love was a hurricane, mindlessly engulfing me within its core
it came out of nowhere, and i still can’t decide whether it lasted too long, or too short
love felt like a storm i wasn’t ready to endure
i had built a shelter for my heart, but forgot to secure it within

as a result i was left alone in the strong winds of heart ache

love wasn’t always like this, though

at one point, it was kind
it had held me in its arms and convinced me that in the midst of my tangled locks and graying bags i was the sweetest thing it had laid its eyes on
it wrapped me in warm blankets and whispered sweet nothings until my breathing turned steady and my dreams carried me away somewhere love would eventually meet me again

its true, love left me
but i know it will come back
not now,
but maybe in a few days..months...years
it will be back
next time with a brighter smile, and good intentions

and i can’t wait for that.
because i know the second time around, love will be pure
and raw
love will show me a side of itself I’ve never experienced before

its true, love hurt me
but I’ve learned to forgive it
because love comes in many shapes and sizes
and just because one didn’t suit me doesn’t mean i can’t try for a new fit

I think I got addicted to the way you looked at me;
  like I was your most prized possession
I was entranced by the way your lips felt against mine,
  it is a taste I often crave
sometimes, I savor the tears that streak down my face...
  they remind me of how it felt to be held by you

It has not been easy;
   there are days when I feel like the aching of my heart will grow so loud
   it will swallow me whole
     but there are days when the hurt subsides, and I can finally think
     clearly again

I know you aren't good for me,
but ever since the day you left I have not stopped longing for your presence
                       *I guess I am still learning how to let you go

In the cold winter of my life
our souls crossed paths
the innocence of our words
and the gentleness of our wrath

Spring came by
and smiles bloomed between us wherever we went
our love followed us everywhere
like it was heaven sent

Summer took its turn
but I guess the change in me was too much
all I could use now was the warmth of my tears
to try and recreate your touch

Autumn started
and I felt just fine
finally coming to terms with the fact
that you will never be mine