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618 · Sep 2017
Broken
Renae Sep 2017
Too many hearts have been...

Like pieces of a puzzle scattered
To the wind
Too many shattered
It's a mad disaster
feelings ripped to shreds
left in tatters....
Too many times
families nearly erased
displaced,
Once beautiful memories

Swept away in a wave

Or burnt to the ground

What used to be alive
lays desolate now
like a pile of ashes
in a giant mound...

Too many hearts have been
Broken
617 · Feb 2014
Trophy
Renae Feb 2014
If I were
a perfect hourglass
your prized and polished trophy
then would you hold me
high up for all to see?
Probably you would
I would be shiny and beautiful
sitting alone on your shelf
collecting dust
until it was time
to show me off again
614 · Feb 2014
Assumption
Renae Feb 2014
Nothing says
"I don't care about you"  
louder than assumption
Nothing hurt worse than
"I don't care about you"
When he assumed
my feelings weren't for him
613 · Jan 2014
10 Commandments
Renae Jan 2014
Every law mankind has made today is based on these 10 commandments (besides of course the commandments about gods. As church and state are trying to be separate):
1.Thou shall have no other gods before me
There are far more gods today, mythical, animal, musical, paper,etc. Than ever before
(http://wiki.answers.com/Q/Howmanygodsandgoddessesarethere)
2.Thou shall not make a carved image or a form like the heavens above or on earth or in the waters. You must not bow down to them nor be enticed to serve them.
Mother Mary, Buddha, Hindu, The Cross....and many more images are carved and worshipped.
3.Thou must not take up the name of Jehovah in a worthless way.
This would be futile
4.Keep the Sabbath day sacred
How many work on Sunday now?
5.Honor thy father and thy mother
Tragedies of children and violence are in abundance more than ever before, children are having children and children are committing suicide at alarming rates.
6.Thou shall not ****
War is rampant and soldiers are deceived and lives are ruined while priests bless weapons and send who should be brothers off to **** each other
7.Thou must not commit adultery
Well we know most disregard this as insignificant and some view it as entertainment
8.Thou must not steal
This goes without saying
9.Thou must not commit purgery in court
I rest my case
10.Thou shall not covet another man's wife, house, or things
*Homes are broken into now by bling rings, thieves who covet lifestyles and things and then are made famous over their Actions.
God does not change. (Malachi 3:6) Jesus did not die for nothing. This is not a poem. This is truth.
611 · Feb 2014
Game on
Renae Feb 2014
Games are made for players
& those who know me
know, I am no gamer
Still if I must play along
I intend to come out strong
So don't make this too difficult
in the end we all lose
lose everything
But this is what you choose
606 · Jan 2014
Sleep
Renae Jan 2014
I fall weightless into space and time
The clock ticks unaware I am timeless
unexplainable dreams open doors to worlds,
places I've never been, then again they seem familiar
someone from the past walks through
I must have been reminiscing
606 · Jul 2014
Emptiness
Renae Jul 2014
Emptiness is silent,
crushing & silent...

Betraying hearts cause emptiness

In another...

As the crushing weight towers
like a never ending concrete wall

Tears gush flood waters down my blouse

Only silence hears...

No comfort...

No consoling...

Emptiness is silent
603 · Sep 2022
Wants
Renae Sep 2022
I want to be free
Free to be myself
Free to be okay with
noticing you notice me
I want to be okay
with my silhouette
I don't want to get over it
I want to be okay
I want to laugh
Laugh at me, I want to be silly
I want to feel happy
I'll never understand why
I cry and cry
I refuse to accept me
So I'll never be
what I wanted
I guess that's alright now
I'm still learning
What I'm supposed to know
I am not so good at being me
I'd like to switch places
instead I'll sleep
Feeling melancholy and things like that
602 · Apr 2014
A husband
Renae Apr 2014
A husband should love one wife
Like Adam loved Eve
Only never listen to her over God
of course
A husband should love his wife
As he does his own body
He should cherish and feed her
Keep her healthy
healthy... like he would himself
For no man ever hated his own flesh


Healthy.........
Mental health
Physical health
Spiritual health...

