It's not just how we were together
It was the way it started
I didn't have to convince you
It was something you already knew

You left the door open
With white candles burning inside
It was as if you were expecting someone
The romance was that I was the one

I didn't have so far to climb
It was what you wanted all along
You were so unafraid
The look in my eyes was easy to tame

Now the candle has burned out
A closed door, I'm everybody's stranger
Who would be so fearless again
Now I wait for something I cannot explain

You were so unafraid
Unafraid to say what you mean
If only I knew how to to make someone
Unafraid to light a candle again

I want to give you something
that you cannot give back
A walk in the park wondering
if you love me enough to try
You will remember and that is why
Something to compare is what I am

You can’t give back you and I
A moment that only we know
Things we said and felt
You cannot take off and return
Chains and rings are golden
But a man cannot forge love that way

Where you saw me standing alone
Do you remember where it was
Yes you do because you were there too
It was not a church or a celebration
It was on a street where people wonder
if you see them or your reflection in a window

The door to this prayer is out of reach
I spoke to you many times as I thought about it
To every possible thing you could say I listened
But what I thought of wouldn’t be you
I tried to build a sand castle made of fantasy
Instead you were a wave answering to the moon

To be proud of survival drowning in regret
It’s the way a loner thinks of the night
Watching others who seem to be happy
But the stars are so different to me
Neither is my heart when it thinks of you
Something for you to always keep of mine

I want to be able
to know a cool summer breeze
without feeling it
I want to be able
to be satiated by a mountain spring
without drinking it
I want to be able
to reflect a sunset for lovers
without seeing it
I want to be able
to be swept away by the ocean
without swimming in it
I want to be able
to live where dark becomes light
without having to fly in it
I want to be able
to care about pain and suffering
without waiting to live it
I want to be able
to accept truth no matter what
without denying it
I want to be able
to love someone faithfully
without resenting it
I want to be able
to be a free man in my lifetime
without killing for it
I want to be able
to worship the God of my soul
without be told to do it

I've awakened alone
on Christmas morning
I've had troubles
that may never end
I've felt despair
that made me question life
I've been rejected
by someone I thought I loved
But I am still alive
as are my scars
The spirit within me
remains pure and knowing
I love my children
and the strength of my being
For despair is temporal
and hope forever mine

What are we asking of ourselves now
Only equality if death must decide for us
We don't know what discomfort will produce
Street fighting or words without seeing eyes
Demands for peace only start another war
At the moment we become politicized
Our minds close and truth is abandoned
What we believe is what comforts us most
Even if hatred is our elixir and love our lie
But as our children discover the morning light
They will know that even darkness must sleep
And the changing of the guard will become love

If I could hold your hand once
It would always be on your mind
The soft touch before love is born
But I won’t try to drag you along

Our minds silently racing about
Trying not to hold on too hard
Our smiles say take me now
We both know now we belong

Take my hand
Become my lover too soon
As we walk through a crowd
It will never end
It’s time to believe again

The light that became a shadow
Was the hint we needed for more
When we begin to close our eyes
We both know what we will find

Are you uncomfortable now?
It's the only way a moment becomes a life
Somebody has to try

I never thought I could forget myself
Remembering how to let you win
Wondering if you are feeling it too
But a fool must give his life to you

Take my hand
Kiss me before you meant to
In the middle of a crowd
It will never end
It’s time to believe again

She was alive as the sun rose
Now, baptized by our tears
Innocent forevermore
You know her
In the laughter of a playground
And the anguish of her mother
While the quarrels between strangers
Dig another grave

I was so close, too close for comfort
I wanted to see if you really meant it
I watched as you quietly performed
You don’t see it that way though
Living is never an act if it’s true

It's like the things I say
I don't time myself
Inspiration is fleeting
I can only hope you were there

We want a world without taking sides
A way for us to live as our own nature would
We always judge each other by our differences
Why would anyone would want to be the same

I was so close, enough to feel your breath
I wanted to see if you would move away
There is no destination if you’ve arrived
It’s knowing that the place is really a time
I made it ******* myself by falling in love

It's like the things I say
I don't save myself
Inspiration can't wait
I can only hope you were there

