The dance of you,
Where embarrassment meets happiness,
That I got to see.

For one moment in my own world,
You were mine.
The sway of your hips,
The kiss of your lips,
The brown in your eyes.

The stare fixed,
When it's just me and you.

Feeling of silk,
The calm after the storm,
All night I'll spend,
For you to wake.

Just so I can feel calm,
Without worry,
With you safe,
I can finally rest,
With you on my chest.

The person next to me isn't you
Lost you to find myself again
Leaving behind a city of dreams
and nightmares
Fulled by my addiction
Of being me
A Blurr of green passes by
Backwards in grey light
Knowing that I'll make a new life
But not sure how
Tears fall, stinging my cheeks
As they drop to my chest
Broken.
Humbled.
Once loved.
Always me.

That moment of time,
When you know you'll go.
When you leave it behind,
They say you'll never know.
To one day to return,
To find someone new.
Like we've got the time,
To wait in that queue.

I won't be back,
At least not here.
I'll search the earth,
Without any fear.
It's all for me,
But if I find you?
The world will change,
Into something new.

To say goodbye,
For the last time.
To say you'll come, that's a far cry.

But there will be one,
That I'll see.
It won't be here,
But we'll find our esprit.
On a land that we've never shared,
A ground never stood.
I won't return,
Because we are both driftwood.

As the chest beats, one last time.
Not for death but for you.
Let it be final, I had no clue.

The shiver as your soul leaves mine,
Parted by the un-divine.
Creatures crawl from their comforts.

The bottom of the pile,
Friends removed in a flourish
All I've got left now is my courage.

Leave and grow, with you behind.
Try and move on, find some kind.
In the glimpse from within the darkness,
Reaching out to grasp my own mindfulness.

The ray of light breaks the shade.
Waiting for this pain to fade.

The day feels unbalanced.
The night feels haunted.
Faces, changed by sodden tears.
Eyes awake but no light behind them.
Everything is switching, on and off.
Friends fall close, some fall away.
Remember them when you speak of them one day.
Stained by morning guilt as the sunrises, touched by shining silk.
A web weaved by the tip of your tongue.
Locked out of life, floating away.
Days float by in a sea of disarray.
One day, on the street.
I'll be brave enough to say hey.

By that time we will be too far away.

Too happy to write words.
The words of despair.
Sentences that came easy before, now sit in a void.
A void of unfortunate happiness.

The crevasse of heartbreak looms under inches of pleasure.
One last kiss won’t break the ice.
Let’s risk it.

To fall down to the depths of darkness.
Only to be rescued.
Once more.
By you.

The heart sinks but it finds a way to float.
The mind wondering at every possibility, the heart knowing you'll do the right thing.
But when your heart skips a beat.
The words you once depended on, leave you.
You are grasping, but there is someone who understands.

The words you once trusted have disappeared.
Replaced by a smile from a stranger.
That smile you have when you catch your reflection.
That grin, the only way that you know that you are really you.
The one you know that you've made it through.

Eyes closed, the imagination takes over, dream or be it reality, you live it.
Thinking of that touch.

Time is moving, but the smile remains the same.
Desire still removes the breath from my chest.
Left with only one thing, my smile.

In a slip of the mind,  I realise I don't have my smile,  I've got two.
For three days, hopefully, more.
I've got a smile, and yours is brand new.