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1.8k · Apr 2014
The Shore
Mikayla Shaw Apr 2014
Here I am once more
Standing on this vacant shore
A tear rolls unhindered down my cheek
Hard to care when the scene is so bleak
A set of footprints leads away from me
Adjacent to the rolling sea
Struggling to catch my breath
A heavy weight lies on my chest
High above me looms overcast skies
Nothing save emptiness lies behind my hazel eyes
The smell of rain and salt is in the air
An unexpected, desirable affair
Feet sinking slowly in the sand
Overwhelming confusion makes it hard to stand
All alone; no one else in sight
So tired of this endless fight
The pull of the tide dragging me in
Dragging me under

~     ~     ~

I find myself here one more time
A redundant, lonely crime
The vision of a rainbow dances in my mind
Past days when the sun had shined
I know those times with return someday
A person will come to hold these evil thoughts at bay
To stand with me, feet sinking in the sand
Until, together, we get the strength to withstand
Someone to wipe away the tears for me
To bring me hope in my prison by the sea
Someday the footprints will be erased
By the waves, who move without haste
To be replaced by a different set
Leading towards me, not away, yet
I must wait for that person to save
Me from the hole I’ve dug for myself, this grave
A gentle hand lifting me out
Lifting me up
888 · Apr 2014
Masquerade
Mikayla Shaw Apr 2014
I can sense your harsh glare
As I descend the stairs
The room is full to the brim
But your seemingly placid face is all too grim
An eerie silence chills me to the bone
Though I am anything but alone
My eyes follow you slink through the crowd
The choir voices echo loud
Now here you are, offering me a gloved hand
Which I accept upon your demand
I know not who you are
Only that you travelled from afar
With all the guests in black and white,
Basking in the glow of the chandelier light
My crimson dress is much too brazen
For this joyous occasion
You pull me ever so slightly, begging me to chase
Under the mask, I do now recall your face
My mother flirted with you many a year
Unlike many, not succumbing to fear
You lead me down a windy stair case
Making each move with elegance and grace
Deeper and deeper into darkness we descend
How strange this is how I should meet my end
It is not as I had dreamed
Without any wicked schemes
Gentle, kind, and wise
Compassion lies in those soulful eyes
You wipe away my single tear
Though I do not cry from fear,
Instead from the strange misleadings
Of those poor gents up above pleading
‘Do not take me, this I pray’
But on this warm midsummer’s day
I learned the truth about you
Nothing they say is true
You are not cruel, are not devious
Not a thing about you is mischievous
I know who you are, yet I am unafraid
Though I am much too young for this, never would I evade
Your sweet embrace
Death’s sweet embrace
800 · Apr 2014
Harmonious Disaster
Mikayla Shaw Apr 2014
I
Bathed in Heaven’s radiant light
I brighten up even the darkest night
Love, peace, and salvation
Are the messages of my oration
All the beauty in the universe
Is found in each holy verse
Of which I speak
I answer every hopeless shriek
In a veil of sacrosanct mystique
II
Dark hair, dark eyes
A mouth always full of lies
Envy, greed, and death
Are what I speak with every breath
All the evils of the world
In my eyes they are swirled
A mysterious ******* is what I am
For these evils I do not feel a single qualm
With my tricks, many people do I condemn
III**
An angel’s wings
Tainted by the evilest of sins
The smell of death is in the air
Dark red blood dishonors her blonde white hair
The devil’s fire
Built with an ungodly pyre
Quenched with the holiest of intentions
A hallowed intervention
A little of good and evil lies
In each of them, every day a little reprise
A sweet twisted melody
Which heavenly
Paints a harmonious disaster
To remain a memory forever after
643 · Apr 2014
Who I Am
Mikayla Shaw Apr 2014
I am a wailing infant swaddled in my crib,
warm with love.
I am a playful toddler lying on the pavement with scraped knees,
blind with tears.
I am a running child on the playground at noon,
breathless and free.
I am a defiant teen hunched over on the curb,
hopeless and broken.
I am a wonderstruck bride bathed with white,
full of life.
I am a lonesome wife curled up in an empty bed,
yearning for him.
I am a delighted mother watching my baby drive away,
proud beyond belief.
I am a sorrowful widow standing beside his grave,
abandoned and afraid.
I am a decaying woman holding her first great-grandbaby,
nostalgic but peaceful.
I am a dying elder slipping into the darkness beyond,
eager to rest.
I am
crushed
love-struck
turbulent
shattered
passionate
f­earful
euphoric
anguished
zealous
­ grief-stricken
victorious

