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Oct 2016 · 1.4k
Major Decision
Kailee Sometimes Oct 2016
criminal justice
dance
chemistry
art
music
philosophy
marketing
graphic design
management
social work

psyChology
History
biOlogy
accOunting
polit­ical Science
Education

anthropOlogy
africaNa studies
computEr science

economics
gender studies
english
film
sound design
engineering
theater
nurse
finance
communications
Choosing a major is hard, especially when there are so many options and you want to explore and experience everything.
Feb 2016 · 664
Poetry is Easy
Kailee Sometimes Feb 2016
How can you hate poetry?
Its just like music but spoken through words that pour from your tongue.
Emotion that never runs dry.
“Rhymes are cliche and dumb” sprays from your lips,
and I concede... to an extent.
Yes, rhymes can be cages, chains sculpted not from steel
but from writers block and torn thesauruses.
Scrambling to find something to rhyme with drought...
doubt...
trout....
flout?...
in order to make your poem flow like a river.
But rhymes are not stupid.
They can make a poem more clean and polished.
But poems do not need to rhyme.
This was actually the first lesson I learned in my high school creative writing class.
When my teacher told us that I was thrilled.
The chains had been broken... temporarily.
Because poetry is not a simple lullaby,
nor can lullabies be classified as simple.
Art is not simple.
But people like to mock our written art because
“it’s easy” and
“anyone can write a poem”,
which is true.
But how many people can write a poem so painstakingly beautiful that the mere words bring you to tears?
Make you weep like you are again an infant in your mother's arms? Poetry is not easy. But anyone can do it.
As long as they know how to rhyme.
Aug 2015 · 1.8k
Neverland
Kailee Sometimes Aug 2015
If I am your moon, then you are the stars in the sky.
Collect my tears as they fall like rain,
mix them with cranberry juice and feed them to the fairies.
They will soar so high, their wings fluttering
like the call of flowers in the spring.
Take my hand,
lead me to a place where the sun is forever,
where winter is short and by the time May arrives
it is but a fleeting memory-
lost somewhere between hope and heartache.
Because I hoped
your words were true and that you really did love me.
But my heart aches
for the months we spent roaming in Neverland
because now
I feel less like Wendy and more like Alice,
running in circles to escape this horrific daydream.
Why can’t things be the way they were before?
*Why can’t we just stay in Neverland?
Jan 2015 · 1.9k
Growing Up: A Rant
Kailee Sometimes Jan 2015
Growing up is hard to do that's why when I was 12 years old I said I would never do it because it is full of heartache and hatred, trouble and lies, what is the point of leading such an unfulfilled life? Now at only 17, I am being catapulted into a world full of life long choices, where one wrong move- one stupid mistake- can ruin my existence. Yet I have so much resistance because I cling to this notion that i will never grow old. Responsibility is for grownups I would shout then...and even now... but the difference is, today I am going to take 5 standardized tests in 2 weeks and visiting a big brick building that will feed my mind and prepare me for "life"... as if I am not already alive. What is "the real world"? Is it not what I have been going through since birth? Why does reality only hit when you're 18 and starving for attention? Silly me, I was under the impression that I am a human being, going through experiences and learning lessons that will fill my soul. but that’s not true after all; I will only be useful when I have a successful career and child at my hip. **** these rules of society. I am a human, a person, an adult. But not because I chose to be one, I was forced into this role that has deteriorated my mind and thrown me into raging fits of anxiety and depression. Yes, high school has been the greatest years of my life... if by "great" you mean emotionally damaging.
Aug 2014 · 940
Memories
Kailee Sometimes Aug 2014
They throw hatred at me like daggers.
Leaving me breathless and gasping for salvation.
Even though I'm wounded -a hole in my heart-
my courage shines through because

I am a warrior of misery.

With every loathing stare, every derogatory slur, my injuries grow more. But the healing scars are stronger than stars. I will not forget,
no.
I will carry these nightmares.
Together until death do us part.

Memories are stronger than moments.

When I lie in bed at night they are what I dream of,
they are the lullabies that drag me to sleep.
I am a warrior.
They can continue to throw knives of pain my way
and I will carry on.

