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...gives a shiver.....it shames me,
my weaknesses, are on the surface
needing, rises this misty evening.
this cold, cold night, further emphasizes,
i need God...His Light and Shadow, to
reassure me, when gray, covers blue skies
my loved ones are my inspirations
they feed my need to write
yet, they have their own concerns...

i humbly accept.....i am not my own island...

there's this urge to run...to race with gusty winds,
arrive fast, at my desired destination,
.......but, i am halted...always reminded...
...i listen to two soft voices within
..one is guiding...the other, almost rebelling...
i feel the chill from this empty space next to me
i'm a mix of want........and fear....for,
i need you this moment of twilight,
...and each long night that i stay awake
floating, in this expanse of darkness...
my conflicted soul...sends out signals  of fear..
do my fears make me a craven coward?

the evening breeze makes its presence known
i weep in a hush, from thoughts of sailing...alone,
................ on life's lengthy moonlit bays........

..after enunciation
...of my true voice, my conscience
i could use some company
......like, i need you now
.............to help me make it,
...................through this night of exile...



Sally

Copyright September 19, 2016
Rosalia Rosario A. Bayan
 Nov 2016 Samuel Hesed
Parul
To, the love of my life.

Last night I sat outside in the corridor. The place where the two buildings met, where there was a cold wind blowing.
I shivered, but it was a good kind of shiver, you know? The one you would gladly take, because along with it came absolute peace. The knowledge that everyone was asleep, and you had the night to yourself.

The buildings with the lights still on looked like stars, and reminded me of pablo neruda's poetry, you know "tonight I can write the saddest lines"?.
But no sad lines would come to me tonight, I was at peace.
I could have cried and laughed and danced and there would have been no one to see, no one to hear. The phrase 'dance like nobody's watching' would have applied well, because nobody, was watching.

So why? When I was revelling in this silent night, did I think of you?
Why did I wish you were here.
Granted, I was happy on my own.
So why did I think you to hold me in your arms?
Why did I want to hear your voice?
Why did I want you to watch me dance?

Why did I want to break this godly silence?

I would rather be here with you.
 Nov 2016 Samuel Hesed
pookie
Take my hand and join me on a adventure into the unknown.

The land of dreams and fantasies that's the unknown that we take a step into which turn into a spiral decent of madness.

Take my hand and join me on this adventure into the waters so warm and air so fresh and of mind and body that nobody can express.

Take my hand and let us explore the deepest and darkest desires and let us explore the body shaking mind shattering expirences of our fantasies.

Take my hand and join me on this adventure and let your explore yourself.
 Nov 2016 Samuel Hesed
Ali
We were teenagers
Sun kissed
Surrounding a bonfire
That burned the marshmallows

We roasted working all day
Sinning all night
With a blazing connection
That made me wonder
What you were waiting for

I was falling harder for you
As the leaves turned orange and red
With the fading warmth
Your feelings faded too

I thought there was still hope
As winter approached
But you got just as cold
As the weather

It was me, you and
Her
And what was meant to be
But you chose her
Leaving me to freeze alone

In the dark with my thoughts-
the what ifs
I told myself I was over you
I kept a distance too

But then the flowers returned
And so did you
Springing memories and empty promises
Like whispers in the breeze

The subtle sun rays
Rolled in
Just like the charm
Behind your smile

And it was summer again
We were still teenagers
Making the same
Innocent mistakes

The seasons continued to change
You changed seasonally too
But no matter the damage it sprung in my heart
I'd always fall back to you
Someone walks around with me,
A blue little monster,
With grubby little hands,
Fur is all tangled,
Mangled and raw.
That's sadness,
The worst someone of them all.

You see sadness walks around with me,
And reminds me of my fears,
Tells me people will leave,
Without one single care.
They say "it's happened before,
Why not now?"
And I can't really say anything,
All I do is frown.

Sometimes something happens,
And someone wants to leave,
And sadness starts laughing,
Hoping I'll start to believe
When things seem like they're going right,
I probably could be wrong,
And maybe I should just give up,
Before more of my heart is torn
By sadness' grubby fingers,
Scratching and prying away,
Cackling like a hyena,
And I just sit in pain.

I know you didn't mean to hurt me,
But it doesn't mean I won't cry.
My stomach has an empty pit,
And my mind is like a prune,
My heart may not be mangled,
But there are tears
That won't go away too soon.
So forgive me for my frowns,
And the occasional tears,
It's just that my monster made me believe,
In all my horrible fears.
Moments fully lived
on grass
in sun
under leaves
with seasons to come.
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Because I could not stop for Death—
He kindly stopped for me—
The Carriage held but just Ourselves—
And Immortality.

We slowly drove—He knew no haste
And I had put away
My labor and my leisure too,
For His Civility—

We passed the School, where Children strove
At Recess—in the Ring—
We passed the Fields of Gazing Grain—
We passed the Setting Sun—

Or rather—He passed Us—
The Dews drew quivering and chill—
For only Gossamer, my Gown—
My Tippet—only Tulle—

We paused before a House that seemed
A Swelling of the Ground—
The Roof was scarcely visible—
The Cornice—in the Ground—

Since then—’tis Centuries—and yet
Feels shorter than the Day
I first surmised the Horses’ Heads
Were toward Eternity—
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