A husband would want a happy wife
He would give lots of attention, lots of affection, communication of course,
A good husband would care for her
He would care about her wants as well
A good husband would listen
dry her tears

A good wife would be so happy to have a good husband she would cherish and respect him in return
594 · Feb 2014
Treading (10 word)
Renae Feb 2014
Head above water
                     just enough
.                            to keep from drowning completely
590 · Sep 2014
Why I write
Renae Sep 2014
I am heart & soul
I am nobody special
I don't claim to be
I write what I know
I write when Im mad
I write when I'm blue
I write about everything
I write just for you
I write about love
Though I know not
I'm just writing each line
with all of my heart
588 · Feb 2024
What is poetry?
Renae Feb 2024
Release the knots of emotion
bound by cages,
walls that taunt the mind.
Express your frustration
bleed through the pen,
unheard & stunted feelings
leave them all behind.
My definition of poetry
588 · Dec 2013
The leaving
Renae Dec 2013
I wonder of I'll ever get used to the leaving. The rejection stings but it's mostly bearable. It's the leaving I hate the most.
I hate it when my children leave the security of home. My oldest son is 18 now and letting go is difficult at best
587 · Oct 2013
You wish
Renae Oct 2013
You wish
Yeah you wish you could
I know better and I'm fine.
Never again so don't even try
To come around here acting like
I'll melt like ice
I laugh, I am past  the giddy feeling
It's been years since I fell for your deception
I know more than you wanted
I opened my eyes
Too late? Well isn't that what you wish
Still I ache for yesterday but the future
Is before me.
I am not the fool you wanted
like you wish
In your dreams you fooled me
Completely
Was I smarter than you wished I would be?
I was distant on purpose
I think he wishes I didn't know the truth
586 · Feb 2017
Story
Renae Feb 2017
Have you ever felt like
Some hearts believe they can see
Right through you
To your core and reasons
They think they know you
though they have no idea
They can't fit the shoes
You've been wearing
If only a glimpse were caught
Available; though it's not
What remains
Is hearsay and guessing



And this is the story
That's believed of me
How they think
I know what happened
Or what's happening
If I did anything
of my own initiative
Why did I too
Feel like a lunatic?
They say I chose my outcome
To fall apart
I am cold as ice
That I don't have a heart

So I freeze
in solitary confinement
I pray for my enemies
Crying tears of silence
Wishing death would come to me
Though it doesn't
I love and move along
Only enduring
That's my story
Don't get it twisted
Now don't you worry
It won't make a difference
I believe in the one
Who's never giving in
He fulfills his promises
& when I pray
He listens

Throughout our lives
We live many stories
Some we're amazing
In all of their glory
Sometimes in despair
We trip and fall
But we get back up
And the story goes on
585 · May 2017
Assertive
Renae May 2017
"Be assertive"
I heard back in my teens
I thought to myself
"What does that even mean?"
Assertive like aggressive
Not exactly my idea of class
Assertive like action
Take action like *"step ahead"

Yes that's more the idea
I have in my head
Assertive like "make things happen"
Like "the moment is now"
How will anything be what we want
If we don't know how?
So we assert our imagination
Creativity in peace
Assert persuasion
Messages with ease
If that is the case
Then I will agree
To be assertive then
Is to live out your dreams
584 · Apr 2014
Honestly
Renae Apr 2014
Lift up the earth's crust
Open up the sea
It's easy to overlook the obvious
happening to you and me
Honestly could you say it will never end?
Honestly stop and think
There's too many wrongs to make this right
We're tipping on the brink
You may say it's always the way it's been
Curious as that may seem
I know it's just a matter of when
In all honesty
579 · Feb 2016
she knows
Renae Feb 2016
she knows he dreams about her
like metal to a magnet
thoughts travel backwards
to unending fantasies