We want to be in love without taking sides
A way for us to live as our own heart would
We always try to make each other the same
Why do we forget we once loved our differences

I don’t want to think about it
That’s not the way we met
It just happened one day
That’s what I’ll never forget

The more we talk about it
The harder it is to make
Tell me about you instead
That’s what you’ll never fake

Don’t tell me what love is
It’s nothing I’ve ever known
It’s not like my hopes and dreams
Two birds always together
In a place where they’ve never flown

I know what you’re thinking
I can see it in your eyes
You don’t have to say it
I’m wearing the same disguise

Don’t tell me what love is
I want to find out on my own
I hope it’s you that I discover
An island without any memory
And a heart ready for the unknown

A falling mountain stream
From the sky on down it runs
You can hear it from the graveyard
While the moon gathers what the sun left behind

Trying to sell what a farmer grows
You can't get rich living like that
Rest in peace, it made him think of them
Nobody ever starved singing songs of memory

Peace resting at his feet
He thought about their hard life
They made it all the way to heaven
Singing like a stream made of light

He could fix a flat and grow a garden
Children and chores never thinking about it
In between prayers, songs of the country
That's how they always finished the day

Peace Lord peace
Peace resting at his feet
Peace Lord peace
Peace resting where peace can sleep

If somebody asks why you said it that way
It's because that's who you are
That's the show they don't even have to pay to see
It's free and they should thank you instead
Because they heard the truth for once

If somebody thinks you're weird
You should thank them for saying that
It means they've never met anyone like you
You are a different world and they don't understand
Because they heard a language only you can speak

If somebody thinks you're too intense
It's because they're not ready for you
If it's meant to be they'll catch up someday
There is no point in waiting for them
If they want it bad enough they'll make it happen

If someone wonders how you do it
It's because you're not afraid to speak of it
The depths of your fears and rejection
You no longer worry who knows that you are human
Because crying out loud is from the truth you know

She can’t love like she did before
Something took that part of her away
All that’s left is barely alive, but
It's your heart that beats every day

You can’t get around it
That’s not how it’s gonna be
You said you could only love once
But I’m saying God will set you free

Don’t go where there’s no tomorrow
Don’t go there don’t go there
The sun will always wait for you
And I’m gonna’ be waiting too

There shouldn’t be anything
Between my heart and you
If there is I’ll on walk around it
And tell you what I know is true

I hope the roots aren’t too deep
You planted a tree without any shade
I know you’re worth saving sweet girl
The debt you owe's already been paid

Don’t go where there’s no tomorrow
Don’t go there don’t go there
The sun will always wait for you
And I’m gonna’ be waiting too

You know we want you back
Don’t go there my love
The love you left behind
Is only what sorrow's made of

It’s gonna’ take more than a man
To fill the hole inside your heart
I’ve been listening to you cry
I’m asking the Lord to let me try

Don’t go where there’s no tomorrow
Don’t go there don’t go there
The sun will always wait for you
And I’m gonna’ be waiting too

Don’t be so prophetic
Not everyone can believe it
It’s your own mystery script
No reason to decipher it
Just give them a clue
By the way you live

There can be no more light
When wrong becomes right
And the stars reject the night
Nothing ever again tastes like
The past where you long
To be in your old bed

A walk all about the place
Pulling the strings of lace
That softened your face
By her own good grace
For she saw in you, a knight
To whom she could kneel

I wonder how I can explain it
To a child, what is a politic
It’s a man whose lies within it
Make it easy to digest it
But the flowers he gives away
Can only bloom one time

There’s nothing of reality
What you believe fails to be
Enough to explain to me
Why truth is only dishonesty
Why is it so difficult
To rearrange our minds?

