I never know what to say
On the brink of forgetting
Losing what I know
Lost on a strange path
No longer able to fend for myself
Dreaming of nothing
Life losing its essence
Weakness overwhelmed
Mental stability slowly burning away
A light slowly dimming
No more happiness
Death looking more inviting
How long to live with nothing
Goals torn from my heart
Ripping a hole in my being
Tears of loss dripping from empty eyes
I can't do much before passing
This world is a bridge
Life and Death fight for their rights
To take over your fate

So much lost
Nothing gained
Not worth the cost
Health no longer maintained

Another hospital visit
Another problem
Body shaking with another fit
It's not you it's them

They lie again and again
It's not this, there is no reason
No trust in men
My limbs are freezing

No job
Failing in school
No more energy to cry or sob
Now I feel just like a tool

I don't have a reason anymore
No goal to reach for
Depression hits me harder than ever before
There is no longer another opportunity door

Life swallowed me whole
Ruining my car
Losing my job
Health plummets

To be able to live is a hassel
Every breath a struggle
How long do I have to suffer
With these health problems

How far do you want me to go?
One foot in front of the other,
Trekking through the snow.

You ask me for one thing
And tell me it’s wrong
I had even gotten down and offered you a ring
I wish for a reason some days
And you laugh in my face
Toxic relationship, that’s it, let’s part ways

How far do you want me to go?
Another shiver to keep warm,
Trekking through the snow.

Another life disappeared,
A new one here,
The only emotion I felt was fear.
Learning to live,
When another one had died,
A soul had a spirit that’s essence it had to give

How far do you want me to go?
A breath so icy,
Trekking through the snow.

Please tell me,
I’m so cold,
How far must I go
To receive what I’ve waited for
A peace to surrender to
A blissful end
To the pain filled beginning

How far…How far must I go?

I'm lost, the road in front split in two
So little time, with so much to do
The woods around me, is so dark
Each thorn I touch, leaves its mark
I grow tired, with each step I take
"Next time", I think, "my mind will break"
Every day, strangely, I survive
Each accident and problem, leaving me alive
How much longer, will it take?
How many sacrifices, will I have to make?

Life is swirling around me
A never ending errand run
Sometimes my eyes blur until I can't see
Awake and moving before the risen sun

Work and school take up time
Responsibilities soak up whats left
My debts soaking up my left over dime
Everything I own is something I regret

Over and over the same every day
Working long hours for a little pay
Long road ahead, not even half way
Been too long, with nothing to say

I couldn't help but notice,
your staring at me again.

With the look of disgust,
plastered on your face.

A blank look of hatred,
boiling in your eyes.

I just wanted to say thank you,
for showing me your true colors.