let's be real
i act like
i don't care

but i do..

...besides, it's only an act.

it's been weeks
for these cheeks
marked with tears
as she faces her fears

it's torture
and it has no cure
others say she can't blend
the reason why she wants an end

oh dear what's that?
my stomach
feels like
it's having butterflies
just by talking to you
and being close to you

but why oh why?
do i feel chest pains?
my heart aches
whenever i see you
hanging out with her

oh boy,
you give me butterflies
but you also give me
chestpains

do you still,
imagine
that you're holding my hand
instead of hers?

do you still,
care for me
when you hear
that i'm sick?

do you still,
ask your friends
if i'm doing fine
or if i'm feeling low?

do you still,
think about the what if's
like, what if we're together
what if we're not over?

because baby, i still do.

when i'm with you
everything felt nice
everything felt great

everything felt perfect
but why did it have to go away?

i miss
how you would tell a joke
and look at me as if
i'm the one who gets to decide
if its funny or not

i miss
how you would secretly
hold my hand in public
and act like nothing's going on

i miss
how you would do silly things
just because i'm not in a good mood
and you want to see me smile

i miss
how you would sing to me
and look at me straight in the eye
and make me feel like i'm the only person
inside the room

i miss
the times when,
we'll both stay up all night
and just talk to each other

i miss
everything we do together
and most importantly,
i miss you.

i write when im sad
i think its not bad

i write when im broken
tears on the words ive written

i write when im happy
especially when i feel sappy

i write because i love to.
not because i want to.

darling don't cry
wipe those tears
in your eye
those words they told you
are all nothing but lies

don't let them see
your fragile state
go out
and explore this beautiful world

there's a lot of things to do
aside from locking yourself
inside that dark room
and wasting your time crying
please just smile
it's more pleasing to see

when the world
was so dark
i asked God
to give me light
and then you came

gusto kong lumapit sayo
ngunit, sa tuwing gagawin
ramdam ko ang 'yong paglayo
pagmamaka-awa'y dinggin

gusto kong hagkan ka muli
alam 'to ng mga bituin
bukambibig 'to sa gabi
binubulungan ang hangin

ngunit anong magagawa?
kung ayaw mo na saakin
isa lang akong mahina
gin'wa para 'kay mahalin

i love you,
but you don't
i'd give everything
but you won't

you're my sun
but to you
i'm just a light

it hurts a lot
but i still hope
that maybe you'll feel
what i'm feeling towards you

i want to give up
but i can't
and i don't even know
why

maybe because,
you can't teach a heart
to stop loving someone
who doesn't love you back

"move on," they said
"it's easy," they pushed
"just forget him," they added

but don't they know
that it's hard
to actually move on?

it hurts,
to think that
the next day you wake up

there would be no,
good morning texts
no more,
reason to wake up
with a smile on your face

but, no matter
how hard it is
you have to move on

because, he maybe
the sun, the light
and probably
your world right now

but i promise you,
you'll get through it.
trust me, i know.

you don't know,
how bad
i want to approach you
but i can't

your smile?
it lights up my world
and i,
thank you for that

your voice?
it's music to my ears
i want to tell you that,
but i can't

i want to come up to you
and tell you how perfect you are
but of course,
i can not.

because to you,
i'm just a nobody
and  that
will never change.

one day,
i'll get over you
one day,
i'll be able to reminisce
without feeling sad

one day,
i can laugh along with my friends
when they're talking about you

and i'm really
looking forward
for that day to happen

it hurts to know
that you have someone new
to treat like a princess

that you're happy with her
like you used to be
with me

but even though it hurts
i still have to go
and live my own life

because after all,
i'm the one who let you go

people say youre a rock,
because youre strong like one
because youre tough like one

but don't they realize, that a rock breaks too?

sometimes
i just want to be sick
because when you're sick
you feel like everyone
cares for you

society
why so cruel?
can't you see,
what you're doing?
i beg you to stop
before heaven takes back
another angel we borrowed

sorry
for not returning the love
the love that you gave me.

sorry
i was too blind
too blind to see you

sorry
you got hurt
because of me

but now,
now i can give you
give you the love you gave me before

now,
i'm ready to mend
all the broken pieces i caused

but,
you really cant bring back
the past, right?

because,
i think..
i'm already too late.

did you feel that?
that thing they call
"spark"

because i did,
that one time
you touched my hand.

stay with me
i beg you
for i can't bare
to be without you

or maybe it's the thought
of not having you
is what i can't handle

you told me
everything
a girl wants to hear

treated me
like i'm an angel
sent from above

you promised
that you'll never
leave me

but then,
a storm came
and it washed everything away

sino ka nga ba, at ika'y dumating bigla?
anong rason mo, para biglang magpakita?
sa buhay kong magulo
sa buhay kong sakit sa ulo

tumagal ang mga araw, linggo at buwan
ako'y unti unting nasasanay na lagi kang andyan
hindi sinasadya, ika'y naging importante
laging hinihiling na nariyan ka parati

ngunit dumating sa tanong na "ano ba tayo"
at ako'y sinagot mo ng "magkaibigan tayo"
'di ko alam kung anong dapat kong maramdaman
ngunit ang masasabi ko lamang, ako'y iyong nasaktan

aaaminin kong ako'y umasa't naging tanga,
sa mga kilos **** naakit akong talaga
akala ko kasi'y parehas tayo ng damdamin
ngunit ikaw pala ay hindi para sakin