I could talk about the problem
How to love your boredom
With leaves falling in autumn
You only feel cold from within
I wanted to laugh with you
Your tears choked me instead

I only want to believe in you
I don’t know if a memory can too
Is a reincarnation a life or two?
What I choose to take will be true
It’s only going to be the times
That I finally saw you smile

I'm not going to rhyme just to say I love you
I'm going to say it without any ornaments
The lights burn out, the tree gets put out
But there I go, saying it another way
Than the way I want it to be

I dream of you but I have to wake up now
The only way you will know is my voice
Yeah I said it and it was so hard to do
Now I have to wait while you hesitate
And wonder how this **** poem ends

Only you can be a fantasy to me
You have no idea what you’ve done
I’m afraid to show you the colors
But inside my heart you paint

I am the only eye upon you
No, it’s true I know where to look
But it’s only when they are closed
And your breath is upon my life

It seems we live a life of regret
It’s what might have been
You're with someone else
Now I'm thinking about sin
But how can I ever forget?

Maybe I just want to make it up
Maybe I just want to live what I see
Yes I really want you to know
That my memory of you is real

It seems we live a life of regret
It’s what might have been
You're with someone else
Now I'm thinking about sin
But how can I ever forget?

You gave yourself away
But only to yourself
You've built a life
And every possibility exists

If you gave it to me
How can I be all of that
Why would the world exist
If I am the only one?

You cannot know me
Cleverness is like perfume
The aroma is not life
It is only to trick your mind

I know every emotion
The same as you
I throw them in the air
But I always drop them

Being alone is a fortress
My voice intrudes
It is naked with purpose
You must consider its strength

Is it all to much
A violin changes your feeling
I try to be soft but beautiful
A sound you cannot ignore

You wait for another soul
How long does a revelation take
If I cannot make you laugh
Is my kindness so worthless?

I cannot see the scarf you wear
I only know it hides your heart
Forever guarded by God's hand
Will I ever know its grace?

Don’t dry your eyes too soon
You feel more than we are able
It’s seems more than you can take
It’s like you pay the worlds debt
They said Jesus already tried once
He sent you because of all the hate

Don’t dry your eyes just for me
If it’s you then that’s what you should be
You wait by the bed while they sleep
I will wait until your heart has room for me

Don’t dry your eyes too soon
It’s never because you’re too weak
A cursed gift because you always care
You never wash your hands of it
Like sand pulling up the ocean blanket
Dripping with life you are always there

Don’t dry your eyes just for me
If it’s you then that’s what I want you to be
You always are the first one they see
I will wait until your heart has room for me

When I hear your voice
I start to climb the mountain
I can see the breath I lose
It gathers in valleys below
Green meadows of cool air

I will never hold you back
You will be as free as alone
You won’t notice me at all
But if you ever need me
I will waiting for you

I’m not everything
There is more to life
And if you find it
Then you can share it
So I may learn from you

Sometimes you worry
You think I don’t love you
Why would I let you fly away
The window was always open
I never closed it behind you

Walk to me now
Let me carry you
On the light of my life
It's far along the way
If you wish to stay

I want to tell you now
Read a page
It's open to you now
The book is outside
You don't have to hide

A shadow is too sad
You see that now
The hint, so much more
Love, don't keep it inside
Love, don't keep it inside

He was an old dog
But he had a few new tricks
He had some ways that were stuck
It wasn’t anything he couldn’t fix

He was back on the dating scene
And he’d been reading the news
He wondered if women had changed
He wondered if there were new rules

She wants to be equal
He’ll love her more than that
There’s no trick to it
Old school new school
He’s gonna’ love her more than that

He tried not to act too friendly
Lordy these ladies walk so fast
They’re in a hurry alright
They’re being chased by the past

He tipped his hat and smiled a little
It seemed he caught her eye
He felt his face get red a bit
She knew he was the right guy

He could stay home
And say the world passed him by
But love never gets old
It can still make him cry

She wants to be equal
He’ll love her more than that
There’s no trick to it
Old school new school
He’s gonna’ love her more than that

When you have nothing
and they walk away
I will kiss your breath
and fill my lungs
I will swallow your tears
to mingle with my own
when you whisper in my ear
like a shell I just found
I will love you more than them
even if you lost your crown

Memories, some aren’t meant to last
Stories, it’s tomorrow, not the past
When you see me, it’s not a mystery
I’m like you, we share the same history

I’m grown now
It doesn’t matter how
You picked him instead
But that stuff is already dead

