Lux Falls

Lux Falls Aug 2018

Sometimes the emptiness is the heaviest
The world feels numb
Like my connection to the world has long been disconnected
Like fingertips sanded away
Nerves sleeping
The only taste in my mouth is of the food eaten yesterday.

I live in a land of suspension
Swimming between worlds that don’t want me
Stuck as a nomad
a child of purgatory

#fatigue #lethargy #depression #depersonalisation #derealisation #mental #nomad

Lux Falls Jun 2018

Dionysus

I went insane when I saw you
My mind let the constraints of my body
and was never seen again.

As I tumbled down the mountain
I held my breath
I fell into your voice,
and as your fingers danced
I howled at the moonlight,
as you wrote your songs
I danced deliriously into the night.

#love #lust #falling #infatuation

Lux Falls Apr 2018

Blackout

The candle licks the air
No breeze, just still, hot and sticky
It's so silent that I can hear my cat purr and my ears ring
My drink is warm and my stomach, rumbling,
but I love the flickering of the last and single light,
A love only I can appreciate in this quiet house with no children to interrupt or anyone else to spoil
this little piece of peace.

Written during a blackout.

#blackout #quiet #peace

Lux Falls Feb 2018

Darkness

The darkness warms me
A thick liquid covering my skin
engulfing every pore
Drowning all of my sins.

I couldn’t tell you what wings feel like
Or what a smile does to my face
I did it once and it felt foreign
But the wind swept it away
To float off as particles into the sky.

I laughed, it might have been yesterday
or a season ago
It didn’t penetrate into my soul
Nor did it let me inhale any pure light
Humans find it addictive
That bright drug.

#dark #darkness #detachment #depression #sadness #dysphoria #malaise #numb #hollow

Lux Falls Jan 2018

Not A Sonnet #6

He looked at me and asked, “Are you alone?”
I turned to him. “Only when I’m in a crowd”
“Are you lonely?”
“Only when I’m alone.”

Loosely based on a real conversation

#sad #lonely #loneliness #society

Lux Falls Oct 2017

Something New

I opened his mind, try something new.
Then, I opened his skull to taste something new.

#horror #twist #dark #short

Lux Falls Sep 2017

Light Eyes

Light eyes
Dangerous eyes
In small moments I realise
The passion they cry

Oh, torturous gaze
Entrap me in your flames
Bright crystal eyes
You **** me slow
Undo me so.

#love #fascination #enchantment