acinta dusts thine ashes threading
The wilful sword of Gods destruction.


ELEETE J MUIR.
Deathlike is our love.
Tired, expired, stagnant and numb.
I'm through playing dumb, treated like hired help.
When we met my pulse it fired, now like death it has expired.
We lie in bed side by side like corpses in a morgue,
inanimate, undesired, tired.

I'm sorry if this hurts but love it can expire, lose its fire and it's flame.
I wish that I could say we're both to blame, but you my love you sired elsewhere, and expected me to understand that you were desired by another and now I'm expected to play the role of second mother to a child,
innocent though he is of his father's shared night of tireless passion with another!

And so it fell to me to prepare this fine repast, forget about the past,
look toward the food cupboard and make a dinner of herbs.
A pinch of hemlock, a touch of aconite, a soupçon of strychnine and a
drop of arsenic. All prepared by mine own fair hand, it's bitterness shone in my tears, as you praised my cooking and my fidelity to you, begged my forgiveness and took me to bed.

Now, cold you lie.
Forgiveness I could give, it was the forgetting that did both you and me in. Like Romeo to his Juliet, a moth to a flame, a drop of wolfs bane,
your Belladonna has had her final fling
Better is a dinner of herbs where love is, than a stalled ox and hatred therewith.
Proverbs 15:17
© JLB
08/10/2014
15:12 BST
Celui qui boit, comme a chanté Nicandre,
De l'Aconite, il a l'esprit troublé,
Tout ce qu'il voit lui semble être doublé,
Et sur ses yeux la nuit se vient épandre.

Celui qui boit de l'amour de Cassandre,
Qui par ses yeux au coeur est écoulé,
Il perd raison, il devient affolé,
Cent fois le jour la Parque le vient prendre.

Mais la chaut vive, ou la rouille, ou le vin
Ou l'or fondu peuvent bien mettre fin
Au mal cruel que l'Aconite donne :

La mort sans plus a pouvoir de guérir
Le coeur de ceux que Cassandre empoisonne,
Mais bien heureux qui peut ainsi mourir.
Ma Cherie Apr 2017
Spring is coming here real soon,
but the snow it came here late,
for the tiny buds in early boon,
it's a shame they'll have to wait,

Confusing is the forecast,
so some may never bloom,
as a crystal blanket now lasts,
and the skies are colored gloom,
covered still in white- all glassed,
an still such dangers loom,

Yet as the waiting blossoms urge,
I see a hopeful lil little sprout,
I see a poking head- up serge,
relieving me of any doubt,

As the Winter Snowdrops splurge,
an the tallest one to shout,
"get up and grow"
"I mean c'mon
c'mon you must know-
it's our time to let it out!"

"C'mon Winter Aconite,
and crocuses,
remember what-
Robin Williams said?"

"Spring is Nature's way
of saying let's party!!!"

So come on then,
let's go up now an make
a lovely little bed,
they'll be plenty time to sleep again,
come Wintertime,
when we are all so slyly,
playing dead!

Ma Cherie © 2017
Lol  just for fun!  Miss Robin Williams tho ;/ Now I need to get busy moving! See you when I get back! Muah ** ma Cherie ❤❤❤.
Under the calm damp shade of some trees in a field that wildflowers have made into their home, you're lying on your back.
There's a change in your heart rhythm.
An unfamiliar numbness creeps in.
Your breathing becomes a little laboured.
There's a sick feeling in your stomach.
Your gaze is fixed upon your delicate fingers as they slowly tear apart the beautiful purple flowers you had been holding.
Lately it seems like thats what you do with most things.
But you're starting to do it less.
You wonder if any of this matters.
It does.
you cant stay the same forever.
Its change, its necessary
Everything is burning and growing and changing and you're slowly getting better.
Not all good things last but neither do all the painful things.
Your desolation is quieting down and becoming easier to get through.
Close your eyes and pay attention to the sound of the gentle breeze swaying the grass in the field of flowers you lie in.
its going to be okay.
Kit Scott  Mar 2019
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Kit Scott Mar 2019
Sweat rolls down my back and my stomach swirls in agony
Oh that I am ill for you
Sick for your pleasure
My sweet lilac lady, purple princess of the pyre
Where my body burns and buzzes for your gentle love

Bane of the wolf and you chase the creature from my heart
I snap my teeth no more
The hood of the holy brother who looks over me
But you are the one divine

I cannot move for your care, numb of mind to your affection
Delicately lulling me into restfullness

And oh! There is pain
And I am frozen in place

But you sing my softly to sleep

My lips fail and stutter as you halt me in my breath
I am halfed now, never complete
You my other part, my other half
Stealing away my soul from the pit of my lungs
Your astounding beauty takes over me and
I am gone on you
Gone for you

And I drift- drift away with

My darling aconite who stays with me till the end
Just some practice, as opposed to anything particular inspired. I haven't written in a while and I've been reading some older poetry so the tone here is a little different than I'm used to, a little aged maybe? Anyhow, I hope you like it.