I not worried about it
I’m not sorry about it
Not anymore

Doubt, I’m not there anymore
Without, I’m feeling stronger
When you see me there’s a story
But it’s not the one behind me

I’m grown now
I don’t have a vow
You decided to move on
You found out who was strong

I don’t cry about it
I don’t ask God about it
Not anymore

Have I aged my life with care and truth?
Were the grapes purposed?
I have reached my appointed height
But did I really grow?
Do I have the respect of your children
Or are they embarrassed?
Is the frustration of life in their mind
But hope in their soul?
Do I possess the fondness of a friend
And the times we cherished
Can I endure the sadness of lost love
Trying to fill a deep hole?
The life of a common man with honor
Is it worth how we perish
Yes as we till the soil of our chosen path
In faith for what we don’t know

I want to love without need
If pain and fear bring me closer to God
Why can only comfort bring me close to you?
Was I born only to find my sinful nature?
I was not born into a religion
Only a culture
The barrier between myself and myself
I don’t know if I can be cleansed
The prism of my perception won’t let me go
Is there enough time now that I know?
I know I am real
I know because you remember how I hurt you
No matter how much time has passed
I know I am real
Because I can only think of unworthiness
Why would an illusion be so weak?
I wonder if love is only in nature
Not like a doe and a fawn
But in a cloud or a tree
There is so much power that I lack
What human could love like that
Without memory of mistake
Or of grievance
I don’t know that I can do that
I know I am real
I can only love what I need
I don’t want to be like that

There was nothing I had in mind
About what to do when I saw you
The sidewalk would only say
There’s a reason she’s walking on her own

Nothing I can say will work
So you didn’t say anything at all
It’s the luck of the next card
I can’t see first what someone gives to me

No ring on your finger
No look in your eye
When will it be
That you will notice me

Shadows following you
Bright light reflecting
You pass through so easily
Whoever hurt you
Made sure you wouldn’t look at me

I thought about it for ten years
Or it seemed so long today
All that matters is turning around
If I only knew how you want love to start

No ring on your finger
No look in your eye
When will it be
That you will notice me

Take off your armor
Life is not to ward off the arrows
But instead your heart must feel the pain
You are no longer at war with yourself
Deciding if you are crying or dying
And if you can hear the air part
Then what I sent has already hit the mark
There is no preaching that can save you
Love is the chance to resurrect your life
Or remind you that you are still living

We were the couple in the corner
Not part of the ambience
The noise and interruptions
Loud laughter
Everyone sure of themselves
Yet we were most important
They were escaping
We were living
No longer ordinary
Deep in conversation
We had something
A chance and we both sensed it
It was as if time stopped
Yet we desired its haste
Discovery is fascinating
Yet like everyone else
We wanted to read the last page
It could have been about next Thursday
Would we be thinking of each other
Yes there was no doubt
Hope in love lingers
Even without a happy ending
For hope in love is hope itself
We were discovering ourselves too
Regrets, wishing we were more interesting
Trying to slow down excited words
How embarrassing to be so enchanted
It seemed so anyway
Nobody noticed them
Except the man who wanted one of their chairs
Yes yes please take it
What do we care, can't you see?
It's already bad enough
Such loud intimacy
I wanted to whisper
It's hard to be gentle when you can't hear
Then I sensed the sudden change
Like a cool breeze
But the chill was welcome to you
It covered your face
The dread of loneliness
Born of desire
As if I hadn't felt it too
But I had
Suddenly every word mattered
I felt the urgency of a mountain climber
My sense of humor strained
My senses attached to every detail
Ordering another drink
Speaking to the waitress
Treating her kindly
Wanting to be sure and just to her
She smiled as she knew as well
She'd felt the same breeze last Thursday
For it was me who'd imagined it all
And she remembered
I'd made her feel human
And emptied the room for that moment
We would never forget
We'd read the last page
It was now time for the book
It would be worth the read

I saw somebody just like you in the park
She was smiling at someone
It finally hit me, walking away
You might could love someone else too

Can I see how we painted the magic
the way you could forget your manners
when you were alone with a man

I have to accept change
Like nature accepts the way it lives and dies
I have to watch out now
It’s laying all about

