I've got to be a *******
I drag my bloodied body back home after each visit
Stitch together my mutilated tongue with each kiss
I've never cried but god help me I'm close to trying
Cold blooded fighting, I'm sorry
Void-less sleep, I see only light and misdirection
1,000 and 1 side roads and no map
I got more keys then I'll ever need but they all only open one door
I crawl back to you, on my knees, begging for a slap, a punch
A brutish reality to stop the unease
But your words are too sweet, they hurt my gums
The only metal you own is a shield, sacrifice your lungs to block me
******* you must be a *******
Cause you let me break my bones on your skin
Ruin you with each word
I'm sorry

May god bless the man with no tongue
He screams through filtered teeth
Tells no lies, only stories
With each wasted breath
Jaw hung low, regret and despair
He made but one error in his words, they hurt the masses
Silent cries, mournful whimpers
Let god bless his blasphemous tongue and its great departure
Tickets away, flowing land
Huffing steel- trained thought, shouting

A reflection is just that, colors and light colliding
A personal connection between you and the walls
Binding your soul to the very ground you stand
Bending light ever softly
Little shadows are your armed guards
They'll protect your mind in the dead of night
Revelations over the shadows, a tea party of silence
No sleep, no thought provoking answers
A meaningless existence that exists to have meaning
Thoughtless turns, sighs, unwavering eyes
Paranoia- the curtain surrounds you in dusk
Awaiting your awakening
The only thing that blesses your eyes is exhaustion
Slamming shut the doors that smokey glances feared
Finally, as dawn approaches, it is time to sleep

Crush your bones into a fine powder
Twit your mind in little strings, tie and tangle them
Gouge out your eyes, lie about sight
Shred your limbs, tie them like bows
Rip off your nails, glue on plastic
Keep lying
Keep it up
Stop breathing
Your lungs are just birthday balloons
Only needed for special occations

You ask me why I don't want to go to college, to have kids
Like I haven't thought of the possibilities
Of having years of experience combined and passed on
But you locked the door and swallowed the key
I could buy a house for a doctorate
Feed my family for a masters
Pay for my medical fees with a bachelors
Drive to work for an associates
All just numbers, no rhyme or reason
Jokes about jumping in front of a train to avoid student loans
The thought is a holy grail idea to some
I won't throw my kid or any other human into this world by will
Where the police that guide the free make us afraid to move
I will not have kids, I will not go to college
Because if I do I'll lose more of myself
I have so little left
And I'm still selling any dreams I have left for pennies