everyone thinks you're different
well so do I
I conclude that everyday
what a wonderful thing to see
your green eyes shine when you look at me
how will this end I always ask
"don't leave me here" I always whisper unclearly in your ear
silently enough that you can't hear but loudly enough I can say I told you
just keep on holding onto me
trust me
I won't let go only if you said
"I found something better,
now leave, now go"
I would listen and I would
but I would never do that to you my dear
I hope you feel the same
I know you have potential to always be here
but I can only hope and pray that I'm right oh oh dear

people like you drive me away
to a heaven and hell of a place
a burning feeling that I'm in heaven
yet sometimes I mistake that feelin'
just tell me what you think
of me and you
is that a possibility
we both are thinking I know I know
well I want to know that I really do
but what the way I'm thinking
is we need to talk
what's this turning into
I could just stop and let you decide
but there's this mighty wind inside
don't listen to society
"you take charge" they say
but when I do it folds everything in place
for a while
I don't see smiles from you
and I. was smiling while you were blue
I had no worries but when they came
I realized how I am such a shame

I'll pretend, for you.
"I'm okay"
That's what I'll say, for you.
I'll do it because I know how you feel.
The feeling that you hurt someone is unreal.
It's hard to get rid of it especially when you thought you did the right thing.
Which you did, darling you did.
You did nothing wrong.
Yet there's 1 million songs that say what you did was wrong.
I'll pretend for you then I'm not blue.
You don't deserve to be hurt or feel the way I do.
If you're okay that's all that matters, one less person hurt is better than two.
I hope you don't think I'm blue, but if you do it's not fully because of you.
Yes you made me sing, dance , and smile & that's gone for a while.
Just know that's the only part of you (losing you) that made me blue.

There is black mascara smeared down your cheeks.

All you could do was apologize & show meekness; them it was up to them to decide.

For when it's not enough you said, or maybe it was too much you thought, that you did in the past for them to take in.

"Forgive them for they know not what they do." Does that scripture even apply to you?

You DID know what you were doing, and what the consequences could have been, yet you did it anyway, out of pride, again.

You sit there not knowing what to do. You find yourself on the ground, out of the blue.

"At least I know you'll forgive me." you say humbly lifting your neck upward, with blurry eyes . You know he will, you know he does. He tells you so, for he said himself he says no lies.

can't you see all I wish for us to be?
I want you to appreciate me
Who I am
What I love
But it seems you can't
Or you're afraid to
I Want to fall in love
but you...
I don't feel like you do
Using me for things that drown my mind of joy
using for you, as a toy
"get out" I say
"Don't you see I'm playing both roles," I cry
"of you, and of me.. Why do I stay?"
the answer is not you, I don't stay because of you
I stay because I'm waiting for you to do something
IM WAITING FOR A PLOT TWIST