How far can I go?
chasing everything
I ever wanted
the things I thought
would made this restless
heart at peace
and as I run towards
my dreams and aspirations
I lost part of my soul
in return
Is it worth it?

How far can I go?

It felt like I'm in an
endless circle that I dont know
how to break
the cycle
It felt like the last time
I was holding you so tight
now you're
nowhere to be
found

It felt like yesterday
I still remember how you cried
begging me
saying I should stay

I dont mean to hurt you
I'm so sorry I'm lost
Hope if we see each other
Hope you forgive me
Please forgive me

It felt like I'm not
myself those days
I'm afraid
so I let you go
I can't explain it to
to you why
because
I am scared
and confused


I hope one day I can face you
and say how much I still love you
I know you are happy now
I know I don't deserve you

I stared at my mom
while saying those
hurtful words at me
I know deep inside
she meant nothing
of it; just an outburst
of frustration because
I failed her again.

And how I wish I have
the courage to say:

"Ma, I need you to care for me a little harder especially on this day I feel like breaking apart."

He came back the time
when I was almost over him
He walks back into my life
as if nothing happened
And **** I welcomed him
with my hands wide open