reya: Poems

#001

reya Aug 5

#001

i wish i didn’t look like her
i wish i couldn’t even look like her
which is impossible, because blood runs faster than everything
but condemns us to escape from anything
as how much i want to be you
and how much i hate it to be you

#daughter

#002

reya Aug 6

#002

i’m thinking about
how in a room full of bodies
she wants hers to be the thinnest so badly.
sad. it’s the way she keeps herself from burning out.

#health

#003

reya Aug 9

#003

i would write, i hope someday, some news
about how i decided to lose.
i had to choose
someone between you and me,
and it’s obvious that i chose myself,
but only because i chose you too many times in the past,
that i had to save myself at least once,
which i never did at the start,
so i chose me, and i choose me.

#finally #healing

#004

reya Aug 11

#004

if i could change my body i would.
not because of what is mine,
just because i’d like to fit in something sinless.
something that i’ve never done *****.

#newbody

#005

reya Aug 11

#005

i wish you far,
i wish you smart.
but all you do is acting immature,
all you do is being an old version of me,
something i don’t like, because i know what the end would be.
i hope that at least this time, you will leave it for sure.

#addiction

#006

reya Aug 11

#006

it would end between my pen and i.
when i would know why
does every poem start with i.
and it’s always i, you, and, me, but, how.

#pen

#007

reya Aug 11

#007

i cried.

i cried because i couldn’t name it.
once again it’s something i thought i’d never fall for,
i do not worry ‘cause i know it would collide,
so, may your love never quit
your mind, it’s a part of my heart’s core.

#cry

#008

reya Aug 11

#008

i wish
i could cover my hole body
with a huge veil
never missing any single prayer anymore
being faster than the time itself
and erase all my sins

#wish

#009

reya Aug 23

#009

i say it’s not,
but it is.
for my dream there’s still two years yet,
however i simply now i’ve told it goodbye.

actually i know,
so if you could avoid me that it will be even better.
keep it to yourself don’t say what has already been all said,
i know how it is, how it feels, and what it brings.

#knowledge #feelings

#010

reya Aug 23

#010

just someone’s hand could be enough,
i don’t care who i’m holding, i just want to be held.
it could be like i’d hear your love and tell others “i heard love, it yelled”
just for me.
‘cause no matter which sea,
i’m definitely drowning in it
if a love is promised
it’s in yours, even i don’t know you yet, that i’ll trust.

#help #love #need

#011

reya Aug 23

#011

a simply regrettable sin.

since i was a kid,
it never changed, i mean: i still own all my thoughts?
however i imagine things i used to think i would never.
i swear it’s the same, yet it’s all so different and far from me.

#past #difference

#012

reya 2h

#012

loving her is cardio
it would be hard for you,
we know,
wherever you hide your heart it could be chew
leave it.
at least once just to taste it?

keep your heart inside,
if it meets her than good luck to take it back
make sure it never goes outside.
you know her, she’s only known for attacks

#her #me #and #you #who #is #she

#013

reya 2h

#013

watching you leave.
it’s even worse than when you were here.
if only we could start once again,
but the third would even get worse on my pain.

you survived everything even me,
and i survived everything but you.
i hate it that you’re leaving me behind and all i had was God and you.
now once again you’re missing again,and if we start again i’d only be a memory.

nothing to you,
a life for me.
an old thing for you,
my everything to me.

#nothing #to #you

#014

reya 2h

#014

“you should never let a luck for boredom”
that’s what she always says, and she’s right because she’s my mom.
she lived a whole life before me, she knows.
i know to believe all of it,
yet my head is stuck in someone’s peace.

#i #know #should #believe #it

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