I have a problem
I listen to music so loud I can't hear my own thoughts and everybody says I'm going to go deaf by the age of 20 but at least I won't hear you say that you never loved me
I have a problem
Your favorite colors are silver and red so I take this blade across my skin again and again and bleed out the beauty that you said was only on the inside
I have a problem
My vision is blurry as a bottle drops from my hand
The sound I hear resonating when it shatters sounds miles away like the memory of our first date with champagne and roses and you loving me
I have a problem
I need to feel a pair of hands around my throat. Get a grip on life, ******, I love you.
I have a problem
You used to hate cigarettes. But now that you're gone, one always resides between my fingers where yours used to be and hopefully if I smoke at 11:11 you'll care enough to come back and stop me
I have a problem.

Throughout life you will find someone unlike any other. You could talk to them for hours and never get bored. This is your soulmate. Never let them go.
But little did you know they'll probably leave you, crying, in the rain at 4 A.M. Cursing at the sky begging for help. Having your face go numb from the throbbing strain of crying so hard. Contemplating self-harm that you hadn't resorted to in over a year.

Because you see, it's kind of funny that it's 4 A.M. And I'm crying, a throbbing strain, contemplating self harm. And that is what your soulmate will do to you.

In drivers ed they say you must hold your hands in the "10 and 2" position, like the numbers on a clock but my time with you is always blurry and I know there's only 10 fingers and 2 hands that are holding my heart from falling off a cliff and that my dear is not very safe so next time your thoughts are a train wreck just remember wear a seat belt and tread carefully among the caution tape.

I'm not a soul
I'm without any feeling
Any touch
I'm a whisper in the wind
A whistle in the way
I'm constantly in the way
I'm numb

Maybe I should really let go
I'm no good for you
And you're certainly no good for me
How can everything be perfect
And two seconds later be a disaster
My scars are forever repeating their past
Being torn open
Replayed
Sown back together
Just to be torn open again
I must say I'm not always to blame
But you make me feel that way
My eyes are strong
But my heart is weak
Not shedding a tear
But skipping beats because I'm scared

I don't want to think about you leaving
It scares me.
Knowing that I'll be alone
Alone
Alone
That you won't be around for me to hug
To cry to
To lean on
I'll just be hurting
Hoping you'll come back but you'll be gone
Very distant from me
And I'll be alone
Alone
Alone