I suggest looking up 'chinese aconite' if you want to figure out just how uncreative I was with more than half of this.
Jordyn Chapin  Sep 2014
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Jordyn Chapin Sep 2014
Frantically, I search my room for any utensil with a flat head. I grasp a pair of scissors and slide onto the floor where I grab the pencil sharpener, hold the scissors to the *****, and twirl them in my trembling hands. Over and over again I try to pry the razor free. Finally it comes loose, I clench it and take it to the bathroom to clean it. I anxiously walk back to my room running my finger over the blade to determine its worthiness. Worthiness. Worth. I flip it back and forth between my thumb and first finger, watching the silver catch the light and flicker. I slouch in my floor and slide a magazine under my leg in case any blood drips. My hands shake uncontrollably, my head spins and I feel sick to my stomach. Close to my knee cap or farther up? I can’t decide. I flick my lower thigh, then upper, lower and upper again. I decide lower for less pain. With all of my might I slide the shiny blade across my skin. My pure, innocent, previously scar absent skin. I grit my teeth with the excruciating pain, I look down, merely a scratch. The razor was too dull. Tears in my eyes, upset and frustrated I go again and again, it was like a frenzy. I was aiming for the same spot but occasionally missing. I see blood drawl. A huge weight is lifted from my chest
​Depression is a mood disorder I’ve been dealing with for about two years, now. Depression is like a shadow, it follows you everywhere, but it’s not always visible. Over time you learn your masks. One mask is the person you wish you were: happy, always laughing and smiling, encouraging, and convincing everyone that everything is perfect. Your other mask is your real self. The person you hide from everyone: despondent, lonely, beating yourself up, crying yourself to sleep and convincing yourself you’re incapacitated. It’s like a deep dark hole. You can escape if you want, but everywhere you look there’s no light, no end to the terror. I have no motivation to involve myself in anything except school because if I do make it out alive, I will use all of this to help other people. Fatigue, difficulty concentrating, or remember anything, feelings of emptiness and anxiousness, loss of interest in almost everything, feelings of hopelessness, restlessness, and excessive sleeping, are symptoms I handle on a daily basis.
​For years my mom has pushed me to be perfect; perfect skin, perfect body, perfect athlete, perfect student, perfect daughter, and for years I have worked to be this for her. The harder I try, the farther away I am from being what she wants and more distant from the person I truly am. Not to mention, all the others around me who take advantage of my caring nature. People after people stroll through my life and when they walk out they leave my dumbfounded, questioning what I did wrong and where I messed up. Where did I ***** up? What is so wrong with me that I’m either being molded into perfection or being abandoned? People always say “What doesn’t **** you makes you stronger,” and I highly disagree. What doesn’t **** you does **** you-slowly-like Aconite leaves. What doesn’t **** you makes you emotionally and mentally exhausted, drained, and corrupted.
​I truly do care for everyone and their feelings and I never want to hurt others or let anyone hurt them or feel any less or see themselves any less than what they are-beautiful, perfect people-but I have taught myself to feel little to no emotion for others. I am numb inside and out. It’s like I do not exist. I am a ghost, floating through this life, being used, abused, and left for dead. Maybe this is what has led me to hurting myself. Everything piles up and you can only take so much. He might be the only reason why I didn’t lose my mind any sooner. He kept me sane and happy. But when he left I was numb of emotions again, in every place. Every place but one was numb. The one place that was not numb was the place he touched me the most. Not physically, but mentally and emotionally. He touched me in the deepest depths of my heart and the darkest most disturbed places in my head. He left all of his fingerprints in my mind so every morning I dust off my mind and find them. They linger there from the dreams of the night before, where his love haunted me. The pain spreads from my heart through my veins to my bones. I’m weak and hopeless. Maybe that’s why I hurt myself. I want to feel the ways he hurt me over and over again and imagine him sitting beside me. He would kiss my legs and put my head on his chest while I cry and pull on his shirt and tell him to never leave me again. Maybe, I look for a way to mask the pain that lurks on the inside of me. It scratches at my heart, beats on the inside of my rib cages and causes hot tears to sting and run down my cheeks. I look for a way to mask the inside pain. I want to see the scars-which hide on the inside-surface. I want-I need-help. I’m not okay, mentally, emotionally, physically. I am not right. My mind is messed up. Depression is tearing me apart piece by piece. It ***** the life right out, leaving me lifeless, curled up in a ball, my mind blank and my body scarred inside out. I’m losing others over all of my psychological problems. I’m mentally corrupted. I see and hear things that are not real, that do not really happen. They scare me, and haunt me. All of the voices are unfamiliar except one, and that is his. I hear his voice whispering my name in my ear. I lay in bed and I imagine him lying next to me. I feel empty and lonely. I miss his voice, the way he would say “good morning,” and “I love you,” but my very favorite word to hear was my own name. “Jordyn,” rolls off his tongue and sends chills down my spine and a smile across my cheeks. Bringing him into my life for 7 months was the best and worst decision I’ve ever made.

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