But the memories are what **** me.
Jul 2014 · 1.5k
Some Days (Ultraviolet)
Kailee Sometimes Jul 2014
Some days I feel grey.
These are the days I struggle to get out of bed in the morning,
the days I trudge along like there is a weight on each of my ankles.
The days I feel like I don’t want to have anymore days in my life.
But then there are days where I am ultraviolet. These are the best days,
when I feel powerful. When I feel like the world is at my fingertips.
But these days are more like moments.
Minutes.
But these short bursts of ultraviolet rays are enough to keep me going through a lifetime of grey.
Mar 2014 · 639
Envelope
Kailee Sometimes Mar 2014
I want your arms locked around me like the flap of an envelope.
I want my name scrawled across your torso
with no return address present.
You are the envelope and I am the love letter within.
I want to be the stamp with an american flag
painted across my body standing against the breeze-
blue skies and transparent rain,
waiting for the mailman
to bring me to you.
Dec 2013 · 581
Holiday Heartbreak
Kailee Sometimes Dec 2013
Darling I hate this feeling you leave me with.
No more kisses goodbye or I love you’s
was I only a game, here to amuse?
Happy holidays Georgia,
I brought you this flower.
You're smile is gorgeous, please don't leave it behind

The scars on my arms remind me of you.
You stopped me from bleeding,
but now my fingers are blue
from the blizzard you left me in,
freezing, and wet from my tears.
I don't want your flowers; they were only a ruse,
to get me to love you
by the time new years rolled around
so you could tear me apart.
And now people will ask me what I got for Christmas
and all I can tell them is
a broken heart.
Dec 2013 · 377
Dead or Alive
Kailee Sometimes Dec 2013
When people see my wrists they question why I want to die.
What they don't understand is that
I don't intend to **** myself,
I just want to feel alive.
Dec 2013 · 427
Farewell Friends
Kailee Sometimes Dec 2013
These words are poured on thick
over
and
over.
Tired of apologies
and sick of antiquated rhymes.
Hand in hand we leaped through minefields
and chased after cars,
learning to fend for ourselves
in the waging war of diction and lines.
Some battles were lost,
others were conquered.
Through beauty and heartbreak-
we won this, together.
Dec 2013 · 1.1k
Seventeen (Grown up)
Kailee Sometimes Dec 2013
You're merely seventeen, you aren't in love,
you don't even know what love means-
but then...
neither do I,
and you may think I’m being ignorant
but I'm really just bitter to the taste and rough at the core.

My blood runs black, but my tears are sapphire.
My eyes are as glaring as the air in March.
Don't tell me my mind is powerless.
My soul is dense.
And though my heart is tattered and covered in scabs,
the wounds are more wise than your attempts of being an adult.

You may slush wine in a glass-
as tipsy as the seesaw on the playground from your childhood,
but you will never be able to see.

You can sing and dance that you're in love because you ****** the first girl that said she loved you,
but you shouldn't be so naive,
because it’s easier to be hurt if you are.

So you can wear your six inch heels
and prance around in your chiffon mini skirt and Chanel handbag,
but you will never be a grownup.
Nov 2013 · 451
Fire Place
Kailee Sometimes Nov 2013
The sparks crack
colliding in circles.
Watching. Listening.
Swirls spiral in scarlet rays of light
fighting to warm the room
through its art.
Sparks.
Nov 2013 · 609
Beautiful Death
Kailee Sometimes Nov 2013
When
the
day
turns
to
night,
you
reach
for
tomorrow,
one
thousand­
years
in
the
making.
Onyx
rose
petals
shield
radiant
eyes;
froze­n
tears
of
glass
last
for
an
eternity.
A
funeral
procession,
a
ro­mantic
obsession.
Summer
to
winter,
life
rushes
by.
A
waking
wate­rfall
disguises
the
past.
So
many
words
went
unspoken
that
you
ra­n
out
of
breath;
what
a
beautiful
death.
Oct 2013 · 324
War
Kailee Sometimes Oct 2013
War
These trenches scream

with the souls of

fallen men. Left

to be remembered by

letters they sent home.

Songs of love, tears of blood,

their cries of pain

soothe the ravens

to sleep.
Oct 2013 · 401
Lucille Clifton
Kailee Sometimes Oct 2013
running wild through my mind

i search for memories

long since forgotten

i can't remember what it was like to be with

you

though i can feel your eyes

burning into my soul

leave me out to dry

tear into my flesh

let me bleed so i can recall

my shadowed

past
Oct 2013 · 316
Love Like Chains
Kailee Sometimes Oct 2013
You are the
greatest part of me.
Maybe that's why
I've been feeling
suicidal lately.
Sep 2013 · 812
Home
Kailee Sometimes Sep 2013
I'm trapped here on the east coast and
My blood runs far too cold for the west coast,
There's no one in the mid-west, so baby,
Tell me somewhere to go that I can call home.

