He kissed his fate on the lips and jumped.

i wish i could be beautiful without having to change my hair or my face or my clothes or my weight. i wish i could focus on the year to year, not the day to day. i wish i could look in the mirror and smile instead of picking at "problem areas" and wanting to smash it and cry and fall apart like the fragmented reflections on the ground. i wish i could be loved for me. i wish i could be happy.

I wonder,
Why had he cared
When I hadn't eaten my food?

I wonder,
Why had he cared
When others made fun of me?

I wonder,
Why had he cared
When I was unusually quiet?

I wonder,
Why had he cared
When no one else had bothered to listen?

I wonder,
Why had he cared
When I cried?

I wonder,
Why had he been the only boy
To truly understand?

But the way you look at me
Tells me there are tears behind your smile
And a graveside in your mind
Where you sit and wonder
Why he had to leave.

I know I'm not him
But if I can I want to be the
New face of that old love.

The tree that grows up
From the dust of his ashes
To fill the dark void that was
Left by his passing.

Next phase in the old story
Where death begins birth
And new life is a graveyard not yet dug.

ima bend the bars
and watch you fly away
cuz the dreams we made
they aint real anyway

so leave me behind
as my broken wings fade
find the freedom
that i know you crave

dont let me watch you fly away
dont let me keep you here to stay
dont let me bend the bars to keep you in

cuz im gonna let you go
i'm gonna let you go