time was new
sadness had ended
love flourished like
a thousand gardens in spring
that was then

she knows now
her thoughts too
travel back to love
when it was brand new
<3
579 · Jan 2014
Comfort
Renae Jan 2014
"It is unthinkable for the true God to act wickedly, for the Almighty to do wrong!" Job. 34:10
"When under trial, let no one say: 'I am being tried by God.' For with evil things God cannot be tried, nor does he himself try anyone." James 1:13
"Throw all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7
"Jehovah is not slow concerning his promise, as some people consider slowness, but he is patient with you because he does not desire anyone to be destroyed but desires all to attain to repentence." 2 Peter 3:9
This is not a poem, only scriptures from God's word.
578 · Jun 2021
Am I worthy
Renae Jun 2021
All roads seem blocked
All exits taped off!
This and that
always get in the way
I ask and wonder and
I don't feel okay

Am I worthy??
As though
you should answer...
Are you?
Who am I to choose

There are hidden things
I cannot see
Your heart, your soul,
your memories
Your trauma, your fears,
Your meant to be's

That crashed and burned
broke your heart...

Who am I to think
you're too broken to restart?

Can I assume you
have no right to life?
That you're cursed
unloved & shouldn't
been born... right...

When I look in a mirror
I only see me
So I ask myself,
Am I worthy?
And then I answer,
most certainly.
577 · May 2015
It is almost over
Renae May 2015
"Just a little while longer"
It is written
And though we stumble
Trip and sometimes fall
We are not wicked
Only a little bit bent
Misunderstood
Confused and broken
We weep and we hope
Yet we stay loyal
Because we know
It is almost over
575 · Nov 2015
That's crazy
Renae Nov 2015
Crazy
You made me crazy
I never loved someone so much
I would travel over mountains over seas
Crazy
You made me crazy
I left everyone who loved me
Until they no longer knew me
That's crazy
I see my crazy
My children have no strong bonds
Their love is unattached
Crazy
Yeah that's crazy
After all I gave myself up for you
And you trashed me
Such a tragedy
We were meant to be
Instead
My love went
Crazy
574 · Aug 2014
Illumination
Renae Aug 2014
For even if
I were engulfed in darkness

That darkness

would eventually be filled
with the light of truth
573 · Feb 2017
They say
Renae Feb 2017
Good is bad
So bad is good
That's what they say
You can do what you want
Don't matter the cost
Live for today
You'll be forgiven
Don't walk away
It's only temporary
YOLO anyway
That's what *they say
568 · Feb 2017
Refuge
Renae Feb 2017
Be my mind today
Protect me from myself
The threats that atempt
to take away
My sanity
Be my heart
Help me not to sway
This way and that
Protect me from heartbreak
Be my helmet
Let me only look to you
Feed my mind courage
Let my strength renew
Be my shield
Let your word be my guide
Let me listen to songs
Your people sing
Bring out the best inside
Be my sword
The only one I yield
Make me remember
Scripture
Don't  let me listen to how I feel
I know my heart
Treaturous thing
So I know I need your help
In everything
I will ignore this heart
I don't want to assume anything
But you will help me through
Because you are my refuge
No matter what life brings
568 · Nov 2015
Curse
Renae Nov 2015
That glimmer in his eye
The charm in his walk, his talk
It was a curse
Didn't you notice his broken finger?
3rd one on the left
That was a present from his mother
No Doctor called at 6 years old
When the trunk slammed down
The remedy was olive oil
No CPS was called back then
They called him tough, brave and strong
But really it was a curse
567 · Dec 2013
There's a pill for that
Renae Dec 2013
There's a pill for almost everything these days.
For instance there are many pills designed to off the waterworks long enough to please those thinking types.  Need energy? There's a pill for that, now you need to sleep so there's a pill for that. There's even a pill to keep you from thinking too much! There's pills for your skin and pills for your teeth. Pills for your ills.
The irony is, in the end, cancer is the reward.
Venting. I do not take pills btw.
565 · Nov 2013
Letting go
Renae Nov 2013
I am releasing my grip
from the unforeseen consequence
cornered choices of my yesteryears
Relaxing my shoulders
shake off the weight
past actions done in haste
no longer serpentine
wavering
back and forth with indecision
With one last exhale
drop the heavy burden
of worries
hear a loud crash
insecurities smash
Into pieces on the floor
Light as air now
take a step up
every motion I take,
mind is clear
I resolve to
place my best foot forward
with each step
565 · Mar 2015
Who knew
Renae Mar 2015
Who knew there was a Fibonacci sequence to a spiral shell or constellation?