**alive
609 · Nov 2014
With You
Mikayla Shaw Nov 2014
All the flowers were just about to bloom
When I was, for the first time, in a crowded room
Alone… With you

By the end of those two days
We were already in the flirting phase
Full of shy smiles and quiet jokes with you

Yeah you already had another girl
But that was just about to unfurl
All I had to do was wait to be with you

And I already had another guy
Who got me more than just a little high
But you convinced me, I’d be better with you

When she didn’t want to be there
You came running to me and let me hear
How she was just toying with you

Time and again, he went and let me down
He was just toying with me, but you were always around
Made me realize it was safer with you

Eventually things fell apart like we knew they would
And we gave voice to your unspoken question: if I could
Ever want to be with you

And that’s where it all began
We closed our eyes and just ran
With it, happy that I was finally with you

You put your arm around me, asked “is that okay?”
And I didn’t know what else to say
So I just stayed and watched movies with you

Flash back to the first week, in a room full of friends
But when your hand found mine, our conversation ends
Because, suddenly, I am alone with you

And it was conversations with our hands met
Between us, at sunset
In the parking lot with you

It was your hand in my pocket
My hand around the picture of us in my locket
Lying on the couch with you

It was dangerous
Rebellious
Sneaking around with you

It was sensational
Wonderful
Magical being with you

It was precious sand
Slipping our hands
A fragile era with you

We went from “you look wonderful tonight”
To three a.m. fights, staying up crying all night
On the phone with you

So now I’m bathed in the moonlight
Wide awake at midnight
Lying here, in the dark, without you

It’s one-hundred- and-ten, heat’s on high
I claim I’m alright, but it’s a lie
Because it’s so cold here without you

I know we weren’t made to last
Our foundation was made of glass
But it’s hard to think of me without you

The whirlwind of emotions brought us to life
Everything from passion to strife
I feel less alive without you

It was short lived, but it was all too real
To forget how you made me feel
I’ve never felt more alone than I do without you

