i just want to feel love again
i never thought id ever go back to being a hopeless romantic again
but here i am in a baggy sweatshirt curled up in blankets
with my tea in my hands and tears in my eyes
watching the fault in our stars for the 27th time
scrolling through perfect instagram feeds where you find nothing but perfect couples away on tropical adventures together and it makes you believe that is real life
endless hallmark movies giving you the intense hope that you will meet the man of your dreams in a coffee shop during Christmas time
why these are all illusions that play with our emotions
making us crave such unrealistic ideals
and yet we still psych ourselves up to believe in a dream world

One decision
can lead to many others

One decision
can change a life

One decision
and we knew about the cancer

One decision
and we lived somwhere new

One decision
And I got to meet you

It's that time of year
yet another season of joy
so dont shed a tear
it's a time to enjoy

but the day it comes it's gone
so much hype
just to move on
it's not my type

we don't need thousands of dollars
worth of "Christmas Stuff"
When we could be giving a holler
all year round of his love

True pretentiousness,
is to write something inanely personal
and call it nothing.

if he does not make
the effort
to love you entirely
then he does not
deserve you
at all.