Can I see how we used to walk
like goose bumps through a forest
of hair standing on our arms

It’s like sleeping in the broom closet
No window and the darkness, so dark
As if the sun was never born
And taking pictures the only flash in its place

Can I see how I won your love
inside the eyes that wouldn’t let me go
until you realized it was true

The ocean deep is a quieter place to die
Or next to the stars in the sky
White sands and telescopes say leave us be
Our troubles now so far away
We want more time to love
But now it’s gone

Maybe along side a highway I drove everyday
Cars driving by not knowing what to say
Listening to songs that remind
Of a girl like you
I’ll take your memory with me
It’s how I will stay strong

People are going to keep talking, life goes on
Still I’m surrounded by inspiration
Every ghost, a story to tell
We will share waiting our turn
And when he looks my way
I will admit I did you wrong

Somebody said we weren’t right for each other
Why waste time on one another
But I thought if it didn’t matter
I should wait anyway
And while my love only grew
Still I didn’t know how to belong

But I never did die, the way I walk tells me so
Waves, cars and stars, what do they know?
They will never change like I can
It’s not a funeral but a wedding
The sounds you hear now
Are someone else’s song

Walk on alone
All alone
My sad eyed friend
Where you can find yourself again

Clouds that always seemed to follow
Don’t know upon which door to knock
You finally moved on, to where sunny skies called
Shadows on the beach forgot how to spoil your day

Walk on alone
All alone
My sad eyed friend
You need to forget where you’ve been

Four days alone and that was enough
A lifetime of troubles buried under the dunes
High tide rescue, pushing them all away
Leaving behind a glistening footprint canvas

Walk on alone
All alone
My sad eyed friend
I’ll join you when you say when

It’s only ten minutes each day
Not exactly, who keeps count
But it’s always too fast for me
The changing colors of the sky
It’s always dark beneath my feet
That’s the part that lasts too long
Still there’s tomorrow’s sleepy eyes

Even broken glass reflects
Our nature exists, scarred as it is
Still the grand gesture must be made
And if you think it’s all too much
Then tell me why you sleep at night
What turns you on anymore
If not your dreams talking to you

The distance between us, it seems
Is as far as the sun is from me
I can accept my place, it’s beautiful
How can I say anything different?
I don’t know where to begin
If I’m not in my knowing, so small
How would I know your worth to me?

I wonder if I am the one to make you cry
Is that the moment that I made you feel
Is it the memory that you want to forget
I wanted you to laugh out loud
And whisper my name like a shell
When you stop pretending with me
We can live the stories I can only make up

It seems I have to win her over at least twice a week
She said it was because she was only a part of my life
She said her life was about counting disappointments
For some reason she wants it all when it comes to me

These days there’s too much for us to think about
It would be so much easier, staring at an open range
Just being happy together, a slow wind dream
Why are we so far apart when our hearts are not

She thinks that sometimes I’m just on the make
A sometimes lover who knows how to talk forever
But I never said that, I only think inside my dreams
It’s no secret but she said drinking only makes waves

I have a plant I think about before I open the door
It’s the only one I own, red and green in the winter
I divert rivers and move the sun for it to live on
I would for you but you won’t wait by the window

She can sing a song, drive a truck, paint still life
Spin on a dance floor, but she drifts in her mind
She’s all these things, but really it’s only me
My dreams know the only truth is inside you

Getting away with it
It's only for those without a conscience
When things happen to people
Sometimes they don't know why
Even when they do
But isn't that it
Something happened
Somebody was involved
I try to keep my ears open
There's so much suffering
We can only see one way to live
The choices we make are so permanent
It's not right
Life is not a song
That's only how it felt in four minutes
Living it is like a painting
You couldn't sleep and still you're sad
You thought about it for weeks
You didn't even know it
Now we see what you tried to say
But who really knows you?

