sometimes
i just want to be sick
because when you're sick
you feel like everyone
cares for you

do you still,
imagine
that you're holding my hand
instead of hers?

do you still,
care for me
when you hear
that i'm sick?

do you still,
ask your friends
if i'm doing fine
or if i'm feeling low?

do you still,
think about the what if's
like, what if we're together
what if we're not over?

because baby, i still do.

i miss
how you would tell a joke
and look at me as if
i'm the one who gets to decide
if its funny or not

i miss
how you would secretly
hold my hand in public
and act like nothing's going on

i miss
how you would do silly things
just because i'm not in a good mood
and you want to see me smile

i miss
how you would sing to me
and look at me straight in the eye
and make me feel like i'm the only person
inside the room

i miss
the times when,
we'll both stay up all night
and just talk to each other

i miss
everything we do together
and most importantly,
i miss you.

sorry
for not returning the love
the love that you gave me.

sorry
i was too blind
too blind to see you

sorry
you got hurt
because of me

but now,
now i can give you
give you the love you gave me before

now,
i'm ready to mend
all the broken pieces i caused

but,
you really cant bring back
the past, right?

because,
i think..
i'm already too late.

you don't know,
how bad
i want to approach you
but i can't

your smile?
it lights up my world
and i,
thank you for that

your voice?
it's music to my ears
i want to tell you that,
but i can't

i want to come up to you
and tell you how perfect you are
but of course,
i can not.

because to you,
i'm just a nobody
and  that
will never change.

"move on," they said
"it's easy," they pushed
"just forget him," they added

but don't they know
that it's hard
to actually move on?

it hurts,
to think that
the next day you wake up

there would be no,
good morning texts
no more,
reason to wake up
with a smile on your face

but, no matter
how hard it is
you have to move on

because, he maybe
the sun, the light
and probably
your world right now

but i promise you,
you'll get through it.
trust me, i know.