I've written myself in those poems;poems that were dedicated for you. Now I realise you just stole my passion for the world and the beauty I used to contemplate in art and everything that surrounded me. You know what? ******* I can and I will live without you, yes it's cold but you get used to it .
I thought that when waking up I was going to forget it all. Forget the pain and my tears,like I did every time you decided to hurt me unconsciously. This time I know you are conscious. Conscious of the way it tears my heart and how numb my body feels. I guess I should have known this from the beginning, but I decided to fool myself or at least pretended that you felt the same way I do...did you at least love me for a second? Those words were honey that got bitter by the time you lost your sparkle in your words and your eyes turned evil. I guess I'm a fool Because I still love you
i lost myself in you. i forgot my favorite song, my favorite movie, my favorite place to go , my favorite food, and i realized everything i loved was not really mine but yours and that is not the way things should be.
“I read a poem the other day about how our liver replaces itself after 5 months, our lungs after 3 weeks and our skin after 27 days I laughed about how absurd such facts were because it has been 7 months and I can still feel your presence in my body your kisses on my hips and your breath on my neck and trust me I tried to **** as many cells as I could after you left to try to get you the **** out of my veins I poisoned my liver nearly every day with cheap alcohol and smoked so many cigarettes I heard my lungs begging me to stop the other night and I let too many boys undress me and touch my skin with their ***** ***** hands simply because I hoped their presence would force your ghost to get out of my bed out of my life and out of my mind but still I can hear the echoes of your footsteps as you are running in my brain and it is driving me insane because when I was 7 years old my father took me fishing and made me promise I’d never let anyone get under my skin yet here I am 13 years later destroying myself to try to forget how you destroyed me after telling me for a year how much you loved me and I can’t help but imagine how horrified my father would be to see his baby girl killing herself slowly but what he could not understand is that if I drink too much or smoke too much it is only to stop your ghost from growing and growing like the cancer that took him away
"It's funny how a coincidence it was that the day I realise my heart was broken, phone got broken too.
Ironically it was a rainy day. I decided I was going to walk under it as a metaphor to confront my problems. It was matter of seconds that I decided to shelter myself. I guessed it means I can't really get over my problems in the same way I cant walk under the rain because it hurts. And I guess it hurts because I'm human and I did love you and I guess I still do. " -k.g. 00:19 am
I love you with every single word of it With every sigh it contains With every tear that runs down my cheek. Because now I realise I was just part of your game, I don't blame you You never mentioned the L word and I did. I guessed I was so foolished with the thought of you in my heart. But now that you used me ,the joy in your charisma is gone. We used to talk everyday, everytime. It's been the first 5 days without you And I can't take it anymore Good bye my almost lover
Its funny I just change the way people call me As a fresh start A fresh beginning But it's true it won't change my past I don't care anymore Or at least that's what I'm trying