all walls are purpose built and man made,
designed to obstruct and divide

The room swallows my particles as I lie down to breathe
The lights turn on and my ghost disappears
Safe from harm on my island of feathered pillows
where i detach from my backpack of weighted fears

Drink me into the dust
remember, i MUST, i MUST

Grand chairs and lavish bed quilts
surround me as i disappear into sun beams
Weightless, i float around my ideal retreat
where i can fold my dreams into origami shapes

Find me in the dust
remember, I MUST, I MUST

Chills feel like electric screams
running back and forth through faulty synapses
The lights are on but the ghost reappears
I stand up shivering between the boxes and breeze

Swallowed into the dust
*forgotten by the world

I set an empty plate on the other side of the table
I’ve been expecting her all day, the least she could do is show up for dinner
I pour her some wine, I know she hates red
I write a card and lay out some flowers in case it’s something I said

It’s growing late so I lay out all of the dishes
I eat alone and my hopes diminish as I play our song with no one there to hear it
I even made mashed potatoes, her all-time favorite
I put the wrapped box with her name on it where I know she’ll see it

I end up drinking both glasses
Hell why not the bottle
Another year has passed and I can’t bury the sorrow
Of the choice she made not to wake up on the ‘morrow

Is it my fault she left?
She said I just wasn’t enough this time
But I tried my best
I’ve never been able to get the guilt off of my chest

Child calls
"Daddy there is something under my bed "
Father goes to room turns on lights and checks under bed
He slowly backs away saying
"Nope nope nope **** it I'm out 
 sorry honey in a world of monsters it's every man for himself " that was five years ago
still regrets nothing.

It's funny that death
        Is the lock
Between the worlds

Mujhe kuchh kahna hai,
mujhe tere dil me rahna hai,
Na ruth jana kabhi mujhse,
Kyoki tera banke jina hai
Mujhe tera banke hi mar jana hai,

Mujhe kuchh kahna hai,
Mujhe tera aansoo banke bahna hai,
na bna sako mohabbat mujhe to
gam hi bna lo,
Kyoki tere dard me bhi
mujhe tere sath hi rahna hai,
Mujhe tere sath hi rahna hai,

Mujhe kuchh kahna hai,
Mujhe teri muskurahat banke
tere labon pe rahna hai,
banke kajal teri aankhon ka
mujhe har waqt teri aankhon me hi rahna hai,
Teri aankhon me hi rahna hai,

Mujhe kuchh kahna hai,
mujhe tera khwab banke rahna hai,
Jab gahari nind se band ** jaye ye palaken teri,
teri un mitthe khwabo me apne dil ki baat kahna hai,
mujhe apne dil ki baat hi kahna hai,

The Sun is Alive!