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She buried herself on my chest
And
Through tired, foggy eyes,  stared into mine
Reading my expression effortlessly
Pure terror.

They said it was her kidneys, that, tired and tattered, could no longer keep up.

I kissed the crown of her head and brushed her cheeks softly.

Sharp pain ran through her tiny body and exited her mouth in a howl.
Call the doctor.

Just like that it was over.
Vanished.
Never to be seen again.

I am not one to pray.  But now I'm shouting at the heavens
OH GOD, PLEASE

GIVE HER BACK

UNDERSTAND

*She's  just a child

This is for you. Just yesterday, you went away. I wish I could give you a better poem but Im not a great writer. I'm sorry, I'm losing my mind. I love you so much. And I will never stop loving you and when my time comes, I hope to see you waiting for me, so we can be reunited. Never to be separated again.

#love #pain #death #depressed #daughter #denial #baby #sickness

May 2017 Marshall CB Hiatt

Desert

May 2017 Marshall CB Hiatt

South by Southwest

Desert

Desert clean
Purified by the sun's gleam

Sand . . .
in my eyes , nose and mouth

Temperature rising
as I head South

The unbearable burdens
thrown aside

I stumble on
trying to survive

No compass to bear
the sun will show

The choices I made
the resounding No's

Will be purified
Buried in sands of gold

May 2017 Marshall CB Hiatt

Wishes On Stars by Benji James

May 2017 Marshall CB Hiatt

Benji James

Wishes On Stars by Benji James

Making wishes on stars
As I fall apart
Tears in these eyes
Why does this never come as a surprise
Giving in to this hurt inside every time
Losing my mind, trying to hold the line,
trying to keep this heart together
Before it tears apart inside
Where did I go wrong
Just what did I do
To deserve this pain
That you put me through
Why am I always the first to lose
Where did I go wrong
Just what did I do
To go and completely lose you
Guess I'll just keep making
All these wishes on stars
As I fall apart without you

©2017 Written by Benji James

#wishes #love #heartbreak #loss #alone

Apr 2017 Marshall CB Hiatt

Heatwaves

Apr 2017 Marshall CB Hiatt

John Edward Smallshaw

Heatwaves

Good Friday for religion and for keeping the fridge full on because
I'm running at 30 degrees

The temp'
is only temporary according to the BBC
whose weather is the best
and the best of me and you
melts according to
the forecasts that we hear.

I'm working today so
don't listen to that Whitehall bunch
who say we're all on holiday
I'm not.

I prayed last night
for
rain to stop play
it didn't work
so I must.

is this really a just system
or a symptom of something
more sinister?

going to write me a letter

Dear Minister
but that's as far as I get
before they come to get me.

Apr 2017 Marshall CB Hiatt

My rooftop

Apr 2017 Marshall CB Hiatt

Poetry of the unstable

My rooftop

There is a place i go to hide
There is a place where i wished i had died
There is a place somehwere near
Where i have often gone and cried

This place i tried to share
But no one seemed to care
To me it was magical
Buf i didn't really dare

To hope that they could see
Because this place encompassed me
And wasnt about them
It was where i had come to be

To be who i am now
Its where i found
Out who i truly was
Its where my heart was bound

I went there often
I havent been back
I miss it
That beautiful rooftop
Where i would sit
And cry
Or wish i could die
Or think about suicide
Or where i would go
When there was no one home
And i could sit and think
I miss my rooftop
It was my place.

I use to climb on the roof all the time, especially when i was sad or depresses it was my special place, but the freezer i used to get up there has been moved and i miss it.

#npmplaces #rooftop #memories

Apr 2017 Marshall CB Hiatt

Untitled

Apr 2017 Marshall CB Hiatt

fdg

Untitled

freezing girl wonders
"what is interesting
and is it better than happy"
and i say
"always
but dear,
be boring if you can"

i wanna read and sleep and throw up lol