Looking back on it now, I become distraught:
I think I was more in love with the thought
Of you than I was….
With you
515 · Apr 2014
Whirlwind
Mikayla Shaw Apr 2014
I can’t tell which way is up or down
My thoughts keep tossing all around
I’m stuck inside a whirlwind
Your words running circles in my mind
I’m up here dancing through the air
No net below me, but I don’t care
If I fall, will you be there to catch me
I guess all that’s left is to wait and see
Because I’m about to crash and burn if you aren’t there
Tell me you will be, tell me you swear
You’ll be there; my brain’s already on fire
Can you douse the flames and return the desire
I think this is the shortest poem I've ever written :)
493 · Apr 2014
Starlight
Mikayla Shaw Apr 2014
This will be
The end of me
This kind of love burns too bright, leaving me lying with blisters
But my mind’s spinning out of control, like I’m trapped in a twister
Yeah, I know it’ll never last
I fell too hard and much too fast
It’s like all of a sudden, I can’t catch my breath
And it’s a little risky, like I’m flirting with death
It’s the falling so hard, I know I will regret
Being lovestruck, the butterflies, and feeling so content
But you make this feel so sweet
And gravity’s already pulled me off my feet
And you stared just a little too long
Your voice is my favorite song
You’ve got starlight dancing in your eyes
A glint that reminds me of the heavenly skies
Embers burst into sparks and we might crumble to ashes
But we’ll shine brighter than the fire of a million matches
Blind the whole world, take it over by storm
Take this rain and turn it into a hailstorm
I’d love death to be this kind
No, I wouldn’t mind
If this would be
The end of me
437 · May 2014
Look To Me
Mikayla Shaw May 2014
What do you see when you look in the mirror?
Try moving a little nearer
Wipe away the fog, try and see a little clearer.
All you see is sunken eyes
A girl run dry from years of torment and lies
Every moment another unwanted surprise
A girl who will fight about anything
‘Cause she needs to feel something
She’s so tired of feeling nothing
She’s a walking corpse with nowhere to go
No one else has ever felt this low
There’s too much that they don’t know
You say I don’t know how you feel
Like everything around you is surreal
Because your heart’s not made of steel
There’s no one on your side, you say
You’re just trying to keep the pain at bay
But end up pushing everyone away
I know the story better than you think I do
Because I’ve looked into that mirror, too
And I survived what you’ve been through
I’ve been down that same lane
I’ve felt your pain
You aren’t insane
You stand tall through all you can take
But when you’ve had enough, you break
No choice but to give in to the earthquake
It’s still a dark story when it’s covered in lace
And the tears still stream down your face
And you still don’t know what dreams to chase
I know there’s so much you don’t say
You’re just trying to make it through the day
But I promise I’ll never walk away
Stop running and stand your ground
You’re done being pushed around
Use the courage you have found
The pain has made you strong
The best revenge is to live happy and long
They’ll never silence your song
Moving on the key
Your soul’s still beautiful; you can look to me
Look at your scars and strength is all I see
You can lean on me, if you need
I can take the lead
But you need to plant the seed
Then I’ll make a spark
To help you light up the dark
The difference will be stark
Break the chains, set yourself free
When you forget who you are, look to me
And I’ll remind you of all you can’t see
432 · Apr 2014
The Lucky One
Mikayla Shaw Apr 2014
I
Brilliant red encased in morning dew
Effulgent in the dull bayou
All is silent in the tranquil air
So different from the hellish nightmare
Of the hussle and bussle of city life
Out here among the wildlife
A single spark of beauty
Absolutely beyond reality
The first rays of sunlight peeking over the horizon
Breathless glamour, set to enliven
Yes, it is without question
The rose is the lucky one
II
The peace is but yet a guise
As thunder clouds form in the skies
For under those verdant covers
Lies several sneaky lovers
Oh what deceiving beauty to
Fool the mind in this dreary venue
For nothing is ever as it seems
Except, of course, in dreams
It draws in love mercilessly
So people simply say blankly
Yes, it is without question
The rose is the lucky one
III**
Rain drops glimmer on the leaves
As the sun is pulled down beyond the trees
The stars come out
And not a noise can be heard throughout
Will the rose ever shine as bright
As they who twinkle throughout the night
Its marvelous beauty is diminished
As the day is finished
The darkness whispers good night, a silent farewell
Silence ringing much like a bell
Upon the night falling,
Without a single warning,
The rose falls into an endless slumber
With the rise of the sun, it will no longer
Grow stronger
Death takes yet another toll
And as I go for my evening stroll
In my mind, there is but a lone question:
Is the rose the lucky one?
415 · Apr 2014
Fireflies
Mikayla Shaw Apr 2014
Before we watch the sunrise
We dance amongst the fireflies
Inches away, miles apart
Only noise is the beating of my heart
Hushed tones blown away by the wind
Sideways glances as if we have sinned
She reaches for my hand
Writes our names in the sand
So temporary yet I am fixated
For this we are berated
What we feel is different than expected
They tell us our love is misdirected
But what we feel is true
For three simple words are hard to misconstrue
Suffocating in this intoxicating air
As she brushes away a strand of my hair
With each touch it becomes harder and harder to breathe
And never do I want to leave
We are together in the same room
So close I can smell her sweet perfume
The room is filled with waves of tension
Her eyes sparkle, the color of gentian
She is my secret and I am hers yet
We sing a strange duet
With all the misguided plebeians gone
We mount a hill whereon
Without a single threat
My beloved and I watch the sunset
300 · Apr 2014
Shattered
Mikayla Shaw Apr 2014
As I perch by my window at night
Bathing in the moon’s soft silver light
I think of you
And wonder if you think of me too
Do I ever cross your mind
The one who left you behind
I wonder if you’re doing fine
I left you broken, desperate, and scared
Every minute, every second I wonder how you’ve faired
Sailing alone on a tumultuous sea
But think also of what you did to me
Hours to days, days to years
How often did I hold back my tears
You deserted me first, shattered, alone, and defeated
Without you there, my strength became depleted
Still unsure if you even cared
I, too, was beyond scared
I had no choice
I had to raise my voice
I held on tight
And gave one hell of a fight
But I offered you, too, salvation
If you only accepted my invitation
So forget the pain you feel this night
To stop and wonder who’s wrong and who’s right
269 · Apr 2014
A Conversation
Mikayla Shaw Apr 2014
She lacks the light in her eyes, the hint of a smile that I’ve come to know
There is only so much joy a body can hold
I miss her
You don’t know what it’s like up here
She seems peaceful now, at rest
More than that, love, I am overjoyed
Life was unfair to her
So it was, but that pain has died with me
She always tried to life live to its fullest
I’m more alive now than I’ve ever been
I can almost sense her here beside me
Yes, I am here; I will always be here
Almost hear her laugh, see her beautiful curls bounce as she runs
I remember that hot August day
Her temper grew until it boiled over as I chased her with the hose
I wanted it to last forevermore
She’s not the same anymore
You’re right, I am so much more
She’s not animated
There’s so much you cannot see
Upon her departure, I am lost
*Upon death’s arrival, I am found

— The End —