When I was red,
You were blue.
Then I turned to green just for you.

What you wanted was violet,
But all I could be was indigo.

Orange was your favourite colour,
I wrote you a song in yellow.

For  your acclamation,
I mixed all those colours.

Frantically tried to undo it,
When all of them discoloured.

I sat there reflecting on what was left of me.

I finally became the colour that I wanted to be.

I am
        F
           A
              L
                 L
                    I
                       N
                          G

in love with you,
Hear it in the song I sing,
Feel it in the whisper of the gentle breeze.
28/1/2020

Just like that
Its over
You called me names like you've done before.
"You're sorry to the bone,"
is what you said to me
and now?
You're dead.
Just like that

The last day of the decade in which I grew up.
Funny. Every year felt like a decade itself.

If existence
is but the fools game
then I play
to become
existential.

She was serendipity in a bottle,
A fire in a jar without a lid.
She was the flower on the side of the road,
She was the garden in the dead of night.
She was moonlight bleaching dark clouds.
She was my favorite accident.
My serendipity.

Here I am
For the second time this week
Wishing I could get a good nights sleep