I thought I’d been to hell and back
But I went one more time just to be sure
There’s more than one face on the devil
And more than one fire without any cure

I might have seen you there once or twice
We can’t get along but we like the same place
If we’re gonna’ be miserable why not together?
It’s too hard to fight then sit down to say grace

I saw both of you down there
Maybe you lost your way
Maybe I made you that way
I never belonged
Not even for a day
But I loved you once

The fire was so loud
We couldn’t hear each other
Trippin’ on our mistakes
Never knowing the weather

I know how hard love can be when it’s wrong
We made a conversation that couldn’t stay calm
It was almost as if we met window shopping
Mannequin clothes aren't in style very long

I saw myself down there
I know I lost my way
Love doesn’t act that way
I tried to belong
For more than a day
But I only loved you once

He said he would no longer toy with her
But there could be no promise
Take the chance or not
She loved him enough to say yes to life together
But he only wanted her pride in him
There was never a woman who thought him perfect
An imperfect house, every wall crooked
A leaky roof, the carpet stained
on and on and on
Yet what did they see when they walked by?
Why did they knock on the door?
Did they know what was on the inside?
They would tell him once, then paint the walls
It was smile, his courtesy, they could see
how he felt about them
Yet,
fearful of his own passion
He assumed too much
Their fidelity, their chasteness
Could this woman want a crude man
Throwing her on the floor, violently mating
No, how could that be?
Instead,
it became a canvas to paint delicately
But he could not decide which color
Or how many
Should he lay the canvas on the floor
And pour the paint upon it’s expectation?
Her impatience became like a bird
upon the updraft of its calling
She flew away to the island mountains
The rivers had risen
It’s feet shuffling to a liquid dance
Subsuming the rocks and valleys
But it was no matter to her
She could fly
He wondered if she would come back
She deserved everything
She could fly
She deserved his promise
And her criticism
He had to be able to take it
He was just a man
But he was a man
He had to take it
And she was there for him to love her
That was what he thought anyway
Did he ever really know a woman?
Each one a fantasy
But he could not lift them up that far
Only in his mind
He wondered
So many children
So many unhappy women
They would give life
Then they would suffer through it
He never understood
Screaming at him
But staying night after night
Was that love?
Was that a woman?
It was as if her life was a miscarriage
It was so close
It was alive
It was happiness
And then she thought
I should have been there for you
For you
My baby
My life
And he thought about this
He regretted thinking of her as an angel
It was too much for her
She just wanted loyalty
He watered her garden
He dusted her pictures
There was so much to lose
He couldn’t ignore it again
He was a skeleton
He wanted his skin back
He wanted his organs
He wanted his life back
To breathe
To eat
To feel the inside of a woman
Through her eyes
So he waited for her answer
He knew what it would be
Loyalty does not compromise
She was a woman
It was not a game

I'm starting to dig reality
The fantasy world is too much
You're too young anyway
Everything you want I try to avoid

I don't worry about being a man
It doesn't pay the rent
If you're hungry enough
What you are is how you're employed

What are you looking at anyway
Jesus said knock it off
How bored you must be
You people judge, your soul destroyed

I'm gonna' remember you
Nothing can ruin a good dream
You love me as I am
I'm not jealous, I'm not paranoid

How can you smile so brightly
While life burns so unkindly
You hear music playing sweetly
While someone treats you cruelly
Inside the fire you didn’t start

How can life burden you so unfairly
While your heart loves unconditionally
All we see is the love you send freely
Who would make such a beauty
Live inside a fire she didn’t start?

I wonder if you will ever find
The feelings you once had
Your smile is all that is left
I would never know sadness
If I was always looking at you
Only you know what’s true

How can you live so calmly
Being treated so wrongly
No flower should be so lonely
Who could live their life so coldly
Feeding the fire you didn’t start?