Who knew the seeds of a sunflower were so intricate; 30 something this way... 53 that?

Who knew roots needed fungus
Who knew water could rise 60 ft. or more through trunks to branches, twigs and leaves?

Is your mind boggled yet?
Well thought out creation does not come about by chance
565 · Feb 2014
This too shall pass
Renae Feb 2014
Stay straight while you keep your head up
This too shall pass
Stumbling blocks on the road try to trip you up
Just try to remember where your at
What's important? Where are you going?
In this life nothing lasts
So stay straight while you keep your head up
This too shall pass
563 · Dec 2016
Something
Renae Dec 2016
Try as you may

One simply cannot wish

into existence

Something as wonderful

Something as simply divine

Filling every empty space

With ultimate excitement

Something as beautiful as

Something so pure

So true

Something that makes sense

Of everything

That something called

Love
562 · Aug 2014
Water Falls
Renae Aug 2014
All I hear is gushing water
rolling over the side of the cliff
An excited amount
At full speed no less!
Fast enough to ****
Beautiful enough for temptation
Flowing into Blasts
Of foaming white clouds
Rainbows appearing in the mist
Calming now
It winds down
turning into
a clear babbling brook
Turquoise blue
So calm
Serene

Then
without warning
Fierce
Tumbling over boulders
Furious intimidation!

A mighty creation
Sahalie Falls Oregon
561 · Jan 2018
pwg
Renae Jan 2018
pwg
Pretty
Such a shallow existence
Unfortunately it's the way
To capture your attention
Pretty shallow
Is what I see
Pretty empty
Pretty upset
Well now that's me
Pretty much useless
I see pretty in many things
But pretty isn't much
Of anything
561 · Aug 2014
More
Renae Aug 2014
Give me more than emotion
give me strength
Give me more than pleasure
give me encompassing support
Give me more than a line
show me trustworthiness
Give me more than words
give me actions
560 · Mar 2014
Quiet
Renae Mar 2014
Tiptoeing
Careful now
Sleepy souls in
stardust dreams
Awaiting to wake
a top the staircase
Pillows scatter about
toes peek out
As I enjoy
my steamy cup a Joe
On this crisp
quiet
morning
559 · Aug 2013
Everafter
Renae Aug 2013
Words twist and turn
lies magnify
people get caught up
when  their after
a piece of the pie
life is a maze
love is a concept
everyone believes what
is easy to digest
"if it sounds good tell us
consequence is what we don't want."
There seems to be just one thing
everyone forgot
"Love Jehovah your God with all your
mind soul & heart"
then love eachother but that comes after
it seems we're backwards
But who's keeping track
of the ever after?
559 · Sep 2015
Divorce
Renae Sep 2015
Heart bleeding
in the palm of your hand
Dripping slowly
Seeping out
Every last drop
To the floor
Soaked in red
Yet walking empty
Without
Still I go on
Motions
Continue
Whilst
you hold my heart
This is divorce
557 · Aug 2015
Tease
Renae Aug 2015
Light soft,
ever so subtle
teasing strokes
lying hiss
coiled
whispering
meaningless messages
full of pleasure
nothing more
nothing less
557 · Oct 2015
In your face
Renae Oct 2015
The **** is so thick
It is impossible to clean now
It has caked onto the walls
Sickening as it is
When you see it you close your eyes
Still it is there and you now know
You know as soon as you follow
Unfollow
It's now in your brain
Because without taste
It was in your face
Instagram ****
555 · Dec 2013
First Snow
Renae Dec 2013
Like tiny delicate white petals floating through the air, they pile up in the formation of thick cozy blankets covering cars and houses. I sit cuddled up in my own with cocoa and fleece feeling safe and sound by an angry fire.
550 · Apr 2014
lackluster
Renae Apr 2014
Dull meaningless verbal abuse tries to strike me down, to put me in a box where the the other lifeless followers go blind
550 · Jan 2014
A finished product
Renae Jan 2014
shaping, molding
building like clay
forming with eloquence
polished as with silver
shining like gold
548 · Jan 2014
The world to me
Renae Jan 2014
Rolling eyes
Rolling by
Looking down
Looking to the side
Over pain and over me
It's not okay for honesty
Keep it light
Tread carefully
Easy come easy go
Is all they be
The world
545 · Jan 2014
Inspirational
Renae Jan 2014
If we can be nothing more to another we can be inspiring. To bend the brain a bit and juggle thoughts, is to create a fine painting in an open mind. As I spill out wisdom they'll clean up the spots and vise versa. A chain reaction of sorts and in my face palm I'll sip my coffee and smile to myself. We are inspirational.
541 · Feb 2014
holding on
Renae Feb 2014
Like breath will leave my lungs
As if life support would fail me but
This one rooted truth is all that remains
desolate beside the scatter of debris
After the wake of a wicked storm
540 · Jun 2015
Overwhelmed
Renae Jun 2015
My mind is
Overwhelmed
Consumed
Without
Feeling
Cared for...
Loved

