What is it that you want?
Is it really this?
Close your eyes and imagine happiness.
I see me traveling the world.
Alone, maybe.
Is my wife always going to be here to save me?
She's fading away.
I reach out for her but nothing reciprocates.

The love you took for granted is gone
You lean in for a kiss but you can't
Anxiety so high will you every come down
If you fell would you even land?

She's a stranger as she sits next to me
We know each other's words not feelings
All of these emotions bottled up for keeps
Nothing feels real to me

Those years of happiness seem hazy
Would she even remember the good?
If you said you're gone now it wouldn't even faze me
I'll just go inside my room misunderstood

I wanted to fight for this marriage
I'm not ready to give it all away
At the same time everything's falling apart
I'm hoping I can get one more chance, maybe you'll stay...

The silence before the fight
The moment before explosion
I can feel it creepy slowly on me
She's waiting to say something
She won't let it slip unless I ask
Yet, I'm never ready for the condemnation
It's my fault... whatever it is, it's me
She's gonna tell me about my problem
How I don't do this or that
But won't say anything else
I get ripped apart because she's upset
I get treated like the **** she does doesn't effect me
Am I just a throw away toy?
You're avoiding me now
Don't like my presence?
Want to be alone?
I wouldn't blame you,
I'm not fond of myself either.

All I want to do is cut.
I want that taste of metal down the tip of my tongue.
Run jagged lines down my body
Make me feel the pain of a sting so ice cold, I scream in a gasp of air.
Send chills through my body that make each move and every step difficult to bear
I want to see blackness as my fist collide against my temple
I want that hard smell of blood in my nose as I hit my eye just right.
I want to deck myself to wear everyone will see the ****** I am
Beat myself senseless
****** and black and blue.
Weezy as I fail to move.
Nothing satisfies my thirst for blood
I want myself dead, yet....
I manage one more day without a touch of a blade.

I'm getting to the point where it's getting harder to sleep
I'm deplete
Your using me
I'm trying to see
What me and you have got to beat
But yet....
The worse is coming, it hasn't passed
Wondering how long I can last
With me going as fast
As I possibly can.
The words you scream
Seem to me
As if we
Can't possibly
Be working this out

I'm sorry but I got to leave
This future is completely empty
Full of nothing
How can we beat the thought
That we might have gotten lost
When there's no more to give
Feels like we can't even live
With each other, let alone ourselves

Today's the day I mark my death
It'll be gruesome and a sight of mess.
I'll be torn up from head to ****** toe
There'll be a mask with a silver rose
She'll leave me lifeless laying on grass
With nothing but a book under my eyes
You'll find my lungs full of water
As if I had no air and I fought up
While she forced my face farther beneath the cold ice of death.
On the verge of dying, she'll help me relive.
Just long for a lung full of knife she could give.
Its nothing that causes death instantly but rather I suffer.

You ruined her career
Run that blade against your skin like your playing a cord that just rewinds this all.
You destroyed her future
Keep playing that guitar like its gonna change this time.
You took away her chances
Why don't you play us a sad song and show us your unstable
You don't care about her
Why don't you stop playing that guitar on your leg and aim for your neck
I bet the best songs come when your bleeding out pain.