i said he seemed kind of sad
then he said i seemed like kind of a *****
and i think we were both right

you left me on a day in june

but i clung to the pieces because i felt like i needed you

i’d missed you for months even when you were right beside me

so i crawled back with skinned knees

looking for the smallest flicker of what we used to be

i screamed until you’d stolen the air from my lungs

and your ghostly smoke soon coated my tongue


i said “**** me since we’ve got nothing left”

it was a supernova and then a little death

your eyes flicker so sweetly
like they're about to let us all in on a secret
but if the truth is that we'll all be broken in the end
maybe just keep it to yourself

maybe just play another song

the spaces are growing
i'm stumbling
there's too much momentum
i can't catch myself

i'm falling into the spaces between my happiness
i look behind me and i can't see the last time i was okay
i look forward and it's blank

i'm falling into the spaces between lost innocence and last chances
between father and mother
between flesh and bone and hate

i'm falling into the spaces between us
because you're someone i don't know yet but i long for your presence
i need you to pull me out of this nothingness

"no one can save you but yourself," they say
try telling that to the spaces

we’ve been cursed with the ability to love

as love cannot exist without the possibility of pain



abandonment doesn’t steal air from our lungs

unless whoever has gone was the reason we breathed to begin with



how terrible it is that our hearts beat for others

that our eyes shine and dim for them

what a sorry truth

his heated hands grasped at my frozen skin
tearing the cold heart from the cage of my chest

he melted me
until i was nothing but a puddle for him to step over

you were the cheap ring on my finger
turning my skin green underneath
how deceptive
how terribly false