My bruises have disappeared
My scars are fading, but
When they're gone,
How will I remember you?
Because we're in a long distance relationship
Even though we live in the same town.

I used to think that wanting a midnight train to anywhere
Was "too cliche", but now,
I realize I don't care where I am,
As long as it's not here.

I feel claustrophobic in my own home.
I am going crazy staring out of these opaque windows
All
Day
Long. . . Waiting
For a miracle
That's never gonna come.
Sep 2013 · 705
Beaches
Kailee Sometimes Sep 2013
The ghosts of your exes live beneath your eyelids.
So when I look into your eyes I can see myself reflecting back at me.
You kiss my lips and I taste them instead of you.
You are nothing but a shadow of corpses sifting through the sand
that resides on the vacant beaches in my heart.
And your eyes are the waves in the ocean that hit the shoreline so
violently that even Zeus, the god of gods, would tremble in fear.
And I scream as I lash out for help, trying to escape these
tsunamis attacking me from all angles of the world.
But you don’t even try to rescue me from these disasters
like you promised, because you are the one causing them.
Aug 2013 · 853
Star Gazed
Kailee Sometimes Aug 2013
Those twinkling lights in the sky aren't stars,
they're the beginning of hell,
When we would lie in your front yard gazing at them
you would tell me that if there was a star for every minute
you loved me,
the moon would be
lonely.

But my time ran out
and all the stars ever did was
burn my hands,
Now the scars run up my palms
like abandoned train tracks
coated in rust
waiting to be polished.

You left me broken,
lying on the bathroom floor
grasping my chest because
the air was too thin,
I was unable to swallow the oxygen
swirling around me.

You set fires in my lungs
and watched
as I suffocated
reaching for your hand
to pull me out of the flames,
You walked out the door
leaving me only
with the false promises
and lies
you filled me with.

You were the reason
I got out of bed in the morning
when I was so depressed that
all I wanted to do
was lie
under the comforter
until the darkness
took my life.

Now,
how can you expect me to
function properly
when you were the light
that lead me to fields filled with
hope and love?

You picked me up off the ground
and knocked down the walls I had
barricaded myself with.