Let me take you home
I only want to cool your mind
To believe in tomorrow
You have enough time
The way you look at me
You are so much more than sorrow

You may say
Life is of no consequence
So many have lived
Neglected by a poets eloquence
Faceless by any name
And yet they lived and died
Passionate, loved, a friend
Upon marshy sod, their children cried
For they would remember
Love squinting to see
Memories bending time as echoes
Shimmering like the moon on the sea
He wanted her to live with him
But only from afar
A demented madman of love
Could only speak by star
And another, who would only prevail
Upon lust each and every night
But love, in its exhaustion
Was left longing in his sight
Yet still, laughter, a fiddle or a lute
These things were made by honor
To live, by mistake or luck
But to not care, there is no greater horror

My face, like a wax figure
The party, a parade of curiosity
Laughing at what they will never remember
Unless someone plays the fool
I hide behind my bravado
An invention, a fabricated symmetry
But a hint of oddity remains
A strange sort of allure, fierce
Stronger than life itself
For life itself is no longer enough
Not like it once was
Every feast devoured
Weakness or strength, digested
But my eyes are not vacant
I understand my effect on you
My face, unaware of itself
Alone, without a mirror that reminds
The longer I forget
It’s flaws of no concern
Because that couldn’t be it
You smiled long enough to see
The lines that run together
And the blood rushing to fill them
I was naked once again
I knew it would happen
Civility, the weakness of morals
You wanted me to guess correctly
Were you afraid of God or of yourself
I made it easy for you by walking away
Neither thinking poorly of me for an indiscretion
Or drenched by the deluge of sin
I could not help myself
But if you could just tell me the answer
I will know why I waited for so long

If I have to be somebody's ex
She gonna' think about regrets
Her friends are gonna' say ****
You walked away from him?

That's right it's gonna' get better
You're gonna' forget her
But she's gonna' remember
Because you didn't let her win

They might think it's over for you
And between you and her it's true
But your life is so much more
It don't matter where you've been

I know why you did it
I know why you quit it
I'm no bargain for a lover
You had to fight for it
And you didn't want to do it
That's what love is about
But the honeymoon was not it
You said I was in charge of it

I can love you desperately
And watch you reject me
Tomorrow will still love me
Yesterday will be your sin

Don't think I didn't feel it
I can't lie, you did steal it
But you can't **** my heart
In between each beat I mend

I know how goodbye feels
There's nothing more real
It's time to wonder about life
You're not the reason it will end

I know why you did it
I know why you quit it
I'm no bargain for a lover
You had to fight for it
And you didn't want to do it
That's what love is about
But a honeymoon is not all of it
You said I was the reason for it

He loved what could not love him back
He could hold it in his mind for years
A purple dress in the moonlight
But really it was someone else’s woman
A ranch road driving with two friends
But really it was the stark desolation
The dry air was not so sweet to his mind
And yet the memory was pure confection

He was drowning in thorns he thought holy
Blood drawn from the body gives life
He saw a man with his hand open
And another with his closed
Their hearts felt strangely the same
Neither holding a dove or a rose
Mountains rising inside their dreams
Pushing clouds to places no one knows

The cold is never as cold as it seems
Except when you believe something
That’s not as true as it once was
An angel flying apart from the sun
Turning back for one last look
Lonely for the need of someone
She couldn’t get him to notice
Not even a glance, not even one

He no longer felt the need for a tailor
And was comfortable in dull black shoes
Passing through his mind like insects
Mere curiosities for pretension
He prepared his table for importance
In the minds of his growing children
Yet even in cold air he held open the window
His love for her could no longer remain hidden

He was too curious to ever be lonely
Without a plane he traveled the world
He could see the eyes of pain all around
Except the one that could see it in his own
The mistake was no longer caring about time
It was like a kiss that had always been alone
But when his lips parted the sun and moon
A shivering angel asked, “Will you take me home?”

Only the dead tell the truth
But their mouths are silenced
We accuse our brothers of sin
Are Christ’s words spoken here?

But I don’t believe that
I was born again last night
You made me see the light
I know he will forgive me

I don’t walk around as much
But I still make eye contact
I want to know who you are
I want it to be love and not fear

But it’s so hard to believe
I saw faces on the pavement
Too late for earthly sacrament
Yet from blindness they now see

I want you near my grave when I go
I thought about being scattered about
Maybe memories are better as stars
I’ll let the sun draw your shadow near

But is it late for you to believe?
I’m dedicating my soul to you
Carved stone words are true
My ashes won’t be lost at sea

I never knew you
And when I found out
You were already gone
I never lived without
Until I heard your voice
Then I knew of your heart
And how you were sad
As am I because we're apart

