Nicole Dawn

Nicole Dawn Jul 2015

I Know You Don't Care, But....

I really, really
*Miss you

#sad #alone #you #missing

Jul 2015

sanch kay

on the fault lines.

and somewhere in-between
i'm okay and it's fine
i lost myself.

slipping through the cracks.

#love #self #want #relationships #lost #thoughts #identity #conversations #2ampoetry

Nicole Dawn Jul 2015

I'm FINE

I'm dying
But I'm not dead

I'm fine

I'm bleeding
But there's still blood

I'm fine

I'm suffocating
But there's still air

I'm fine

I'm falling apart
But my core's intact

I'm fine

*I'm lying
I'm not fine

#tired

Nicole Dawn Jul 2015

It's Not That Bad

It's not that bad

It's just like when you were little
Jumping off the diving board
Yelling, "Daddy, catch me!"
And feeling scared
But knowing you were safe

Except, you know
There isn't any water
No one is there to catch you
And you feel anything but safe

Okay,
It is that bad

#suicide #alone #scared

Jul 2015

Outcast Dreamer

Shadow

"Smile to your shadow,
It won't smile back...
Say something to it,
It won't reply back...

It won't ever say anything to you,
Yet, It will always follow you (Like a fool)...
When the times are good,
When the times are bad...
Ever felt such a belonging?
No you didn't!
Bet your Shadow did."

(Let me be your Shadow**)

#shadow #friend #meh #alterego #unnoticedfriend #lostpartner

Nicole Dawn Jul 2015

Sledgehammer

It's like my mind
Has a sledgehammer
And every moment
That I'm conscious
There's a new memory
To bash me in the head

It's been a rough few days

#alone #memories #stress #memory #tired #school #pressure

Nicole Dawn Jul 2015

How is This Possible?

I'm screaming
But you can't hear

I'm hiding
In plain sight

I'm running
But getting nowhere

I'm dying
Yet I'm still alive

And most important:
**I want to die
Because you don't care
But won't carry it through
Because I'm afraid of hurting those who care

I'm so confused

#suicide #confused #alone #tired