my favorite movie clueless my favorite song nocturne and you would never see them through and so you would never know me.
tonight I asked you when you last saw me sober and you couldn't give me an answer.
tonight, I told you just how many bottles of *** I go through in a week.
that night that I cried over you is a continent and a month away but it existed.
I listen to nocturne and blues. and I could've spent this night alone on your sofa. but instead I spend it alone on my floor because here I play Chopin for myself and not for you.
Today was goodbye It feels different this time Before I knew you'd be back Now I think you might stay away And I'm not sure Where that leaves us But I'm broken As we fought It bruised me deep Cut my heart Made me weep And now I lie here Wishing to go back Take away the pain Of watching you pack I'll see you again Maybe not now But this isn't the end It was just See you soon Words I should've said It's done and over now You're my best friend We'll be okay some how And maybe When we meet again We will realize why Neither of us is very good At saying goodbye
the way the light brushes the white of a wall at mid day when the sun is highest and the smell of your home most familiar the way he accepts my palm unyielding stiff backed, and expectant not wavering or wincing backward soft furr tousled, and shiny grey in the fingers of light through the window the way your pillows feel in the morning arms escapsule the cushiony fluff and the scent of last nights smiles the silence of your own space serenity in the quiet against the warmth of your own skin reminiscing along with swirling cloud like memories while you watch your cat snooze serenly on a windowsill..