i've never let anything live in me
at times not even myself
but you are here always
and for now i'll keep pretending
my hands can't reach the door

i dreamt you came for me
we turned our backs on this madness, got lost in the forest & fell together like autumn leaves

i don't know how to do anything other than love you
even when you're the storm
pushing away shelter
i will wait for you
when you bury yourself in sadness, i will ****** my fingers and dig you out
when you can't find your self belief
i will hold your hands and love you anyway
when your mind becomes a battlefield
i will bring a sword to fight your demons

i'll become silence when there is noise
i'll be an open palm when all you can do is close your fists
i will teach you how to speak when your heart has nothing to say
and one day,  
you will die with the knowledge,
that somebody loved you,
more than she loved herself

i wanted to tell you i loved you,
but the butterflies in my stomach swarmed my throat, and all the words got caught in their wings

i wish
i were as brave as the rain
because
they are not afraid to
fall

©IGMS