There is only one life
And yours is still shining
Your shadow my pleasure
Inside my lonely evening
I will always remember
Even as you no longer can
I am ashamed of my sorrow
Unworthy of what I think I am

I wish I knew you
You lost your lover
Then another left you
How did you recover
Still you lived your life
Your tears gave you away
The only way to free yourself
Is to make a new one today

Going to walk back through the darkness
Towards the light too afraid of me to shine
You know what you did to me
There’s no room for fault in your mind
You won’t admit it, not to me anyway

You said you were afraid this would happen
But that was when my kiss opened your eyes
I carried you through the sunny morning
You looked back and saw how darkness lies
Now you deny the things I heard you say

I wasn't afraid to lose
Not this time
I believed in you
Now I can't believe in someone new

I don’t need to tell you these things
You played love for a fool but not me
I know who I am and it’s not yours
I was a rental and now just a memory
But it waits at night where you lay

I wasn't afraid to lose
Now I am
I can't believe in me
Who would love someone who's not free?

I am a myth and a sinner
And I am dead
I wrote the words some preach
But I forgot to include everyone
You never met me and can only imagine
How is it that I was so wise and so cruel
It took two hundred years
And widows and slaves
And burning crosses
And bridge marches
Did it finally make shame my neighbor
And blood on a cross their only savior

I am a ghost and a prophet
And I am dead
I wrote the words some hate
But I did not mean it that way
I never met you and yet I guide you
To the place where a man lives in squalor
Is it his or another man's faults
Is his welfare your profit
Is his grieving your happiness
Is his sadness your blessing
Did it make indifference my neighbor
And an empty tomb their only savior

The water laps without memory
upon sand that once bled
He feel to his knees once there in prayer
and now again to recall what God said
Even the breeze fell silent to the witness
of the bells, echoing what we once read

A reluctant hero, the same as a tourist
this land was not his land,
But the hearts that once beat in sorrow
recognize his outstretched hand
The moon spoke without being asked
“Their grieving washed away with the sand”

When dreams become nightmares
and glory ages into regret
we watch as he stretches his uniform
over a heavy heart covered in sweat
He knew the tears of a soldier fall hard
upon folded flags unable to forget

Let me make you feel alive again
All you have to do is listen my love
Feel the power of my breath upon you
It is not the whisper of a grieving heart

I do not see torn holes in your web
Only the art of how you live
It’s like watching the moon reflect
From dark night shadowed windows

You cannot borrow my words
They can never be bought
You only have to believe in them
As in the knowledge of time passing

For while the dreams you possess
May have been born from sorrow
I will not question the father
Of a past that cannot let go

I would never untangle your heart
For the weaver may be your savior
It is within his spiraled will that I cling
For who you are is all that I love

If there is no solution
Then why do we fight
If we can't change a heart
We can't make it right
It's not so easy to say
What one man will do
He has lived his life
He has his point of view
He doesn't know you
There's no time to try
He only sees your anger
And can't understand why
Who tells us the truth
Who tells us to repent
Is it a poor man crying
Or the one collecting rent

There’s no tracks for me to cross in my neighborhood
So I don’t know which side I’m on
There’s no land for me to plant any seeds upon
I don’t know if I’m a duck or a swan
But I know I’m welcome on any backwoods pond

I could sing about things I never understood
And I could say if I believe it then it must be true
It takes too long for the past to make itself known to you
It’s easier to recite the things I already knew
Maybe something I heard sitting in a wooden pew

I’m the father because he was born next to where I stood
I didn’t say anything because the bus already ran
On the road upon which try to cross but never can
We’re turtles walking slow without a plan
Nobody knows anything so our shell became the holy land

The last time I crossed my heart my promise was good
I wanted say oh baby and let it last long in your ear
But you were interested in flags that you held dear
I agreed but then it’s not always so clear
We had no complaints but then we never did live in fear

I know that’s as close as you will come
I have to bring you home myself
Like a ship that cannot stop
You still need help
Someone to hold your hand
While you leave the car
Or walk up the stairs
Because you are a lady
And what a lady does
Is wait to unpack her bags
Until someone else does it for her