You
were the boy who helped me
gain the strength to
fight off my demons,
but now
You
are the boy releasing them from their cages.
Aug 2013 · 676
Phoenix
Kailee Sometimes Aug 2013
You aren't afraid of heights,
you're afraid of falling.
Of failing.
But how can you expect
a phoenix to rise from its ashes
if he's too afraid to burn?
Jul 2013 · 432
Fear
Kailee Sometimes Jul 2013
Life scares me
and
death does too
but what scares me most
is the thought of waking up
without you.
This was originally a part of another longer poem, but I just really loved the  sound of it by itself.
Jun 2013 · 517
Scars
Kailee Sometimes Jun 2013
I told you that you could never hurt me
because all of my wounds are self inflicted.
You assured me that that was ridiculous to say
because you would never hurt me in the first place;
and you kissed my scars and told me I was beautiful.
But this hurt me more than any slap to the face ever would
because I could see in your eyes, that are deeper than the ocean,
how much you meant it, and yet I could not see it.
You plead with me, telling me you want me to be happy, and
you wish that you could make me feel alive.
But the truth is, I have been dead for years,
wandering in a hell full of fear and self hatred.
There is no saving me.
The call of razors soothe me to sleep at night
as blood trickles down my arms.
The sensation in my heart feels the same as it does
when you look me in the eyes and
tell me you love me.
And I love you.
But I don’t know what to do, because
I love my scars too.
Jun 2013 · 789
Words
Kailee Sometimes Jun 2013
Words are like warriors.
And warriors are hunters and gatherers and leaders.
And I am. . . none of those things;
but when I pick up a pen, I can be.
I can be anything I want to be when I have a piece of paper and a pen.
A princess in a faraway land,
or maybe something a little less cliche,
like a viking going out to slaughter a village.
Or a teenage boy running from home to find the person he was always meant to be.
When I write, I can be strong,
I can be whole again.
I can be happy,
an emotion I haven't felt since I was a young girl.
I can trick people into feeling emotions
that they shouldn't feel.
I can make people happy or sad or jealous or angry
all with the words I choose to spill.
Jun 2013 · 2.6k
Laptop
Kailee Sometimes Jun 2013
I’m never ever going to get any work done sitting at a computer
rather than with a pen in my hand and a thought on my mind.
In Arial black I will waste away my time
by sitting on a website designed to keep my mouth shut and my eyes glued
to the glowing screen of the worlds media, that I don’t really care about,
but yet I care too much about.
I open all of the tabs and write down very few words
and what ever happened to writing complete and utter nonsense
just for the hell of it?
And why did I ever open this laptop to write a poem
that will be cut off by a website calling for me to look at its pretty pictures
and witty text posts.
And why will this drivel make me feel so **** happy
when all it does is waste my time and lower my grades
and destroy my self esteem
that has already been mostly deleted?
Why do I decide to waste all of these moments with wishes
when I could go out and make them realities?
I sit on this computer and stare at the blankness of other peoples thoughts
and mock the imbeciles for wasting all of their time coming up with stupid rhymes
and sarcastic remarks that they think are hilarious ,
but really they are pointless.
And though I laugh at their foolishness;
they are no worse
than I.
Jun 2013 · 854
Naive
Kailee Sometimes Jun 2013
As I sit down to type these words, there is nothing more that I want to write about than you. You clog every pore in my face, every inch of my mind, every cell of blood that runs in my veins is tainted by the thought of your voice saying my name. However, I do not wish to write about how your eyes burn through my flesh and seep into my bones. I want to write about something real, something raw. Something that is not just a lonely desire I carry. I want to write about. . . you. Its always been you, this stupid lust, this first love. I want to write about how I take the looks you throw my way and hoard them in a crystal box, that no one will ever open because I am the holder of the key. And I know this isn't fair for you because it is not my box to keep, you’re eyes are not meant for me. . .I want to write about heartache and longing for your arms around me. I want you to know that I want you to be happy. I’ll write you letters everyday if I need to. But I will not send them, for I know you will think it’s strange that a girl like me is so infatuated by a boy like you. But it doesn't matter because even though you are broken, I want you. Not so I can fix you or try to heal you. I want to feel your pain with you, so that when you feel like you are drowning, you will know that you’re not alone. . .I want to write silly metaphors that only a young naive girl could come up with, that are so cliche it hurts. But it won’t matter because I can feel your hand in mine and the earth underneath my feet. And when I inhale the air around me, I know it is your exhale that is being ****** through my empty lungs. . .I don’t want to write a love poem, but when I think of you, it’s all there seems to be.
Jun 2013 · 670
Hello God
Kailee Sometimes Jun 2013
Hello God,
You’re real, are you not?
I didn't believe for so long.
You were a figment of imagination.
An apparition disrupting the peace in humanity.
You installed fear within the race.
They paced with a fury greater than your own.

Hello God,
I am alive, aren't I?
Do you believe in me?
Or am I a figment of imagination?
Eternal damnation for the apparitions I created
in my mind.
The voices that have a fury
greater than the call
of a thousand moons.

Hello God,
You aren't real, are you?
I still don’t believe in you.
You’re a figment of imagination,
an apparition living in the minds
of the eternally ******.
Disrupting the lives we fight so hard to create.
I can destroy you with a fury
greater than the illusion you bear.

Hello God,
You fear me, do you not?
Your own people believe in me.
I am no figment of imagination.
I created the apparition of you,
and disrupted the peace
by telling the ****** that you were real.
I installed all of the fear.
No one will rule with a fury greater than mine.
Jun 2013 · 493
Dead
Kailee Sometimes Jun 2013
A soul overturned,
bodies gone cold.
Her ghost stained eyes
look into the light
of an unknown land.
She wanders alone,
hopelessly searching for something
long since forgotten.
Through the vacant desert, she glides,
as she feels rough hands come near,
a metal death she was forced to bear.
Jagged edges tearing through her.
A burned memory runs through her head,
a sad song on repeat.
This is what it’s like to be dead.
Jun 2013 · 939
Art (An Alphabet Poem)
Kailee Sometimes Jun 2013
Art
Bounces  
Calmly in a blissful
Daze.
Enlightened thoughts
Feathered with blackened
Grace.
Haunting lullabies
Illuminated by crying
Jokers,
Killed by shattered
Laughter and
Melancholy
Nights.
Oppressed by
Parasitic critiques,
Quick to judge the
Ravishing and
Sentient
Topics.
Unsuspecting to all, we
Visit the bleak and cold
World where
X-rays replace the blistering,
Yellow sun, and overshadow the
Zealous moon.

— The End —