Lost in
My emotional
Forest again
Just feeling sad
540 · Nov 2013
I feel like writing
Renae Nov 2013
I feel like writing
I don't really know what will spill out
Bleeding through my fingers onto this
blank canvas
Not always with an effortless flow
I want to open myself up
To let my honesty out with intelligent wit
With confident tones of inspiration
I feel like exploring myself
Like finding a burried treasure, long lost
Inside memories, imagination,
I get lost reading about other intriguing
made up scenarios and personalities
I swim in an endless sea of emotion
Drowning in dreams untold
Fighting to find the right portrayal
I wonder if I will achieve my goals
But for now,...
I just feel like writing
537 · Aug 2011
Forgiveness
Renae Aug 2011
I'll never understand it
I'll never know why
somehow we've stayed together
after all of this time
tearing each other apart
with so many fights
words rip at the heart
so many sleepless nights
I reject you
I'm cruel
We say things
We don't mean
I'm sorry
I forgive you
will you forgive me?
and you do
it's that simple
I guess we were meant to be
so many storms come in
violent winds strike
this house must be made of stone
if it's strong enough to survive
imperfect together
you slip I fall
to really love each other
I guess you have to risk it all
535 · Mar 2017
Out of the blue
Renae Mar 2017
The gloom was thick
Everywhere I turned
I could not see the path in front of me
Who is it now?
Where are you?
I call out your name
Into the darkness
The thick grey smoke
You seem to appear
I am taken into daydreams
I think it's clearing
Then I find it's not even true
If you're not the one here
I don't want to open my eyes
I don't want to know who
I don't want anyone
If it isn't you
Then I see you on my screen again
Out of the blue
The smoke clears
My mind feels giddy
Like it's all brand new
Until you leave me alone for days
And I can feel the gloom
Approach me
I crawl into my feelings
And lock everyone out
530 · Aug 2021
Have you ever loved?
Renae Aug 2021
Have you kissed bruises
On a broken heart
Have you ever loved?
Have you forgiven
All the hurt
Have you ever loved?
Have you been used
Left and even abused
By the ones you loved?
I know a secret
It's best not to dwell on it
Because of all the good
That's all God sees
Even under rejection
Under the hurt of the lies
And all the despise
He forgave us
So tell me true,
Have you?
Every really loved?
God is love
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